I talk a lot about taking responsibility for what is going on around us, you know, don’t blame the trigger (from “Point The Trigger To My Heart”: 28 Feb 2013), what’s the lesson in this situation for me, that sort of thing. And most of the time it’s absolutely the right thing to do, there’s an awful lot of unneccessary conflict and trouble that comes with people not owning their stuff, and projecting it out into the world. But there are times when it isn’t anything to do with me, I cast around for a reason and can’t find one, but being human I can be a bit unconscious so I persist in trying to discover a meaning to whatever is going on.
I was on the crisis phones the other night and getting a lot of intense and heavy going calls, assault, hit and run, children being taken away, so I was coming out and de-briefing with my supervisor quite a lot. She asked me if my theme for the night was reflecting something back to me about my own life at that time but I couldn’t think of how it might be relevant. A bit later on she suggested that it might be a good idea to clear the room I was working in just to see if that made a difference. I was handling the calls well enough but it can get a bit wearing after a while to have intense call after intense call.
So I took her advice and I did a quick clearing of my space, calling on my various guides and doing a bit of toning, it only took a minute. Well the difference from that point was amazing, the whole tone of my shift lightened up, whatever was attracting that intensity had nothing to do with me. I’m reminded of my favourite definition of responsibility, the ability to respond, I was able to respond to the situation with some good advice from my colleague and it didn’t involve me taking ownership of what was going on because it wasn’t mine.
So keep an open mind as you explore the intricacies of being a relational being in various environments, and try not to make assumptions, just when you think you know what’s going on, life will throw you a curve ball!