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The Light Of Awareness And The Sea Of Old Regret!

waiting-for-a-waveI feel like the surfer who is waiting out to sea for that truly big wave to come sweeping through taking everything in it’s path into a brand new day. Tomorrow we finish the packing, the next day we will be moving most of our stuff into storage at the home of one of our beautiful and generous friends. Then after a couple of weeks staying with my mother we will be moving into our new home in the bush. Sounds simple and is fairly straightforward but doesn’t ‘feel’ that way in this moment, there is so much more to moving than the physical side of things although most would probably say that’s enough in itself!

moving-out

Since coming to our safe haven after the trials and tribulations of the “Prison Farm” I have been very conscious of being grateful for the lovely space that we’ve been living in for the last four months. In the past I’ve needed reminders but I can safely say that not a day has gone by in our current abode without me bringing that sense of gratitude into conscious awareness. And somehow that makes it much easier to move on, when you have truly savoured the moment that you are in it becomes much easier to let go of when the time comes. This is an excellent example of how mindfulness can help us in our everyday life, with navigating the constant sea of change. When you bring the full light of awareness to every moment there is much less chance of getting lost in the dried up old sea of regret

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Of course bringing that light into your life will illuminate all the areas that haven’t yet been explored and may show you some of what is getting in the way of the full expression of your life force. This is what stops many from truly examining what lies within and it is easy to fall back into old patterns, endless repetitive loops of thoughts and feelings. It seems easier to fall back but the larger truth is that remaining locked into your small self is a recipe for misery and regret. Breaking out requires enormous courage but if you can truly understand the emptiness of the alternative it may be a little easier to find the motivation for change. And if you stick at it even when it doesn’t feel like anything is changing you will notice shifts over time, and possibly learn a thing or two about the concept of patience!

breaking free

Then once you are fully launched into this new way of being there will be times when you are amazed at how everything is falling into place, like magic. And when it doesn’t happen like that you will know to wait and see, sometimes Spirit understands the way that we need to move forward in particular situations a lot better than we do ourselves. This isn’t a recipe for living “happily ever after”, it is a way of ensuring that we get the most out of our current incarnation in the world. The happiness is a by-product of a life well lived and as such there will be sorrow at times too. All part of the wonderful opportunity known as being in a body on Planet Earth! Aho!

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Menopausal Me: The Libido Monster Rides The Wave Of Change!

heal yourself expoFor those who read my last post the Heal Yourself Expo was a great success and created a lovely laid back energy even as if offered true seekers a variety of alternative viewpoints on health and well-being. I had a rewarding couple of days and look forward to an event that grows and evolves over time even as it carefully keeps itself small and intimate. Less razzle dazzle and more education and empowerment! http://www.healyourselfexpo.com/ My focus at the moment with my health is the transition that I am currently experiencing which will take me from mothering to crone. Yes I am finally feeling menopause in my body and it is an interesting and sometimes very uncomfortable journey.

menopause dwarves

My moon time flow has never been regular and in the fifteen or so years that I’ve been keeping track I have never been able to discern a pattern. But that it is beginning to cease is obvious now and I spend a lot of time with the impending feel of the changing of the blood without the relief of it’s arrival. It is hard to describe what this feels like, there are times when I get cramping pains but a lot of the time the sensations are much more subtle than that but pervasive nonetheless. There is a sensation in my belly that sweeps through and for some reason is full of doom and gloom. At this point I am filled with gratitude for the mindfulness practices that I have put energy and focus into as it is relatively easy to notice my mind trying to justify the anxiety in my uneasy belly. I am very firm as I separate the sensation from the dark feelings and tell myself that it is a feeling that has no base in my tangible reality.

womans body energy

Sometimes I get this rush of energy through my body that feels like it wants to burst out of my skin. It makes me feel a bit crazy and is often accompanied by intense lust which can be a bit disconcerting for my dear Beloved even as he welcomes my ongoing horniness! I am so blessed because my beautiful lover allows me to express these intense feelings by groping him rather crudely at times and making strange noises. Some of you are probably wondering why anyone would have a problem with this but the “Libido Monster” does feel a bit out of control and can be overwhelming for us both. I have heard that some women lose interest in sex while they are going through menopause so I guess we can be grateful that our wonderful sex life will continue unabated!

couple make love

This exploration has been from the inside so far as I observe thoughts, feelings and sensations as they occur in my body. But I am lucky that one of my 50th birthday presents was a book called “New Menopausal Years: The Wise Women’s Way” by Susan S Weed. I haven’t found the time to read it yet but it apparently goes through all the different options for navigating menopause, from the bio-medical model to herbal and natural therapies. I will get to my reading in due course and in the meantime observe my body as it rides the wave into the next stage of being a woman. An exciting new adventure in the ongoing drama of being a human on Planet Earth!

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Hearts Full Of Peace Save The World!

waterhole summer swimmingAs a post, post script from last week I would like to add that I went swimming the next day at a local water hole. Even crammed with holiday makers and children of all ages it was incredibly soothing to be in the river and watch the sun glinting on green leaves and water. I’m so not a water baby but after that lovely experience I’m determined to do it again, but maybe after school has gone back!

waterhole summer swimming a

In the meantime my Beloved and I are having in depth discussions about mindfulness and being in your heart. We run our test class this Saturday and I’m excited and VERY nervous. What a wonderful opportunity to practice staying in my heart as strong feelings are moving through. I’ve noticed that it is fear or doubt that turns the excitement into worry. So does that mean I have to eliminate fear and doubt from my emotional vocabulary? Of course not! Sometimes doubt can be useful when it creates caution in potentially dangerous situations. The trick is to notice whatever you are feeling and to acknowledge or name it. It sounds so simple but often people try to ignore or dismiss uncomfortable feelings and believe me, those feelings don’t go away, they just get deeper.

Heart Pop

So rather than having to mount an archaeological expedition to find your feelings at some later date, why not deal with them right here and now. Once you know what the flavour is of your emotional state you can decide what to do about it. Sometimes it requires action and at other times stillness may be the best approach. Bringing the experience into your heart is always a good idea, if you are ever looking for effective simple exercises to achieve this I would recommend the Heart Math Institute:
https://www.heartmath.org/

heart leaves

So lets all be in our hearts as much as possible and I guarantee your world will be a better place, just imagine what it would be like if we all managed to do that most of the time! Peace on earth! Aho!

 

Staying Grounded In A Sea Of Change.

Heart PopIf you keep saying yes to things that sound exciting you will further your cause even if not a one comes to pass in the everyday tangible world. Of course some of them will but there can be times when simply considering an idea is enough to get energy moving, even if it ends up going in a different direction to where you started. My Beloved and I were considering the possibility of sharing a market stall at a festival and we had a meeting to talk about it that was fun and inspiring. In the end we aren’t going to do it but I have some positive energy moving from that experience that can now flow into other projects.

heart leaves

Just as well there are lots of positive bits popping up in the constant sea of change that still appears to be the energetic conditions of this particular time. The home environment that my Beloved and I are currently living in is not conducive to our being grounded and centred. Through nobody’s fault we are temporarily sharing space and for us it makes it much noisier than we are accustomed to. Even though I love music I often just have silence, especially when in a quiet place. And I haven’t watched television for 15 years!

But it is giving me good reminders about mindfulness and how spiritual practices can really support us when we are going through tough times. I spent some time this afternoon cleaning and I chose to think of it as a devotional practice. I saw myself radiating out love and harmony and peace as I worked, I could feel it flowing out of my hands. I thought of the gurus who say: Feed people. Serve people. Help people. Come back to basics and the things that are required to be happy and comfortable in our bodies, having a sense of purpose is just as important as getting food and rest.

Big Rainbow

It all matters and I am determined to keep riding the wave of change and adventure to the next exciting destination! Aho!

To Move Is To Be Alive!

Organs-Of-The-Human-Body“Blood cells that don’t move cannot transport oxygen, lungs that don’t move can’t breathe, hearts that don’t move can’t pump blood, and spines that don’t move can’t create the motion required for proper joint nutrition, for the activities of daily living, or for the stimulation of the joint-brain pathways required for proper brain and body function.” In short, movement is what enables our bodies to operate in all their delicate, wondrous complexity.

James Chestnut, chiropractor.

Dance and movement keep popping up whenever I consider current issues in my life, particularly in relation to my shoulder injury and the urinary tract infection that won’t go away. Of course I am doing what is appropriate with the medical profession, just because there is a lot wrong with modern medicine doesn’t mean that it isn’t a wonderful method of dealing with some problems. But expecting someone else to do all the fixing isn’t a useful way of thinking, if I want to get better then I need to participate in the healing process with as much mindfulness as I can muster.

mind-fullI’ve been moving less because of my shoulder injury, still can’t do my regular yoga class and struggling to get myself to do any kind of practice at home. Sometimes I don’t even know what makes it flare up, with that kind of uncertainty I am a bit scared to do anything that might conceivably make it worse. And becoming less physically fit isn’t going to help my immune system with the infection it’s dealing with. My sugar addiction is going strong again too which doesn’t help with this overall picture, certainly doesn’t look like the optimum health that I am aiming for in this life.

Not the state I aspire to!

Not the state I aspire to!

It’s very easy in a place like this to feel like there isn’t anything I can do to change this, the mind may know it’s possible but the emotional body feels trapped. What needs to happen is an internal shift of consciousness that breaks the old patterns that are flaring up at the moment. Each time I have been in this space I have found various ways of breaking the loop and the message that keeps coming to me right now is to move my body. My Beloved and I are about to spend four weeks on five acres with dogs and cats and alpacas and not much else so a space is opening up for exploration and for play.

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Sometimes it will be movement to music but there will be times when I invite my body to move to its own rhythms. This can be done alone but it is even more powerful with another as witness, simply observing, not participating except to give feedback afterwards. This is one activity that can be guaranteed not to hurt my shoulder, I have learned how to move so that it can participate without trauma. And my body always feels better when it is in regular motion, even just a short walk is enough to perk everything up. So while I will continue to call upon doctors to support me in my healing I will also be taking responsibility for my own wellbeing.

body in space

And once the shift in consciousness has occurred then all the other stuff becomes so much easier! When my head is in the right place healthy choices seem simple and obvious. I need to be kind to myself and take one step at a time, after all I have done this before. And each time I do it I find myself in a better position than the last time it happened, slowly but surely I am getting healthier and healthier.

fruit and veg family

Hooray for the opportunity to create a happy and healthy life on the lovely planet known as Earth!

We Are Spirit In Matter……Living In Love.

ayahuasca image 3A wonderful finish to a challenging week! I’m exhausted and coming down with the sniffles but feel very happy with the outcome of our workshop run through. My Beloved and I will do a much better job at The Joining Gathering in a couple of weeks having actually run it with a small group who gave us some excellent feedback. And maybe I won’t be quite so anxious on the day, hard to say as I have found in my experience so far that a certain amount of tension leading up to performing seems inevitable. I do think it tends to inspire mindfulness as well, so as long as you can still function it may be playing an important role in taking you into a heightened state of awareness.

ocean of love

It is certainly vital to step out of your comfort zone sometimes and do things that you feel passionate about, without some of that in a life growth will tend to be slow. And for some that may be just fine but for me spiritual growth is paramount and infuses my daily life, pretty much everything that I do. So while a slow pace may be appropriate at times it isn’t really necessary to have time off as such. Whether you are on an idyllic holiday or working hard with jobs and families, spirit is always there. I always find it amusing when people say “I’m not spiritual”, the truth is you don’t have a choice! We are spirit in matter by our very nature, beautiful bodies infused with the spirit of life, the spark of energy that connects us all.

univeral love twohands

Being in that space where all things are one and you can see and feel the connection with all of creation. A wonderful way of letting go of who you might think you are and coming into contact with the eternal aspect that never dies. Being in your heart and connected to your body, living in love, the essential nature of all things being just that, love………….

Love is all you need.

 

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I’ve been thinking a lot about what I’m creating in the world right now, and feeling the shape of it inside me. That’s how my process seems to unfold, the ingredients sort of mull around in the back of my … Continue reading