I generally begin a reading with the question, “Is there anything particular you would like to focus on? Some folks have very specific questions they want answered while others may simply be looking for a little direction or guidance. Curiosity or a sense that having a reading might be a good idea can also draw people to seek me out. If they don’t have a specific issue or question then I often say to them to, “Hold the question ‘what do I need to know'” in their mind’s eye, as they handle the cards. So having some kind of intention is a very good place to start, it’s something that is helpful in any process where you are exploring the inner realms.
The next step is for me to open myself up to spirit as I ask for how many cards are required in the spread. Then when they have been chosen I lay them out intuitively, the pattern is rarely exactly the same. If I am doing a reading online or by phone I am a little less formal with the cards and will often pull them out as I go, whichever the medium the message is the same. The cards are a focus but what you get is much more than simply an explanation of the meaning of a particular card. The same card can turn up in different people’s readings and even though it has a certain ‘feel’ to it, what I say to each person may be quite different. I don’t ‘think’ about it with my mind, I allow my intuitive self to open and allow the information to come rolling in. It is a capacity that we all have but like anything the more that you practice it the better you get.
From this point the reading will take shape according to many factors, in a way each reading I do has its own life and shape. I may do most or all of the talking, or my client may have lots of questions about what is coming up. Even if I am doing most of the talking it is very much an interactive process with a deeper exchange occurring below the surface level of words and the conscious mind. You can ask as many questions as you like, more and more I find strong and clear responses coming through and if there is any uncertainty about which way something might go that is usually clear as well. I always try to be as honest as I can about what I am saying, if it looks tough then I do call a spade a spade!
We are all connected by energy in a quantum universe.
I’ve also done quite a few readings for couples, some newly weds and they always seem quite delighted with the process. Luckily I didn’t see any break ups for any of those couples, but if it was there I would find a way to convey the message. Even the challenges in my readings can be seen as opportunities to expand and grow, sometimes letting go can be a part of that. We might indeed need to consider ending a relationship or friendship, sometimes we are letting go of our own limiting beliefs. I am reminded of the chinese character for crisis, there are two symbols, one means danger and the other opportunity.
Photo by Steve Swayne.
So if you are a seeker looking for guidance on your path, if you are simply curious, go to the contact page and either send me an email or a text with details of how you would like to connect with me for a reading.
Here is the final part of my snake story, as I read over what I wrote at the end of 2012 I can see with hindsight that I was pretty much spot on with the conclusions that I drew from my encounter with the reptilian realm.
With the chrissy whirl still going round and round I’ve had no time to research the significance of the snake, but it is a medicine that has come to me before and so I have some idea of its meaning for me. Snakes have the ability to unhinge their jaws and take in animals much larger than themselves, having taken this huge mouthful they then slowly but surely digest their food. I am learning a lot at the moment with this blog, for me getting started was the big mouthful and now as I am doing it I begin to make sense of what I am doing, understanding and integration slowly unfolding through the digestive juices of my mind and intuition.
This is also a time of transformation on a personal and global level, and this is probably the best known aspect of snake medicine. Letting go of the old is necessary in order to transform into new shapes just as the snake sheds its skin in order to be reborn. I am shifting from the old Kerry who was insecure, felt unworthy, and could not allow abundance to flow in her life, into a new improved model, like going from a broken down bomb to a sleek red Ferrari!
As I engage the gears of this new bio machine I feel the power within, and the life force flows through my being like sunshine glinting on the sea or a beautiful flower opening to the light. I feel enormous gratitude to the python for the message that it brought, it matters not that we are always this magnificent creature for we do forget how wondrous we are and need to be reminded over and over again, in a world that often tries to cover this burning truth.
And the reminders keep coming as I enter into the energy of 2015, the shadow will always be getting triggered if you are engaged with life. And there has been so much coming up for me, and I keep meeting it and clearing and my life continues to get better! I am really settling into my beautiful partnership with my gorgeous man, we have been in a love bubble for two but are beginning to expand that into something much larger. And part of that is me growing and evolving as an individual, we are spending a bit more time away from each other and that’s a good thing. It feels a bit strange at first when we have been together so very much, but I know that it will make our relationship even stronger in the long-term. And we are in for the long haul my Beloved and I.
Anima Animus by Toni Carmine Salerno
And there is exciting new growth for me as a psychic reader which I will share with you next week. Time to put action to inspiration and see how spirit responds to my passion and focus! Sending you all BIG love and lashings of blissings…….
Emptiness can be very full, a blank canvas stretching out within the core of the soul’s journey that can seem terribly bleak if your view of the world tells you that you must always ‘know’ and understand every little thing. But if you are prepared to be a child again and get excited about the unknown then that clear space of nothing is full of raw potential that is simply waiting for your focus to become something wonderful!
I have been feeling a bit anxious about various aspects of my life even as I revel in my deeply satisfying relationship, old habits die hard they say and the mind tends to go looking for justification for its sometimes rather strange notions. I sat in a medicine circle not so long ago and one of the messages coming through loud and clear was that I am living an amazing and ecstatic life right here and now.
And it isn’t hard to see life that way if I am prepared to truly go out on a limb and ignore all the messages from the everyday world that say you have to be in a regular job and fit in to society’s way of thinking. I don’t work nine to five and instead of renting or living in my own home I do house sitting, it means I can live in places that my current income would never be able to support. In the modern world status is gathered by the material things we accumulate, if you were to judge me by those standards then you’d have to say that I am an utter, utter failure.
Luckily I don’t see it that way, and when my mind encounters early programming that tells me I’m not good enough it doesn’t take too long to realise what’s going on. So much of what we’ve been told about the world is based on narrow views of reality that leave out all the best bits, like spirituality and love, community and compassion. Time to do what Terence McKenna recommends and to “tell society to fuck off!”
Be Yourself, everyone else is taken! Oscar Wilde. Photo by Ulli Hansen.
A few posts ago I wrote about the theme of inner balance, my thoughts inspired by the Joining Gathering, it was about loving self and thus becoming more open to other kinds of love. (Inner Balance: A Meditation On Joining). Well once you have moved into a more mature way of relating, the place where you are yourself and so are they, you love it all and you see this amazing beauty in another soul. There’s a poem I hear sometimes in medicine circles that says something like, I love you in all your exquisite flaws, and that’s how it is when you connect on a deep level.
A key element in this kind of relationship is clear communication, and that isn’t just about words, we use feelings to communicate, and don’t forget body language too. If there is something going on inside you that doesn’t feel good, don’t be afraid to name it and own it, even though your head may know that it isn’t true, your feelings will keep telling you that things are not right. Sometimes simply voicing something can be enough to shift whatever energetic charge is being triggered, and that can be sound without words, for example toning.
My Beloved and I had been through an overnight ceremony and were taking it easy at home as we recovered from a wonderful but also quite intense experience. At some point in the late afternoon the mood shifted, we were both tired but my Beloved was deeply tired and he began to withdraw into himself. I could feel a difference in him but I was tired and we went through this time of me wanting to talk even though there wasn’t a lot of enthusiasm in the response. Basically we both had a lot of stuff going on and I as a woman wanted to talk and he as a man wanted to go into his cave and do whatever it is that men do in there!
In the end I began to feel cut off from my lover and an energy in my heart was triggered and the specific feeling was disappointment, it felt horrible and I didn’t feel like I could sleep. My beloved was exhausted as well as withdrawn and when I told him what I could feel he really didn’t have the energy to deal with it. I eventually got out of bed and went and built up the fire, watching a fire burn is rather therapeutic, then curled up in front of the fire and fell asleep there.
The next morning my dear one came out with surprise wondering where on earth I was, we went back to bed and talked about what had been going on for each of us the previous evening. We took responsibility for our own stuff, I knew perfectly well the feelings in my body came from some other time before we’d even met. And he realised that he would probably have been better off just going off on his own, or even to bed much earlier. We do practice clear communication most of the time but we are also human and the last time I looked I wasn’t perfect!
Today has been a whirl wind of customers for massage and for readings, a lovely busyness that has led to me having little time to write my post. So I will share with you the beautiful message the cards gave me as I did a reading for myself in the quiet at the beginning of my day and then I will be off to prepare for my overnight shift.
I was asking about my life with my Beloved, the first card was the Queen of Cups and this is all about working with the energy of the feminine. This card is representing the ways in which energy flows into our lives, especially money, and tells me that we need to be very open about how this process happens. Following our true desires and passions and being prepared to do things differently will give us the support that everyone requires to live in the physical universe.
Then for our relationship I got the card of The Lovers, here we have found perfect union between the masculine and feminine and our life force energy is abundant and strong. We bring this to the work we do together which was represented by The Star, finding our greatest dreams and making them a reality. I also had a strong sense that the work we do together will involve helping others to move into right relationship with the feminine.
I don’t know exactly what this will look like but the ecstatic free form dances that we’ve begun to organise are certainly designed to assist people in connecting with the feminine side, the intuitive self that is so necessary for healing our wounds. It was all a lovely confirmation that my Beloved and I have come together for a larger purpose, we have work to do and undertake to do it joyfully from an ecstatic place of bliss!!!!!
Bliss on and dance as if no-one is watching!
Reading through my last post I can feel those energies still moving through me, probably they will get the chance to truly depart in the dance tonight. A bit different for me as my journey will be swinging between the personal and the holding of space, creating a container that we can all fall into as deep as we need to go. I am looking forward to it but I must confess to being a bit nervous too, those old energies are full of doubts and fears and are no doubt fueling the nerves, but actually a touch of nervous energy can help to keep you sharp so not necessarily a bad thing.
I’d be more than just a little bit nervous if I was doing this on my own, having the chance to collaborate creatively with my Beloved and to share the load makes the whole experience much more fun. This is the first time we have worked together on a project so it is actually one of those landmark events in a personal history, something we will always remember. The way it has come together bodes well for our relationship, neither of us is ‘boss’ and we both feel able to express what we are feeling. As we were putting our playlist together it felt to me as if we both cared more about the final shape of our dance, rather than whether or not we got our favourite songs into the mix.
This was my Beloved’s suggestion, I’d forgotten about this song from Lamb, soooooo good to dance to!!!!! Gorecki, by Lamb:
Just for the record we both got favourite songs into the sonic landscape and by the time we had finished we were both satisfied that we had created a structure to take people down into the darkness to the point of stillness in the centre. Then from that silence we begin to open into the light, beginning slowly and building, the music becoming more and more joyous. I feel like I have been preparing for the Winter Solstice all week with the way energies have been moving through my organic being, preparing for this dance has been a wonderful part of all that.
Then the actual Solstice the next day and a simple fire ceremony followed by eating, drinking, talking with beautiful people and dancing the night away. A different kind of evening but the same ocean of love, life is very sweet, wish me luck friends………….Namaste and Blissings.
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Reeling through the haze of a post-apocalyptic state, I realise that the revolution has been huge in the inner realms, end times always get bad press. Hasn’t anyone heard about the ones who banded together and co-operated their way into a golden new future, based on the principles of respect for all forms of life, all of it. And remember that this has to happen on a smaller scale, one bit of consciousness at a time, so don’t go banging on about how you don’t matter. There isn’t a single piece of anything in the known universe that isn’t worthy of the greatest respect, life is truly a miracle and I feel really plugged into that at the moment.
Some great lyrics here from World Party with their song “Private Revolution”:
So I need to try to take responsibility for myself in the fullest way that I can, that means flexibility and the ability to respond so shedding is often on the schedule. As we move into the energy of the Winter Solstice, coming from an adventurous Full Moon in Sagittarius to the darkest point of the year, I can feel the old energies that I am letting go of. Through ceremony, yoga, herbs and food and the spiritual practices of relationship I can feel this energy that is being spewed out almost it feels. Certainly purging and I am pretty sure this is a case of better out than in, I don’t always need to know what I am releasing but it is clear that this is uncomfortable material.
Thanks to all of you who follow my ramblings, writing this to you is helping me to integrate and process the energies moving through, never underestimate the power of some kind of journaling. But I think I need to let go of the overview and just be in each moment for a bit now so I will bid you farewell and see you on friday!
Love and blissings!
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Since I began tuning into my moon flow and seeing how it empowers me, I’ve grown fonder and fonder of that time of the month. I will miss it when it is gone, but in the meantime I can continue to go deeper into myself at those times and allow the increased sensitivity to help me to see more and more of who I am. It does change the way I respond to things and so it is really important to communicate to my partner how I am feeling, amazing when I think how in the past such a simple act as knowing what I felt and being able to tell someone seemed so bloody complicated!
It can still be challenging, you may need to take a deep breath but open and honest communication is I believe a key ingredient in a successful relationship. If you can’t go home and relax into being completely who you are then opportunities to be yourself may be hard to come by in a busy lifestyle. I needed to do a lot of inner work before I could be that honest, I had to learn to not only like myself, but to love who I was. Considering some of the negative thoughts that were kicking around in my consciousness it is amazing that I didn’t just spontaneously combust and spare everyone the pain of my presence on the planet.
Fortunately I am very bloody minded and I just kept plugging away, letting go of all that dark energy that was hiding my light, the bushel was of my own making that’s for sure! Time for us all to come out from behind our particular barrier and to step into a larger self, a future human in fact! It’s more fun even when things are hard, maybe because you are becoming more aligned to the flow of energies, more aware of the interconnected nature of our existence.
I’m back but I have to warn you I did enjoy my little break, maybe I need to do an intense bit of writing then actually have a holiday. Maybe then I will find the time to look at the other aspects of writing that I’d like to follow-up, at the moment a lot of my focus is on my relationship and that’s ok. We are living in a bush paradise for a little bit longer and to be in that lovely environment together is a bit like being on holiday even though it’s home for a few months. A good time to be deepening into our relationship, teaching together will be different yet again but we seem to make a good team so I am confident about the outcome.
So the times they are a changing and in actual fact it is more extreme now than it was when Bob Dylan sang that song, we all need to be able to be flexible in our selves and in the way that we navigate life. Life has never been so complex and yet the intrinsic values of belonging, giving and receiving of love, sense of purpose, contributing to others well-being, is not so hard to follow, once you have shifted the old mindset. So don’t be afraid to do things that take you out of your comfort zone, there are lots of methods out there that will help you to experience deeper realities that lie beneath the so-called rational world.
So whatever your particular circumstances prepare to be challenged in some way if you have the courage to truly engage with life, it can be scary sometimes but I’ve found more light and laughter on the other side so that helps me to get through the uncomfortable bits. The more of us who operate in these kinds of ways, and there really are very many methods to access other states of consciousness, the more that information will go into the morphogenetic field that Rupert Sheldrake proved the existence of with mathematics. We really do have an impact on our environment so why not try to find more harmonious ways of operating in the world where everyone gets what they need to live.
Listen to this overview of morphogenetic fields from Rupert Sheldrake, with music and psychedelic images, if you like this then I also recommend that you look up Rupert’s conversation with Bruce Lipton:
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Gallop apace, you fiery-footed steeds,
Towards Phoebus’ lodging: such a wagoner
As Phaethon would whip you to the west,
And bring in cloudy night immediately.
Spread thy close curtain, love-performing night,
That runaway’s eyes may wink and Romeo
Leap to these arms, untalk’d of and unseen.
Lovers can see to do their amorous rites
By their own beauties; or, if love be blind,
It best agrees with night. Come, civil night,
Thou sober-suited matron, all in black,
And learn me how to lose a winning match,
Play’d for a pair of stainless maidenhoods:
Hood my unmann’d blood, bating in my cheeks,
With thy black mantle; till strange love, grown bold,
Think true love acted simple modesty.
Come, night; come, Romeo; come, thou day in night;
For thou wilt lie upon the wings of night
Whiter than new snow on a raven’s back.
Come, gentle night, come, loving, black-brow’d night,
Give me my Romeo; and, when he shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night
And pay no worship to the garish sun.
O, I have bought the mansion of a love,
But not possess’d it, and, though I am sold,
Not yet enjoy’d: so tedious is this day
As is the night before some festival
To an impatient child that hath new robes
And may not wear them. O, here comes my nurse,
And she brings news; and every tongue that speaks
But Romeo’s name speaks heavenly eloquence.
This was my audition piece for NIDA many years ago, I have often thought of it since I found my Beloved six months ago, especially in the first couple of months when we would have sometimes three or four days apart. Waiting for him to arrive I felt like Juliet who is desperately longing to lose her maiden hood to her beloved Romeo.
From Franco Zeffirelli’s film of Romeo and Juliet.
If you are not familiar with Shakespeare I invite you to read carefully through the words and think about what the imagery is saying to describe Juliet’s feelings, essentially she is hanging out for darkness when Romeo is due to arrive. It is a lovely state of flurried feelings and excitement and delighted anticipation and feeling like you just can’t wait!
Almost feels like that time for us now as we have just celebrated our six month anniversary, we made it a special day and it was simple and yet amazing and our relationship feels like it has hotted up again, if that’s possible. Ritual is a wonderful way to add power to our intentions and help us to go deeper, and it can be completely spontaneous. Juliet, I know exactly how you feel honey, you go for it girl!