I wrote a post that came out about a week ago about how loving yourself is easy when you are doing fun things, but when the times get tough it can be challenging to maintain that positive outlook. So how did I go with this on my recent trip, as a matter of fact it was on the very day that post came out that I spent 12 hours sorting and re-packing my stuff!
I started off looking through the journals and bits and pieces I had written, and it was actually pretty interesting to get glimpses into my past. But I was always going to keep all of that stuff, so there came a point where I realised that I was not using my time very efficiently, however fascinating it might be. At that stage the day was almost over, and having champagne with my friend didn’t help the process either. Hence the 12 hour day where the only sorting was of things that might get thrown away, and I managed to get rid of quite a bit.
That very long day was where I was truly tested and I have to say that I passed with flying colours! The temptation to hate what I was doing and wanting it to just be over was very strong, so I did what I always do in that situation. I made the choice to see it as an act of devotion, in this case the devotion was for self, there is something very sacred about clearing your clutter and getting more organised. It also felt like I was gathering in parts of me that had been scattered so was very much a part of becoming more whole, putting all the bits of me back together.
And I do feel different, its subtle and there aren’t really words to describe it, but I am not the same person who went down to the city just a short time ago. May these winds of change guide me as I navigate my way through the birth of a new world, my own personal reality and the larger one that holds us all.
Ohm shanti, shanti, shanti…………peace, peace, peace……….
Here I am feeling empty and trying not to worry about the things I have to organise in the next couple of weeks, and of course my belly is feeling a bit jumpy. Stuff just keeps getting triggered, and I do find that by actually focusing on the feelings I will often start to feel a bit better, certainly ignoring the stirrings doesn’t help at all. Meditation is a wonderful way to work with uneasy belly, it is a nice sharp focus and the energy may begin to move even before you get a sense of what it’s about. In fact sometimes the energy moves and you don’t need a story, I’m feeling a bit of movement as I write, don’t even know what the feeling is exactly.
It’s in my heart now, I will pause here and do the heart lock meditation from the Heart Math Institute and see what happens. Well the belly is much softer now and my heart feels light, in fact I feel rather spacious in my chest as though there is more room there now. It’s a really simple meditation, you focus on your heart and breathe in and out through it, if you want to take it further then begin to radiate out into the world the warm fuzzy feelings that will begin to emerge. I’ve got a lightness happening from my toes all through the body, and all this without a single piece of narrative.
Mind you, we are story making creatures we humans, and there’s nothing wrong with that, we have an opportunity to create new tales for a new age, so it’s definitely time to let go of the old ones that don’t serve us very well. If knowing what the feelings are about helps you to let go of them, then by all means let that be a part of your process. There isn’t a right way of doing any of this, there is simply your way, and that’s the one that’s right for you!
Here is a clip of Gregg Braden talking about the human heart, very inspiring and you will find out from him just how those kinds of positive feelings can help us, not only physiological benefits but much, much more!
And here is the web site for the Heart Math Institute: http://www.heartmath.org/
I’ve had a request to write about the subject of how to open to life’s blessings, it’s a theme you will find running through a lot of my posts, but I think I will try to pop in something specific on this from time to time from now on. The first thing that popped into my mind when I read this comment was gratitude, simply being thankful for the good things that you do have in your life. In bleak moments this can be challenging, but there’s always something you can find, it might be the fact that you have all your limbs and air to breathe, or maybe it’s the fact that the doom you were certain was on its way didn’t actually arrive today!
I feel gratitude most days, but with this time of intense energies we have been going through, there have been times when I have struggled to find that place in myself, so don’t give yourself a hard time if you can’t manage to get there. Be present with whatever emotions are moving through you, and be prepared to look through the chink of light that will appear if you can allow those feelings to be released. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel no matter how long the journey may seem, and as the light begins to seep in it may become easier to genuinely feel that sense of gratitude.
Whatever you choose to focus on will grow, so that attention on what is good in your life will help the positive aspects to develop and grow stronger. You could formalise this process by keeping a gratitude diary, every day write down all the things you feel grateful for, if you have a friend to buddy up with so that you are each doing this and sharing with each other, it can become even more powerful. Not only keeps you on track in terms of the discipline of doing the process, but it also brings in the power of being witnessed.
Here is a brief meditation from Deepak Chopra on gratitude, he’s an inspirational teacher who has helped me a lot in the past to understand difficult concepts like quantum physics, not that I can really get my brain fully around that particular subject, but he definitely made it more accessible for my unscientific mind! He has a wonderful way with words, if you are not familiar with him why not go googling, he has also written many books. Love and gratitude to all who follow and read my offerings here on throughthevortex.org, grateful blissings…………
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