Well I did everything that was on the schedule and reached a point where I could no longer stay with the pain and the discomfort that has been slowly growing worse. So I went to see my friend who gave me a herbal tonic and marshmallow powder, also a medicinal tea and the guidance to avoid alcohol and sugar. Been having a bit more sugar than is good for me although still nothing approaching my old habits, time to swing back to a place of not requiring so much sweetness. At least not in my food anyway.
Forgive my barely supported visual segue into the realm of the faeries, after my Lord of the Rings themed party and the pleasure of having pointy ears for a night, I may be a little obsessed……….but now back to the story.
My friend confirmed that I had a fairly severe bladder infection and that we needed to hit it hard with the herbs, three times a day. I tried to do my overnight shift but severe pain in my back and probably kidneys sent me home a couple of hours early. Now I have had a day doing nothing much with everything I meant to do cancelled, just eating from the fridge, can’t face shopping. The things a body has to do to get a girl to slow down!
Of course that isn’t the whole story, dark forces have been on the move and there is a bit of carnage left, like on the Death card, representing endings. It’s a mopping up operation now and the more efficient I am in this process the lighter I will be, able to manoeuver in a new life that remains complicated while incredibly simple. Yes I know that’s a contradiction but both are true, essentially I am very happy but right in this very moment I have absolutely no energy, at least not in my body.
My mind and spirit are moving and bringing these words to you, I hope they are of some use as I really do get a lot out of putting my thoughts out into the world. Being witnessed is a very powerful exchange, thank you to those who follow my posts, your likes and comments are much appreciated.
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Walking the fine line between purpose and doing too much, coaxing my lovely body to fulfill the great tasks I ask it to contemplate and carry out, balancing being with running around in happy connection with a beautiful world. ‘Tis the mind that is the rub, careering ahead into the future and picking up deliveries of stress and worry as it goes, wanting to know EVERYTHING, even the unknowable. Wanting, wanting, wanting………….always focused on what it doesn’t yet have, or the pain of past losses, monkey mind needs no whip to keep itself on track, self-flagellation the sport it likes the best!
Adrenalin shoots into cells that only ever wanted to be happy and free, and suddenly aches and pains begin to colour this perfect world, the peaceful place that asks us just to be. A simple request from a physical creation that will do whatever it takes to bring us back into the truth of who we be, ignore your own wisdom at your peril for it shall always have the last word. And isn’t peace what we all truly desire in the end, there will always be weather in this particular sea, but the water has no agenda, it shapes itself according to everything else finding harmony and love in the dance.
I caress my mind and soothe its many fears and doubts, telling it that it’s not alone, never alone, the larger self will always be there to hold the container of life. Remembering that this journey is supposed to be fun, beer and skittles and love, dancing to great music, making music and flying to the moon and back again. When I release the past and future possibility, allow myself to be fully present in this moment, I wave a magic wand and hey presto, there is absolutely nothing to worry about!
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Life is like a great cloud of fairy dust sparkling with motes of light, interspersed with moments of shadow, our breath like the wind sighing through it all, as we walk and we dance and we sing. As we dream, ah the wild and fulsome ripples of our deepest self, expressing that which we cannot see when the sun doth shine, the night-time bringing its wisdom in strange and abstract ways. Reflections of truth half heard and glimpsed from the corner of the eye, blink and ye may miss it, focus and it be gone.
At sea in such a fog I can barely tell if it be day or night, knowing the path is there whether it can be seen or not, knowing each step in the moment it must be taken, knowing this is the time, the place. Angels beckon from the heavens above even as the Mother extends her earthy embrace to hold me tight, a bridge between the worlds, a streak of light from above to below. I am connected to everything, the bright energy running through my body is the same that lights the milky way, that fills the night sky with iridescent glow as fireflies dance and the dolphins swim.
Letting go of everything that I think I know, I am left with the emptiness of the void, the restfulness of complete surrender to this moment, to the unknown future, and a past that changes as I do. If the mind’s eye doth cast its own shadow, how can we ever really know for sure, the exact shape and texture of our life. Trust is all that’s left, and a heart that opens to embrace all things, a precise record not necessary when feelings flow through channels of joy, when the response to being alive is to love, and to love, and to love.
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A dream within a dream………within a dream……that is within yet another dream……interesting concept, I’ve done it in meditation, its fun to see how far you can go back, the watcher watching the watcher and so on. The film Inception does a nice job of playing with realities as a team go into the subconscious realm of somebody’s mind. They plan to go down into three layers of dream, in the end it is even deeper than they had planned, four realities operating simultaneously all heading for a collision point, the shock providing the kick back into current time reality.
Inception: A film by Christopher Nolan, with Leonardo di Caprio.
So all the people in these worlds are projections of the mind of the person we are inside, some would say that is true of the current moment humanity finds itself in. If everyone around you is a projection of you what is that telling you about yourself, doesn’t mean taking on other people’s stuff however, or stealing energy. It’s an idea, and this film really examines the power of an idea, the seed of a thought and how it can grow, shows the manifestation process in some ways, in the guise of an action film. Not normally my cup of tea so much but the costumes and cinematography are extremely well done, the acting of a very high standard, and the idea of four realities operating simultaneously keeps it interesting.
If you ever want to experiment with meditation then try stepping back from the deep space you have come to and begin to watch yourself do this. As you get more practice you may be able to step back again, and again, and so on……..it can be a lot of fun. And you will find that it does actually take you even deeper, it brings in the visual more strongly for me, and that helps the drop into deeper layers of reality.
Watch Inception for a nice bending of the mind, not that hard to keep it all hanging together but fun to contemplate for the space of a couple of hours.
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There is a lot of talk these days about getting enough of the good oils, in particular omega 3’s, a common source of this fat is of course fish. The only problem with this is that the disregard for sustainability that can be seen in corporations and governments around the world, extends into our oceans as well. If getting enough fish in our diet means that the ocean will be completely fished out by 2048, then a responsible person might just want to find other sources of omega 3’s.
Chia seeds: a rich source of omega 3’s.
Once again we have an example of vested interests who only care about making money, destroying our resources without any thought for the future. Since 1950 we have lost 90% of large fish from the sea, boats with HUGE nets trawl the oceans taking everything in their path, throwing away the bits that are of no use to them. It’s a far cry from the habits of indigenous people who generally take only what they need, with respect, leaving enough behind that the resources will continue to be there for future generations.
Western culture claims to operate on rational principles, does what I have described here make any sense to you? It certainly doesn’t to me, how can politicians keep taking money and favours from the lobby groups and still look their children in the eyes, knowing that their actions are changing the world forever, and not for the best of all humankind.
The separation of the heart and the head is the source of much of this insanity in my opinion, without the heart’s wisdom the head cannot really truly understand the consequences of its decisions. That’s what needs to happen in the inner realms of the future human, a coming together of the mind and the heart, an evolution into coherence. And of course there is also direct action, the Black Fish is a protest vessel that will be focusing on the Mediterranean Sea over the next year, where fishing regulations are routinely ignored, they will endeavour to expose and challenge these practices. To find out more check out this animated film below:
Year 2048: NONE of the fish left in the sea that we’re currently eating?
That is the dire warning in this captivating animated short about the overfishing of our seas.
A beautifully produced cartoon on a subject that couldn’t be more serious:
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There’s been a post brewing in me all day, but until I sit down to write I don’t really know quite what it will be about. There’s a sense of it but it is a knowing that is more in my body and intuitive self, the mind isn’t able to grasp it until the moment that it becomes the wonderful tool that it is, and helps me to form the structure of words that will carry this knowing. To be honest, when I am truly in the flow of creativity the mind is probably more of an observer, it can help with grammar and sentence structure, but even there I tend to feel my way. I remember doing grammar for the first time in early high school, and I always knew the correct answers even though I didn’t know any of the rules. I’d been reading good literature for years, and I just knew when something was correct, it felt right.
I’ve always guided my life by that kind of knowing, but this is something that has become even stronger if that’s possible. When I look at what I have planned for this coming week, I’m tempted to become overwhelmed, but everything I’m doing ‘feels’ absolutely like it will serve my highest good, and it’s therefore necessary to move with ease and grace upon this path. I will do whatever I have to, to make this possible, and that may well mean letting go of anything that doesn’t serve that goal.
I don’t watch television and my shows on dvd have fallen by the wayside, so that’s one distraction that won’t be in the way. I think that the biggest thing that I have to let go of is the notion that it’s all too much, and I don’t have the capacity to achieve my goals. In my last post I talked about beliefs, now I need to put my money where my mouth is, and let go of my own self-limiting beliefs, this release alone will provide enough extra energy to power whatever I need to get done.
I’m also settling in to my new house sit which is out in the bush, there are challenges like a slow combustion stove that I need to learn how to use, but it’s a beautiful energetic space that will support the next stage of my spiritual journey. I’m feeling soooooo excited to be here, as I continue to strip away what isn’t absolutely necessary, what will be left? And what new energies will be coming in, I have my suspicions but am remaining open to whatever spirit chooses to bring to me at this time.
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I listen to the voices in my head, does that make me mad? What’s more I tend to follow the advice that they give me, they never tell me to do anything that would harm myself or another living creature, in fact I find that what they tell me is usually in alignment with who I am as a spiritual and ethical being in the world. Yet most of those highly respected people who wear white coats and take charge of all the healing, would probably want to drag me away to a padded cell if they knew what goes on inside my mind.
So I don’t tell them, not that having voices in your head is necessarily a healthy phenomenon, but I know that I am sane, probably more sane than many of the people in white coats. I know that to be healthy I need to eat whole foods, reduce as much as possible the amount of stress I am experiencing, let go of thoughts that cause me suffering. I always come back to the fact that it is my perception that governs the kind of world that I create for myself, anything is possible if you believe that it can be true. Pay attention to your mind in the right way, and utopia is not only possible, but inevitable, hence my reliance on the voices in my head, they are a force for good.
Sounds easy doesn’t it, but in practical terms it takes a lot of focus and determination and what I like to call sheer bloody mindedness! We are indoctrinated in the first years of our life and we learn things like, ‘When I get sick I need to go to the doctor’, and so we believe that we are dependant on someone else for our healing. And so it goes, we are encouraged to be dependant rather than responsible for our own health and happiness, on all levels of our being. And most people buy into this story, no wonder there is such a lot of unhappiness in the world!
Bruce Lipton has written books on the subject of our beliefs and evolution and epigenetics, books such as “The Biology of Belief”, and “Spontaneous Evolution”, and is a very inspiring speaker who makes this information very accessible. This interview is 50 minutes long and well worth watching, check it out!
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