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Becoming The Queen!

I talk a lot about stepping into my power, and one of the symbols for that process which is frequently before me in the readings I do for others, is the Queen. As I channel information through for clients, I often see reflections in my own life. I did a reading just recently for a very beautiful woman who was wanting to know about a relationship, she got three queens and what they were telling her was that she needed to focus on her spiritual path. The path of the heart, but not some romantic notion of that, it was all about her becoming empowered. The relationship was a good lesson for her, but ultimately it was not supporting her to be all that she can be.

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I’m not in a relationship, but I’ve been feeling an attraction for the first time in almost a decade, and it’s been quite a journey! Of course all my old patterns in relationship have been well and truly triggered, and there’s been the opportunity to clear enormous amounts of my excess baggage. It’s been a blessing even when I’ve been in tears, not because anyone is behaving badly, (for the most part), but because my ‘reactions’ have come out of my old programming, and this is providing a golden opportunity to clear the past out of my cellular structure.

The more that  I clear away the old negative patterning the lighter I become, and the more I can move into embodying my larger self, the one that carries herself with a royal air, at the same time she emanates compassion and love for all things, especially her smaller ego self. And this Queen will settle for nothing less than a King at her side, a relationship of equals who support each other in fulfilling the tasks they have come on to the planet to undertake.

On Marriage Kahlil Gibran

You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore. You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days. Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God. But let there be spaces in your togetherness, And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.

Love one another, but make not a bond of love: Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls. Fill each other’s cup but drink not from one cup. Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone, Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping. For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts. And stand together yet not too near together: For the pillars of the temple stand apart, And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other’s shadow.

And just for a bit of fun check out another kind of Queen: Freddie Mercury!

Sex and the Supernatural.

As I mentioned in my last post I have had a lot of powerful feelings coming up, old negative patterns and belief systems, and I just keep letting go and letting go. Sounds very spiritual doesn’t it, maybe even supernatural???? Very much so and I would like to thank Buffy the Vampire Slayer for being a wonderful distraction from negative self talk! Nine episodes in three days and my head is full of demons and witches, sexy vampires and cute teenage fashions, I may not be a shopper but I still enjoy the outfits.

Yes, I have another confession to make, I LOVE watching fantasy and science fiction shows and reading the books, Ann Rice writes with a seductiveness you will never ever find in a mills and boon romance. Fantasy and science fiction has been a wonderful preparation for the shamanic journey, and the entry into a new quantum reality. As I threw myself into deep journeying through trance, breathwork, bodywork, dance and sound, I found it easier to let go of accepted norms and to allow myself to surrender to strange spiritual dimensions.

It has been a wonderful time of learning and my background as an actor has also come in quite handy, in fact I participated in the creation of theatrical shows some years back in Sydney that were very much transformational theatre. As I have mentioned before, being witnessed is a very powerful tool, and can be a deeply profound experience for both the watcher and the watched.

I was a life model for drawing classes for a couple of years and when you are being looked at with full attention like that you can literally ‘feel’ the energy of that  strong focus. It actually feels very erotic but it has nothing to do with the fact that you are naked, nothing kinky going on here I promise. But you are connecting with life force energy, which is sexual energy, it is the most natural thing in the world but unfortunately it is an impulse that has been suppressed by the dominant culture.

I’m not advocating orgies here, but I do think that it is high time we moved beyond adolescent fantasies and an obsession with youth when it comes to sexuality. Being yourself is sexy enough and vibrant health on every level of your being the ultimate aphrodisiac!

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Mmmm……. as I look at this picture of Buffy I am thinking about my comments on adolescent fantasies, am I a hypocrite???? Awwwww give me a break, we are all allowed a bit of harmless frivolity, the true challenge is to make the changes in the lives we are actually living. I will keep you posted on my progress!