Diving into the space of eternity I fall into the softest state of being, letting go of the things that are supposed to be who I am in the world. Following the path of the heart, letting go of who I think I am, this has been a major part of my journey into relationship as a spiritual practice.
Not that you have to be in a romantic relationship in order to let go of the ego’s assumptions, I’ve been following this particular path for what feels like a very long time. Just reflect for a moment, how much of your sense of identity comes from what other people have told you over the years? Parents, teachers and institutions, images in a culture that screams out youth, money and status! Even those who appear to embody all of these desirable traits, will often secretly feel unworthy. I can think of at least one drop dead gorgeous young woman I know who constantly surprises me when she seems unable to see her own beauty.
It’s such a relief to let go of all of that weight of expectation, to drop into the stillness of expectancy, quivering on the edge of the unknown. But to get to that place you need to be prepared for being uncomfortable at times, breaking old patterns requires focus, determination, and a certain amount of bloody mindedness.
It can also be fun and I am very excited to be bringing my awareness to ways in which I can support people in doing this for themselves. My Beloved and I have been accepted to run a workshop at the next “Joining Gathering” in September, it’s called “The Path of the Heart: Letting go of who you think you are”. (http://www.thejoining.com.au/) So far we make a good team, in the bedroom, the kitchen, in tasks around the house and on the dance floor, this is our opportunity to take that energy out into the wider community.
The adventure continues and my own path of the heart shines out like the glorious sun on a crisp autumn morning.
“Until further notice celebrate everything!” (St Germain through Azena Ramanda)
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I’ve just had a series of sudden, surreal crisis moments, its like a picture gallery in my head that I can return to and view. In the first one both horses escape and the nearby neighbours come and help us get them back in. Then when coming home later that night from dropping my dear friend who came to dinner off in town, one of the horses got out again. In spite of being novice horse handlers we managed to get a halter on the old girl and we used her to lure the other cheeky bugger back inside, it worked!
Then today I decide to shower after doing the morning feed and was feeling good as I reached for my towel. Suddenly there’s a big spider on my right breast and I’m screaming and brushing it away and running into the hall. The spider of course has made itself scarce, nowhere to be seen and no doubt quivering in its boots as my Beloved checks the bathroom. Must have scared the bejesus out of that poor critter! And I forgot to mention the removal of two large spiders from the house, what is the spider telling me?
Spider medicine has encouraged me to write in the past but I do that three times a week when I offer my posts, so perhaps I need to reflect some more on this and see if I can find a meaning that helps me to navigate. There is always a lesson in everything and if you choose to view your life in that way then you tend to have a sense of meaning or purpose. On some level I know what the next step needs to be and if I can surrender to that then I flow with the energetic currents of where I am at in my life.
Swimming against the current is exhausting and will create undue stress. People cut off from their inner selves who are not following the path of the heart are likely to experience stress as they are not in touch with the whole of their nature.
So I have a bit to reflect and think upon, I will keep you posted!
It’s probably time I completed my burning bladder story, the fire did get put out and I appear to be back in good health after doses of good herbs and powders. Being back in business is wonderful and has helped to spawn, along with David Deida, a couple of posts about the healing qualities of the state of being in love.
That is of course an ongoing tale for me and as I think upon this I realise that Fay Fairytale has not appeared as a separate being for some time. She is more a part of me now and supporting me in creating my vision of the future, the Dream Seed that holds the new chapter which is dawning in brilliant colours.
I guess the various aspects of ourselves, Fay Fairytale, Judge Judy, or Nellie Nobody, just to name a few possibilities, are all a part of who we are. It may be built on early conditioning so there is input from others but the raw material is the stuff that we are made of and when we take responsibility for all those different bits we can let go a little. And a little more, and a bit more……..and then there isn’t any ‘reaction’ to create the attachments that used to shape our creation.
This is when you can begin to work in the pure space of invention, bringing through the frequencies that are a part of your gift to existence, the blueprint of your current incarnation and the contract you made. It’s a beautiful thing to know why you are here, not all vision can be converted to words but the feeling in your body will tell you if you are following the path of the heart. And drawings can be a wonderful space to channel through whatever is brewing inside of you, you can do it with specific intention or you can intend to surrender and let the pictures come through you, the intuitive side.
Let the dance begin!
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