Shifting from fear to wonder and riding the storm, short, sharp and intense, but no longer ushering in a dark sky that is wont to bring the clouds that prevent me from seeing my own bright light. The sense of doom sitting in the pit of my belly a relic of the past that I leave further behind with every breath, trusting that every step that I take is an integral part of the picture that I am painting in inner realms.
Trust, trust…………surrender to what is and move with my own precious flow, plucking the jewels that lie along the way, glittering like stars and offering me such a rich array of bounty. Within the deepest parts of self the sands are shifting, uncertain footing giving the illusion of shaky ground, a sense of falling……………turns to freedom and wings taking flight.
Letting go into the unknown as the heart’s wisdom opens door after door, fractal beauty speaks to my DNA and I AM so excited as creativity unfolds with each release of the force of life. Less and less do I resist, the creeping mist, burns off with morning’s rays, shining like the gleaming gold of treasure buried, of dragon’s hoard.
I am the treasure and I am found, I am here, homeward bound, I am here, sacred pure sound, I am the one receiving the sun, flower is open, time to have fun!
Speaking of dragons, we are about to meet Smaug, for fans of The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings, check out this trailer if you haven’t already!
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Feeling the strength that comes with being in my own power, worrying about the challenges ahead doesn’t really get you anywhere, taking action does! Time to truly get my act together, the final clearing out is almost upon me and I have realised that the letting go that has been such a theme for me, needs to be reflected in my outer world, as well as the inner. I’ve lived with most of my stuff in storage for four and a half years so the idea that I don’t have much is something of an illusion. Granted I don’t have a house full of things to deal with, but it’s still a part of me that is somewhere else, time to consolidate all these disparate parts!
Having to be careful with your budget helps one to be ruthless, why on earth am I hanging on to plates and knives and forks, transporting them thousands of kilometres when they are so incredibly easy to replace! Most of them came from op shops and urban recycling anyway, no precious or valuable china in my collection that’s for sure. I am actually looking forward to sorting and re-packing now, a big shift from the anxiety I’ve been experiencing whenever I thought about what was coming up.
There will be an opportunity with everything being here where I am, to go through copious notes and journals from my years of shamanic studies,what gems of forgotten wisdom will I find? The trick will be to find the time for all this sorting but I rather suspect that you will read many interesting and thought-provoking posts that will emerge out of this process. I saw a psychic not long ago who told me I would be getting my stuff in order and doing a big clearing out, I am very pleased to have her accuracy confirmed as she saw a prosperous and happy life ahead of me. Of course I could have told me that but it’s nice to have it confirmed!
And as always I have the support of a wonderful community here, ask and ye shall receive, love and you will never truly want for anything. And here is a quote from the Bible that pretty much gives us the basic law of manifestation:
Mark 11:24 ESV / 111 helpful votes
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
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My challenge in this moment is to be ok with the fact that my bank account suddenly, mysteriously, appears to be in the red, shouldn’t be possible with a debit card! I’m seeing a client this afternoon and was able to buy what I needed in town so everything is fine, tomorrow a big pay goes into the account so there is actually nothing to worry about. An earlier version of me would be freaking out at this point, but instead I am sitting here with a slight bit of uneasiness in the belly.
I feel a sense of trust that my finances will unfold in the best possible way and that everything that I need to do will happen in divine timing, which is always perfect even though we sometimes only see that in retrospect. This feeling of trust is quite amazing, the more I focus on it the more it grows and becomes a bubble of joy, and the uneasiness in my belly dissipates. I really, really know as a body knowing, that I am always taken care of on every level of my being, there is no fear coming up at all.
That dis-ease is more about not knowing how the situation came about, the information tends to be slow coming through on my online banking so it isn’t telling me what I need to know. But the more the feeling of joy blossoms the less I need to know, may not sound like much but for me it seems like a small miracle. The old patterning that says ‘there’s never enough’ is a distant echo as I move into my prosperous and abundant future!
To manifest what you desire you have to become it and this is what I feel I am doing, as I let go of the excess baggage that I’ve been hauling around for so long. What exciting surprises await me as I continue down the path of fullness and love? Whatever they may be it can only be good, I love life and life loves me!
Moving from house to house I go on my merry, merry way! One night back at mums and then I’m off to play nanny to 6 dogs, two adults and 4 adorable puppies. They’re little fluffy bundles of curly black surging around me, jumping up and licking my feet. I’ll be there for less than a week but it will be fun to be in that puppy energy for a bit, a reminder of fresh eyes and childlike enthusiasm.
Which reflects back to me the child I am continuing to become, infused with bright energy and feeling a sense of optimism about the future. We are all made up of many different aspects of self, the child at various ages, the victim, the lover, the clown………and on and on it goes, for many it ends up being like a dysfunctional family.
In my huge process of shedding I’ve let go of many of the more negative aspects of self, probably the most important was the part of me that thought I was unworthy, not good enough to be prosperous and do well in life. And as I let go of that which no longer serves me I allow room for more positive forces to be revealed, the new child is one of these and Bad Queen is definitely a force for good!
Whenever I think about Bad Queen I feel strength coming into me, a devil-may-care attitude and a sense that I can have whatever I want and to just go for it. You can spend too much time and energy worrying about other people’s feelings, sometimes you just have to do what’s right for you, and if that doesn’t work for someone else then you accept the consequences and move on. Easy to say, not so sure about easy to do, I will keep you posted on my progress!
So my internal family is starting to become very functional, they are speaking up and being heard, the communication lines are wide open as the life force energy continues to surge through my being. Just as well I have all this energy, as I frolic with those gorgeous puppies and dance my way through another super busy and inspirational week!