Well there’s good news and bad, whatever was in my neck has definitely gone, but my bladder is flaring up again. The medicine circle was beautiful as always and I received the understanding that I had shifted something in my body and that it was gone. I also got the message that I need to move my body more often in dance as well as yoga. Messages from spirit often tell us things we already know, gentle reminders of the treasure of knowledge that we carry within ourselves.
I asked for physical healing in my circle and so I am wondering where the bladder fits into this picture. I recently cleared a layer of very dark stuff which I thought the bladder infection was a physical manifestation of but here it is again bringing my attention to something that needs healing. So either it’s something new or I am meeting a deeper layer of the same energies.
I can feel resistance to looking at what this is about and as I sit here I can feel anger in the burning down below, there is a part of me that just wants everything to be fine without having to look at anything. This resistance seems to be manifesting through my computer which is behaving in the strangest fashion, the keyboard has gone mad and I wasn’t able to write my post much less fix the problem. I am writing this on another computer and really struggling to make myself keep going, like a part of me wants to give up.
There is an aspect of me that doesn’t want to be here which I’ve worked with before this, maybe I am meeting a deeper layer of it. Whatever the answer may be I will have to explore it in future posts, I can only keep up this much coherence for a limited time. With any luck I will be able to soon report some clarity on this issue, until then I shall sail the sea of confusion, trusting that the energetic currents will take me where I need to go.
And herbs for the infection without a doubt, this is one of those times when I need to take care of the physical directly as well as find the place from which this issue has come. I asked for physical healing, this dis-ease may well be a part of that process………….be careful what you ask for…….the Gods may just give it to you!
I was getting ready to go and visit a friend in hospital yesterday and as I put my bag on my shoulder I felt a sudden and sharp pain in my right neck and shoulder. A few gentle stretches and I was on my way but I could feel the soreness in my body and this gradually got worse as the day went on, felt like I was falling apart! I began to notice other aches in my body and realised that my second yoga class for the year (yes I did finally make it!) had really had quite an impact.
There is the obvious fact that if you are not stretching so often the muscles are going to end up a bit sore when you actually do get to it, but as always I tend to contemplate a bigger picture when I consider physical manifestations such as aches and pains. Love making is a place where a lot of my therapy happens these days, it can be enormously helpful in moving energies that are active in the body and so assist in clearing out old patterns. So there was quite a lot coming up for me and at one point I could ‘see’ this black shape in my neck, it was a rough black shape a bit like an infinity symbol.
It seemed to dissolve with the movement of energy so I think it was released but it will probably be something I will check on when I am on my medicine journey tonight. My intention will revolve around physical healing as that is what is coming up strongly for me at the moment, the bladder is still behaving itself at present but I when I tune in I can feel that it is still not in an optimum state of health. My experience on journeys is that my intention is always addressed but often I get a much bigger and broader picture so it will be interesting to see what comes up.
I feel very ‘open’ which is a great space to be in when going into the mystery, the trick is to state your intention and then to let it go and surrender to the process. What a fortunate life I do lead where I have the opportunity to go on grand adventures into my inner realms, with beautiful facilitators who hold a deep and respectful space that I can dive into, carried on the wings of trust.
Fly, fly high, let the earth touch the sky………………an inspirational song from the fabulous Deva Premal and Miten, enjoy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UKYgA2JaufY
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