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Menopausal Me: The Libido Monster Rides The Wave Of Change!

heal yourself expoFor those who read my last post the Heal Yourself Expo was a great success and created a lovely laid back energy even as if offered true seekers a variety of alternative viewpoints on health and well-being. I had a rewarding couple of days and look forward to an event that grows and evolves over time even as it carefully keeps itself small and intimate. Less razzle dazzle and more education and empowerment! http://www.healyourselfexpo.com/ My focus at the moment with my health is the transition that I am currently experiencing which will take me from mothering to crone. Yes I am finally feeling menopause in my body and it is an interesting and sometimes very uncomfortable journey.

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My moon time flow has never been regular and in the fifteen or so years that I’ve been keeping track I have never been able to discern a pattern. But that it is beginning to cease is obvious now and I spend a lot of time with the impending feel of the changing of the blood without the relief of it’s arrival. It is hard to describe what this feels like, there are times when I get cramping pains but a lot of the time the sensations are much more subtle than that but pervasive nonetheless. There is a sensation in my belly that sweeps through and for some reason is full of doom and gloom. At this point I am filled with gratitude for the mindfulness practices that I have put energy and focus into as it is relatively easy to notice my mind trying to justify the anxiety in my uneasy belly. I am very firm as I separate the sensation from the dark feelings and tell myself that it is a feeling that has no base in my tangible reality.

womans body energy

Sometimes I get this rush of energy through my body that feels like it wants to burst out of my skin. It makes me feel a bit crazy and is often accompanied by intense lust which can be a bit disconcerting for my dear Beloved even as he welcomes my ongoing horniness! I am so blessed because my beautiful lover allows me to express these intense feelings by groping him rather crudely at times and making strange noises. Some of you are probably wondering why anyone would have a problem with this but the “Libido Monster” does feel a bit out of control and can be overwhelming for us both. I have heard that some women lose interest in sex while they are going through menopause so I guess we can be grateful that our wonderful sex life will continue unabated!

couple make love

This exploration has been from the inside so far as I observe thoughts, feelings and sensations as they occur in my body. But I am lucky that one of my 50th birthday presents was a book called “New Menopausal Years: The Wise Women’s Way” by Susan S Weed. I haven’t found the time to read it yet but it apparently goes through all the different options for navigating menopause, from the bio-medical model to herbal and natural therapies. I will get to my reading in due course and in the meantime observe my body as it rides the wave into the next stage of being a woman. An exciting new adventure in the ongoing drama of being a human on Planet Earth!

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Speak Only Truth And Be Happy!

red head with snakeSince I began tuning into my moon flow and seeing how it empowers me, I’ve grown fonder and fonder of that time of the month. I will miss it when it is gone, but in the meantime I can continue to go deeper into myself at those times and allow the increased sensitivity to help me to see more and more of who I am. It does change the way I respond to things and so it is really important to communicate to my partner how I am feeling, amazing when I think how in the past such a simple act as knowing what I felt and being able to tell someone seemed so bloody complicated!

moon time red

It can still be challenging, you may need to take a deep breath but open and honest communication is I believe a key ingredient in a successful relationship. If you can’t go home and relax into being completely who you are then opportunities to be yourself may be hard to come by in a busy lifestyle. I needed to do a lot of inner work before I could be that honest, I had to learn to not only like myself, but to love who I was. Considering some of the negative thoughts that were kicking around in my consciousness it is amazing that I didn’t just spontaneously combust and spare everyone the pain of my presence on the planet.

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Fortunately I am very bloody minded and I just kept plugging away, letting go of all that dark energy that was hiding my light, the bushel was of my own making that’s for sure! Time for us all to come out from behind our particular barrier and to step into a larger self, a future human in fact! It’s more fun even when things are hard, maybe because you are becoming more aligned to the flow of energies, more aware of the interconnected nature of our existence.

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