Passion ignites desire and eyes spark, as lips meet in prayers of fire, as a seemingly molten liquid speeds through bodies lit up from within by the sweet merging of love and opening. A thousand petals gently spreading their tenderest parts to the gaze of the Beloved, feeling the threads of light that connect us to all things, the quantum galaxy of swirling particles. The soul exposed in all its depth and stirring, stirring the stuff that lies within that is finally ready to let go, to let go, to let go………….
The body is finished with this flow, no longer in a super sensitive frame but taking great gulps of sensation as the pleasure takes me on a journey free of thought. Even as the body takes its due harvest I can feel that the ‘stuff’ that is moving is the last of this installment, this layer of the onion, only the mental body catching the last fragments as it goes by. Making worry over nothing in a vain attempt to hang on is the ego’s way of trying to stay safe, let yourself know that letting go into pleasure is the surest way to stay safe in a world that is constantly shifting and changing.
My safe harbour is always there even when there is choppy water and a storm brewing, so I can brave the dark waters knowing that I will never drown, never be lost. And as I release and release the weight of my soul I can dance lightly into the bright future that is revealed as the night’s curtain parts to reveal the birth of a brand new day!
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- The Dumbbell Nebula, also known as Messier 27, pumps out infrared light in this image from NASA’s Spitzer Space Telescope.
It feels like its time to say thank you, I have a lot of things to be thankful for and they include some stuff that is quite uncomfortable in the moment, but that takes you into deeper places. Go deep and rest in the dark womb of creation, a space where you can let go of it all, let go and be nothing and nobody……….everything and no thing.
I am grateful for every trigger, for every little thing that prodded and encouraged me to keep the energy moving, even the actions that were not in the spirit of integrity, have brought me to this place. So biggest thanks to the players on my particular stage who have been such able assistants in producing the right script to help me to move beyond such structure, into a dance of spirit that spirals me up into the light, an improvised jig with the whole cosmos!
Do thank your inner critics and helpers too, they have been on your case or cheering you on for most of your life, they all have lessons to teach, did you find your class room? Don’t worry its an open invitation to this particular university but the situation continues to evolve and divine timing is getting pretty damn close, time to be doing your job whatever it might be.
If you are not sure what that is for you, then begin with gratitude every day, over time you may begin to notice which things give you energy and excitement, follow that passion and see where it takes you.
Explore what you would like to have in your life in an ideal world and make it REAL……………….let Spirit know what you want for Christmas, and who knows, you just might get it!
Another inspirational piece from Louie Schwartzberg, the subject is gratitude, enjoy………peace and mung beans.
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Shimmering greens in every shade tease my wandering eye, as the westering light brings a golden glow that somehow illuminates the soul and the spirit of everything it touches. The earth speaks to me about her song and I know that she is sharing her wisdom with me even though I cannot always understand what she is saying, at least not with my mind. The inner eye reaches beyond the rational brain to pluck out gems from the body’s storehouse of knowledge, bringing each piece of treasure forth in just the right moment! Oh look, it’s a diamond shining at the crown, and over there a sapphire as deep and blue as the autumn skies helping me to speak my truth, and red, red ruby carries the fire of survival and connection and passion!
But for now I lay back and allow the gentle flow of nature’s voice to soothe the knots that tighten the flow of spirit, feeling the sacred space that is always within, that holds me with such tenderness. Time out in paradise, and everything lets go as the faeries sprinkle their sparkling dust through the corridors of my being, inviting me to dance and to play, to love and to laugh. The whispering wind tickles my fancy with his warm breath and I hang suspended above the ground gently swaying with peace gently vibrating in every cell.
Peace in every step.
The shining red sun is my heart.
Each flower smiles with me.
How green, how fresh all that grows.
How cool the wind blows.
Peace is every step.
It turns the endless path to joy.
Thich Nhat Hanh Excerpt from Peace in Every Step
Ohm shanti, shanti, shanti………….peace, peace, peace.
Embarking upon a journey into the swirling, twirling vortex that is the middle of every second week, slipping in a little footwork practice and a sleep before going off to find my attitude in strong poses and energy complete. Riding the wave of passionate expression I follow the winding path down the mountain and breathe a little sea air before hunkering down in the bunker, a welcoming warm shelter. It’s a matter of balance, of kindness, of care, do just enough to be alive fully but never push yourself beyond your capacity, whatever it may be.
I love riding the edge of what might be possible, testing the limits of how balanced I can be no matter what life may be throwing at me, brain working out as I follow the notes on a musical page and count the beat, rise to the note. Higher functions are operating and all is well as long as I can balance on that narrow edge, teeter a tad by all means but lets stay on the path and keep fanning the fires of creativity, the torrents of energy flowing over the cliffs, emotions letting go of their attachments.
My sea feels calm even when I can see stormy weather up ahead, the waves may be a bit big sometimes but if I can keep that calm centre within me holding it all together, I can ride out any storm. Just as well because I continue to add-on to the pile of what needs to be done by the end of the year, performance, costumes, the mastering of steps that seem to be forever in coming. The seeing, listening and enjoying of much good music, as well as the necessity of keeping the faith for all the Goddesses of the Dance by moving my body to good grooves on a regular basis.
That’s right, it’s supposed to be fun!
Someone should have reminded Judy Garland, here she is doing such a superb job of “Stormy Weather”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZfv1e2e7ug
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Once again I find myself dancing with the bug that keeps coming back to haunt me, if things really do come in threes lets hope that this is the last time! I’m feeling much better since my counselling session last week and doing my best to take care of myself while still doing the things that need to be done. I’ve been working on my writing project as well as reading “The Art of Non-Conformity” and inspiration is flowing, although as I sit here writing this post there are butterflies dancing wildly in my belly.
I didn’t wake up with this feeling and am not sure what triggered it, but at the end of the day it doesn’t really matter what it was. I could say it was a thought that obviously didn’t serve me but that wouldn’t actually be accurate, whatever is moving in me needs to move on, and the trigger is a necessary part of the clearing process, so I bless and honour it. But I don’t enjoy the feeling at all, in my days of unconsciousness this is what would drive me to try to blot everything out by getting stoned or drunk.
Now I sit with the feelings and breathe, bringing the notion of devotion into the equation, devotion to my healing process, to the sharing in this blog, devotion to all the special people in my community, and one in particular who is having a birthday today. As I do this the energy in my belly moves out into my arms and legs, and then starts radiating out into the aether as if I have become a small sun. I begin to breathe in and out of my heart and what was a kind of anxiety has transformed into excitement and anticipation. Now I’m feeling a bit light-headed and there is a sense in my body almost as if I could start to levitate!
Wow, what an interesting and quite spontaneous shift! The imagination is a marvelous gift and if you allow it free rein it can take you anywhere you need to go, a good reminder for me as I continue with my writing project and the development of this blog. And my sense is that if I can balance self-care with doing the things I am passionate about I will win the battle of the bug, so be warned denizens of the micro world, this gal is no push over, her immunity is strong!
Balance is the theme here as we are heading towards a New Moon in Libra next saturday, but more on that subject later, for now farewell dear friends, good health to you all!
PS: When I finish this post I am going to go for a brisk walk, excited energy is needing to be channelled, transformation of anxious energy motivating even more self-care!
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Stepping out of the box, that’s the invitation, I don’t seem to have the time to read “The Art of non-conformity” so maybe I just have to do what my intuition is telling me to. To put myself out there with self-confidence, authenticity, passion, and be ready to receive the potential that flows back to me even if it comes in forms that are unexpected. I made an important shift a couple of days ago, I noticed that when I thought about my writing there was passion and excitement there, but there was also the idea that it took a lot of time and didn’t support me financially. That’s hardly thinking of successful outcomes, there certainly isn’t faith in my vision when I am in the energetic field created by that thought.
So I’ve started describing the time I spend on my writing as work, “I have to go home and work tonight” I said to the girl at the cash register and she looked intensely curious as she asked me what I was working at. I told her I was a writer and it felt good to say it and be witnessed, and I did go home and work on how I was going to get myself out there, as well as write an inspired blog post. Just telling you about it here feels like yet another stage of being witnessed, I can feel my ego getting frightened as I strip away even more of what you are ‘supposed’ to do, and do my best to surrender to what I ‘know’.
Even when knowing, and lived experience don’t seem to be saying the same thing, breathe and surrender, let the larger self be the guide on a journey of opening hearts and letting go………. There are times when we need to allow ourselves to be led by intuition in its purest form, without question, to be in that place truly is why it’s so important to let go of everything that obscures that clear view.
And Animal totems along the way can be our allies on the journey, but that’s another post, until I speak to you again, love and blissings……………
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When we talk about stuff coming up, most people automatically assume that something negative or difficult is responsible for the triggering. But that isn’t always the case, sometimes you can have experiences that are blissful and ecstatic that bring up uncomfortable feelings. My deep connection with Mother Earth that I spoke of in my last post is an example of this, although the stuff that came up was like light butterflies zooming around in my belly, and the feeling that eventually came up was a gentle sorrow.
I am in a period of great clarity having shifted an enormous amount of stuff over the last ten months, so what is coming up for me at the moment when it does happen is pretty easy to deal with. But that isn’t always the case, and it can make people resistant to the process of moving into their fullness however they may be approaching it. On some level they are aware that discomfort could arise and that brings up the resistance to letting go of the old patterns of behaviour.
I am reminded of that wonderful quote from Marianne Williamson:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.”
I gave a sound and body healing session to a friend yesterday, and that’s what got me thinking about this subject matter. It was beautiful and flowed very organically, the words that came out of my mouth, my movements and sounds, all pure channeling. I was very much in my fullness and it was a wonderful experience for her and for me. She stayed on for a cuppa and as we talked I gradually began to feel rather strange inside my body, a little bit nauseous and disconnected from myself and the world around me. It wasn’t very comfortable at all, but after she’d gone I did a short meditation that brought peace into my body, as I let go of the swirling energies, coming back into balance again.
So don’t let potential darkness stop you from stepping into the spot light and showing off all your gifts and talents to the world, without the dark how would we know what light was? I speak with the knowledge of someone who has spent most of her life hiding her light under a bushel, and I know how hard it is to come out. If I can do it anyone can………………..what is it that you really want to do, what is your passion, your heart song……….follow it to your bliss, and don’t be afraid of the dark!
Which reminds me of a beautiful song, here is “You’ll never walk alone” from the musical “Carousel”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6V9EbnNx6U
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A couple of posts ago I was raving on about how great I felt after evicting what seemed like another nasty bug, it seemed so unfair when I had only recently spent a week in bed, so unusual for me. At the same time that I was feeling that energy surge through my body I was also aware that I was riding a fine line, that kind of enthusiasm can spend your vigour and take you back to a place of ill-health. It’s something we’ve all done at one time or another, when you have been feeling low the return to full life can almost be a bit overwhelming.
So I was determined not to allow that to happen, with two overnight shifts in a row and a busy weekend to follow I needed to make sure that I took proper care of myself. So I made sure to lie down and at least have a doze before going to flamenco class, it was particularly vigorous but I enjoy it so much it ends up giving me as much energy as it takes. If you are going to fill your life with a lot of activities then it is essential for most if not all of it to fill you with joy, that kind of passion will take you a long way although it doesn’t change the message that spirit is sending me to slow down.
Alas the bug was not completely cleared, so I’ve been trying to do what needs to be done at the same time as taking care of myself . That means green smoothies and meditation, after a long session on the laptop I went and lay on the earth for a while feeling the loving support of Mother Earth. Connecting your bare skin with the earth on a regular basis is sooooo important, you can feel any stress draining out, it’s a bit like the earthing wire in electrical systems.
So here I sit still feeling the sickness in my body, looking forward to a medicine circle where I will hopefully be able to journey to a place of full health. Shedding whatever needs to go, embracing the wonderful new beginning that has opened up for me as I move through this transition, into my wondrous new life!
So be it, so be it, so be it…………
For more information on earthing have a look at this website, and if you are intrigued by the whole subject get researching, there is heaps of information out there: http://www.sarahwilson.com.au/2013/05/my-simple-home-earthing-mats/
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“Peace is present right here and now, in ourselves and in everything we do and see.
Every breath we take, every step we take, can be filled with peace, joy, and serenity.
The question is whether or not we are in touch with it.
We need only to be awake, alive in the present moment.”
An amazing sense of having my life back envelops me in presence, how we can stray and become lost without even realising that we are no longer fully here, in this moment. How long have I been gone I ask myself, and cannot find an answer. I guess I must have popped back from time to time, even if it was simply to write these posts, a wonderful exercise in being present!
There are moments of drinking in nature’s gifts of green leaves and sunshine and listening to the bell birds that have happened over and over again. I remember this clearly, so perhaps I’m being a little bit hard on myself, memories of preparing food with love and talking to quarrelsome chooks and squeaking guinea pigs. I have been here, but I’ve also been spending too much time in an imaginary future that never ever had foundations, I knew that on some level but I chose to be in denial for a time.
So now I AM HERE!!!!! In this body, in this beautiful part of the world, in a life full of love and connection, stimulation and passion, and good old-fashioned fun! Enough of the misery and tears, letting go of the pain and the anger, and if there is even the tiniest bit of resentment, scraping it out with ruthless intent. My favourite definition of resentment comes from Carrie Fisher, not only Princess Leia from Star Wars, but also a very funny author, she says that “Resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die.”
Well I’m not going to waste my time waiting for another person to trip themselves up with their own stupidity, they can do that quite well enough on their own. Mmmmmmm………do I note a little bit of anger in that last statement, ok so I’m not perfect, but I’m working on it already! The best way to let go of all of that is to be in my life as fully as I can, and to have fun no matter what I am doing.
LET THE CELEBRATION BEGIN!!!!!!
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“Life is sacred. Life is art. Life is sacred art. The art of sacred living means being a holy actor, acting from the soul rather than the ego. The soul is out of space and time and hence always available, an ever-present potential of our being.”
Maps to Ecstasy (Gabrielle Roth), Nataraj Publ 1989, p 147.
Letting go of the last parts of the loss and abandonment that I felt in my last contraction, I read these words at the perfect moment. Those feelings come from my ego self, the part of me that identifies itself with the current paradigm, that needs confirmation from the world around her to feel worthy and whole. Gabrielle Roth identifies aspects of this smaller self with names that vividly convey a sense of the personality, the ones that I particularly identified with were, Judy Judge, Fay Fairytale, and Nellie Needy. I had a moment last week when I was feeling dread in the pit of my stomach about the dentist, when that neediness came up and wanted to translate into reaching out for comfort. I managed not to go there thank the Goddess!
To always come from the sacred part of myself, the soul, this is a vision worth pursuing, but it can be harder than it sounds, especially as the ego desperately trys to cling to its comfort zone. I mentioned before that I have been feeling an attraction to someone for the first time in a long time, that’s something that the ego keeps wanting to obsess over, while my larger self knows there is plenty of love around, no need to spend so much energy on just one possibility. When I am in the full flight of passion, when I am doing what I love and going into ecstatic spaces, I fly away from the ego and into that inspired place that is the birthright of all of us.
May I always come from my heart and soul, be inspired, loving, passionate and kind, may this be the energy that infuses everything I do no matter how ordinary, may I live my ordinary life in an extraordinary way! Love and blissings to you all, shanti, shanti, shanti………..peace, peace, peace………….