Photo by Ulli Hansen and friends.
Deep in the body I sink into sensation as my awareness falls away from the pondering of the mind with it’s endlessly unfolding patterns of thoughts and stories. In the moment of connection with the other part of my soul, found in the eyes of my Beloved, I deepen and fall. In the sounds of the birds that make a tapestry all around me and the heat which renders me unfit for anything but sitting and reading, sitting and gazing into the far horizon. A place with little thought and not much energy can be relaxing if you let go of the need to ‘do’ or feel the urge to be busy. Deep in the healing and feeling immense gratitude to the medicine of the Frog, gratitude to the spirit of the Amazon jungle. Riding the wave and knowing that a more focused understanding will emerge in the fullness of time, in the process of life evolving.
So until I am ready to share more fully I will move into the space of retreat for a time, celebrating another year on this magical planet known to us as Earth. In Gratitude to the Mother, to the Goddess and her Consort, to Shiva and Shakti……….. to Love! Talk to you next week my friends.
When things are going smoothly and according to plan it’s so very easy to be in your heart and to feel the joy of life flowing through your veins. The real test is when you are feeling frazzled and stressed, can you be in your heart just when you need it the most? Today I was still tired from a big and challenging work day and it took me most of the morning to get myself into a space where I was able to head off to my afternoon shift. I’m filling in for holidays this month so the schedule is fuller than usual and I was very much hoping to cruise through the rest of the day with grace and ease.
I won’t bore you with unnecessary details but you can probably guess where I am heading with this. There were no great catastrophes or disasters but it was stressful and the kind of stress that comes with a new computer system for routing phone calls going through a bit of a glitch. Nothing earth shattering but when you are already tired it can feel like the straw that broke the camel’s back! I did do some breathing into my heart as I cultivated a feeling of love by thinking of my dear Beloved. It didn’t magically shift me into bliss but it definitely eased the tension I was feeling and helped to keep me on an even keel.
Then I got home to find that my Beloved had also had a difficult day talking to phone companies trying to change over to a new provider and plan. And to top it off the B & B guests were being very noisy upstairs, first time we’ve ever heard the TV up there so they must have had it on pretty loud! We shnuggled and we showered, then we drove to a nearby lookout and gazed out at what was left of a gentle sunset. I followed this up with listening to some soft and ethereal music while my Beloved made our dinner.
Now as I sit here and write I can still feel some of the stress, and only sleep and rest will cure the tiredness, but I am coping. Sometimes that’s the best we can do. I’m also giving myself permission to finish this tomorrow as a deep kindness to me. So remember, if life is getting you down, breathe, be in your heart, change something or go somewhere.
PS: After an 8 hour sleep and then starting the day with yoga I am back in a happy place! I also found a bit of grass to sit on with trees, sunshine and birdsong before I had to be at work. I sent any remaining stress into the Earth and the Mother held me in her nurturing embrace. Only 10 minutes but oh what a difference! So don’t forget nature when you are feeling stressed, you know what they say: “There’s no Wi Fi in the forest but I guarantee you will find a better connection.” (From Facebook by I don’t know!)