I had a day recently when I felt great compassion for someone who I have very mixed feelings towards, there is a deep connection but to open my heart fully would be not only foolish, but actually dangerous. Sounds a bit dramatic doesn’t it, but I am not exaggerating here, I told the story of being attacked on a psychic level in an earlier post (All The Freaky People: 2 July 2013), it was very frightening and I was sick for four days. I definitely don’t want to go through that experience again, once was more than enough.
So it was a challenge to walk the fine line between compassion and protection, it brought up a lot of fear for me but I managed to navigate my way through, I stayed in my heart but kept my boundaries firm and clear. It wasn’t until the next day I read what the message of the HeartFire Gateway had been for that day (The HeartFire Gateway: 14 Aug 2013), it was all about honouring the Divine Self and asked the question, how will you BE LOVE today. I smiled, because the answer to that question was so very clear, to love our dear friends is the easiest thing in the world, but to love one who has done you harm is much more difficult.
Ma Durga: The Divine Mother.
Kabir said: “Do what you do with another human being, but never put them out of your heart”, to BE LOVE is to be your essential self, it is who we all are underneath all the stuff. When we are in our hearts we are in our divinity, we are present to life and its infinite possibilities.
This beautiful song from Donna De Lory captures the essence of this feeling of being love, it is about the Divine Mother, an exquisite combination of sacred chanting and pop music, enjoy and feel into your heart!
And just for a bit of fun here is another kind of love from the Divinyls, sexy sensual Chrissy Amphlett singing about how she touches herself, what a siren!
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What a long way I’ve come in twenty years of exploring strange new inner frontiers, not that I can’t be taken aback or frightened, but I take my courage in both hands and learn how to navigate! I had an example of this tonight when that dark energy had another go at infiltrating my space, it’s very subtle, I start to get negative thoughts that if followed, could spiral me down into dark chasms. I know it wasn’t me, because as soon as I realised what was going on I did my protection, and those thoughts disappeared instantly. It’s a very empowering place to be, and rather satisfying when I think of the frustration that must be on the other end of that energy, I know I’m supposed to be above all that but you know what, I’m happy be imperfect in this instance, it feels GREAT!
I guess I am still angry about what happened to me and it is ok to be angry sometimes, just as long as you keep that person in your heart. I used to think that anger was a ‘bad’ emotion, but as a response to behaviour that is out of integrity it is quite reasonable and in fact it helps to give you back bone. I had a lot of trouble standing up for myself before I began to access and allow that anger to come up, it can still be a challenge sometimes but its like anything, the more that you do it the better you get! So I always try to remember to have gratitude for those who help me to strengthen my back bone.
This video gives a very clear explanation about the difference between good and bad anger, my mother had a violent drunken father and she came out of that thinking that anger was not a useful feeling. So anger was not ok in my family and it has been a long journey to learn how to express that particular feeling, I’m not complaining by the way, there have been lots of interesting lessons on the way and I am much wiser and more empathic for it.
I acknowledge the part of me that was enjoying the drama of recent events, Nellie Needy felt like any attention was good even if it was making me sick! I will just have to keep breathing into whatever feelings may still be there for Nellie, and to keep letting go. What is left when I turn away from all of that is a big empty waiting space, on this misty, wet and cold day it feels rather sad, and I wonder how I will ever fill it, and if I do what will I put there?
I think the answer is to simply sit with it, and get comfortable with how it is in this moment, then keep doing that for each moment as over time it shifts and changes as things always do. There is an opportunity coming up for me, to dive within in a group sacred space, and that will be the time to truly see what the future holds in this next phase of my journey upon this earth.
It will be interesting to see if this theme of protection continues to be prominent, I will continue with my own personal version of it, but I have been quite astounded by the number of other people having similar issues at this time. In the safety of the sacred circle I will be able to look at this for myself without the fear of attracting unwanted attention, Nellie will not be needy.
But I must say that Sarah Sunshine is hoping mightily that this soggy weather transforms back into our usual winter fare of freezing cold with blue skies and sunshine! I know one day isn’t enough to develop SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder), but whenever the sun goes away I do feel my spirits drop. I’ve posted this before, but it is the perfect way to end a post about grey skies, it’s a fabulous version of “Let The Sun Shine In” from the musical “Hair”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=klObyJY1W_I
Watching this clip once again I feel a bit self-centred with all my ponderings about me, in the movie this song is happening as we see images of young men going off to war. May there be peace for evermore so that no-one need die for any cause, let there be peace, shanti, shanti, shanti…………..
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A sense of lassitude, bed is a good idea but oh how much nicer to flow with the energy and enjoy the feeling of being nurtured and of self-worth that is moving through the cells of my body. The intelligence and heart of Leonard Cohen singing incisive and profound words, so very like real life told with such sensitivity and warmth. I am somewhat disenchanted with ego at the moment, it can be charming and fun but do you really want that kind of energy around too often, aren’t we supposed to surround ourselves with the kinds of people who reflect back to us our unlimited self. A control freak who cannot let go, struggles with spontaneity, is only amusing up to a point, however “conscious” the language or terminology you are always going to be swimming in shallow waters.
I want to sink to the depths with all the wonders there to behold, to dance in and out of unity awareness, tantric sensibility, sensitivity to the whole picture, falling into old patterns to activate and to release……….letting go in love. Dreaming up the vision of connection to a beloved as a part of spiritual practice, where your relationship brings you closer to the Divine, why be there otherwise. Having that energy upon land that resonates with my being, that speaks to me in a tongue that nourishes and supports me as only the Mother can do, oh Durga, may I receive that which will bring me closer to you.
Continuing to keep a shimmering barrier around me at all times, it allows in only that which is of a high vibration and which will serve the highest good of me and of all life everywhere, that which is of a low vibration and which will not serve me may not enter. At night I add a mirrored surface to the outside of the bubble, anything that will not serve me is reflected back to whence it came. I’ve never had to be this disciplined before but it feels necessary to do so at this time, I am hearing a lot about people feeling the need for protection from various types of unseen forces, or of those who are overshadowed by entities or dark energies. I think things are hotting up, if you are a sensitive it could get particularly interesting, and if you think of it as an adventure it has the potential to be a lot of fun!
Here is a beautiful video clip of one of my favourite Leonard Cohen songs, Dance me to the end of love:
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Time for the next installment of the horror movie, starring your favourite heroine, that’s me! I don’t feel quite so funny about putting this experience in writing after a phone call I received from a woman who was referred to me by a client. The timing is pretty extraordinary, just after I have published a post about psychic attacks and the importance of getting the information out into the public domain, I hear a story eerily similar to my own. There are differences, but the essence is the same, she is being attacked by an unseen force which seems to be stronger at night and is very frightened for herself and her son.
This woman was obviously a ‘sensitive’ but had always run away from her visions in the past, finally there was something going on that she couldn’t ignore and I did my best to offer her guidance on what to do. I suggested she visualise a protective barrier around her and her son, and also to ask her guides or higher self to help keep her safe for the night. In an indigenous culture she would probably have been recognised for her gifts and trained to use them for the benefit of the community.
When we ignore the unseen realms and try to pretend that only the tangible world is real, there’s an enormous amount of knowledge that is being more or less thrown away. It’s like saying that the tip of the iceberg is the only thing that is real because that’s the part we can see, of course the bulk of it is below the surface, not unlike the conscious and unconscious parts of ourselves.
It really is time to wake up to the bigger picture, when we acknowledge the whole of life and our experiences how much richer will our world become! That vision is getting closer all the time, for some of us it is already becoming a reality, as more and more people awaken to the truth, as the world becomes a saner and happier place.
If you would like to know more about what a shaman does check out this article from “The Shaman’s Well”: http://www.shamanswell.org/shaman/what-is-a-shaman
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