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Bigger, Better, Faster……….Slow Down!

Rainbow Man at the Enchanted Gathering.

Rainbow Man at the Enchanted Gathering.

Life has been a little bit crazy what with being between two house sits for almost three weeks, ending in the moving haze I referred to in an earlier post and arriving in a house full of Celtic musicians. Then a couple of days at the Enchanted Gathering with lots of magic, frequencies and dancing, freezing cold and fires burning as the Wizard and the Rainbow Man kept crying, “More wood, more wood!”.

The Enchanted Gathering.

The Enchanted Gathering.

So it’s been very busy and quite intense and my Beloved and I have been enjoying the chance to slow down and begin to get to know our new environment which we now have all to ourselves.  I’ve also started reading a new Diana Richardson book, “Slow Sex”, if you’ve read my posts before you might remember me talking about her book “Tantric Orgasm For Women”. I’ve read the introduction and the first chapter and already I’m feeling very inspired, and not just about sex either, the principles she is talking about can be applied to everything that we do.

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In fact her inspiration to write the book came from another writer called Marc David who wrote “The Slow Down Diet”, he is a nutritionist and expert on the psychology of eating. He talks about eight qualities that are an integral part of how we are nourished when we eat and it is less about what we eat and more about the way in which we do it. Awareness and relaxation are two of these qualities and you will hear a lot about these in any book on tantric sex worth it’s salt.

passionate embraceWhen you slow down there is an entire world of sights and flavours and smells to savour, and if you can actually relax you offer your body the opportunity to respond to all of this treasure. Most of the time we have ideas about things, whether it be food or sex, that we try to force upon the body. Then when our experience is less than satisfactory we think that there must be something wrong with us, if we can create that ‘perfect’ body somehow it will all made right.

It is so important to nourish ourselves on all levels of our being, bring the sacred into everything that you do and you are well on the way to true fulfillment on a soul level. And remember that life was meant to be fun!

The Gentle Shift Into Love Of Self.

Anima Animus by Toni Carmine Salerno

Anima Animus by Toni Carmine Salerno

Well here I am on the ‘other’ side and I came through in a gentle fashion, I must confess to being somewhat relieved. I can’t tell you what I let go of or even exactly what information came through, I think that we sometimes receive downloads from spirit that only come into our conscious awareness when we need that particular knowledge. So I went deep and came out feeling peaceful and calm and with an enormous sense of gratitude for my extraordinary life. To share sacred circle space with your Beloved is the most exquisite joy and something I’ve been yearning for, it was certainly on my wish list when I used to think about the kind of relationship I wanted in my life.

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Masculine Feminine SpiritForceAfter the ceremony the terror did return but I was not so attached to it this time and so it was much easier to ride the edge and to allow the energy to be released. As I sit here writing I can feel a trembling in the cells of my body that is the shift which is flowing out of the letting go of tension and fear. I will do the psychotherapy session that I have planned and I will continue to be with my Beloved in those deep places where we open to the Divine together. And I will continue to listen to my inner voice in order to know how to support the physical side of this affair, if I am truly honest there is always a part of me that knows the right course of action. And more and more I do actually follow the guidance of this inner wisdom that we all have access to. And if I don’t sometimes I promise faithfully not to give myself a hard time for it, it only makes matters worse!

So the journey continues and as I let go of self-loathing and terror I open the path for positive energies to flow freely in my life, as my good friend Michael Laughing Wolf always says, “Love self, do next thing”.

Let Love Corner You: Surrender The Pain, The Fear……….

Twins-in-love“Viewed spiritually, romance is, in its divine essence, a temple space. It is one of God’s laboratories, a mode of spiritual transformation. It is when held this way, a sacred opportunity for souls to jump past the confines of the narrow self, to take quantum leaps forward into new and uncharted emotional possibilities. There love corners us, putting a mirror up to our faces and demanding that we surrender: surrender the hurt, surrender the past, surrender the walls, surrender the blame, surrender the defenses, surrender the limits, surrender the fear……. Love is not a game for sissies.”

Marianne Williamson in the foreword to “Dear Lover: a woman’s guide to men, sex and love’s deepest bliss”, by David Deida, published by Sounds True, Boulder CO, 2005.

david deidaFinally I am reading a David Deida book, I have participated in processes facilitated by others but informed by his work and read countless quotes, but this is the first time I have sat down with one of his books. It belongs in my current house sit so I have two and a half weeks to read it, shouldn’t be so hard and I can share any discoveries with my Beloved. When I watched David Deida on a dvd running a session down in Byron Bay I was not always so thrilled with the way he delivered his message but there was loads of good information coming through. So this is going to be a pleasure!

When I have written about relationship as a spiritual process and been looking for appropriate quotes I’ve often checked out David Deida, not sure if the words are exactly correct but the mantra I loved and heard from my dance teacher was: “Fuck me open to God.” The other statement of his that always stuck with me was “If your relationship isn’t opening you to the divine then what are you doing there?” My few relationships before a ten-year break were each what I needed at the time but none could really be considered in that light, perhaps for the odd moment of ecstasy but I wasn’t any more ready for it than the men I was with.

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Now I am so it will be interesting to see what Deida has to say about it all in more depth, and it’s my favourite subject matter so will be easier to find time for!

Festival Time Brings Sustenance For The Soul.

Scottish strains infuse the air as the lightning flashes and the rain comes down, a passerby is captured by the urge to jig as she gambols along the path. Jalapeno pepper still warming my belly and my lips, thinking of my lover as a young couple canoodle in the shelter of the awning. One moment of so many and not quite even halfway through, so many riches to draw upon, legs still a bit sore from last night’s dancing. Another world, another time, family and community all wrapped up in one, world music, social issues, fun and frivolity, from the sacred to the profane it’s a well sauced sandwich that satisfies the soul.

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As I settle into the Woodford groove that is the magical merging of so much diversity, I find myself doing the strange etherial shuffle between no-time and the time that says that Ohm Shanti is doing their thing at the Blue Lotus, or the candle lighting ceremony at the Sacred Labyrinth is on at 6.30pm. I move in and out of varying threads from which I weave the tapestry of an experience too complex for just one image to encompass, it’s more like a film, the kind you can watch over and over again and still see new detail.

And then there is the address of my campsite, I am between Route 66 and Your own crazy way, just down from Absolutely the wrong way! To get there you go along the Long and winding road, it really is another world and one I would like to live in all the time. I am reminded of a Swiss woman who came into our stall when mum and I used to sell clothes and party stuff at the festival, she had been picked up from the airport by friends and brought straight to Woodford. It was her first experience of being in Australia and she was wide-eyed with wonder, she turned to us and said, “Is it like this everywhere?” We smiled and said, “Oh, how we wish it was!”

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That is my wish, that all the world may wake up to the beauty and wonder that is life on this planet, the diversity amongst peoples, plants, animals and everything else is quite astounding and fills my heart and soul with such joy!

Ohm Shanti, shanti, shanti…………peace, peace, peace.

Focusing The Positive.

Life is good, of that I have not the slightest doubt, in the very heart and soul of my being I know that the corner has been turned, that I am on the homeward lap and it isn’t actually possible to stray off the path, for where else could I possibly be! Yet my day has been a journey through many different emotional landscapes, when you are challenging the very bedrock of your foundations there tends to be a response from the aspects of self that are terrified of dying.

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The kind of environment you inhabit is very important at times like this, I connect as much as I can with others who have a positive outlook on life, and who I can truly be myself with. But that isn’t always possible, and I was reminded today in a meditation by my higher self that it is common sense to put in energetic protection in order to not be taking on other people’s stuff. Nellie Nobody is very keen to take on the slightest possible suggestion that another might not approve of the measures I am taking to change my life, and so brings up whatever insecurities that may still be lurking inside.

And I bless her for her anxiety, she is helping me to shed anything that might get in the way of my personal golden age unfolding with grand fanfare and ecstatic celebration. When that job is over for her she can be in charge of making sure I never lose my humility, I have encountered very few people who I would truly consider to be masters, but the one thing they have all had in common was the ability to be completely ordinary.

This is one of those people, Master Zhang Hao, an amazing teacher based in Sydney, Australia: http://www.chihealing.com.au/index.html

This is one of those people, Master Zhang Hao, an amazing teacher based in Sydney, Australia: http://www.chihealing.com.au/index.html

So don’t be too hard on the parts of you that are trying to hold you back from being fully in your power, its more about redirecting their gifts rather than shutting them down. When I can be consistent in my focused intention of creating my new life, Fay Fairytale’s wondrous imagination is probably my greatest ally, if she’s wasting time on unproductive fantasies I have only myself to blame!

It’s from Gabrielle Roth the incredible dance shaman that I have borrowed these particular terms for the different parts of myself, I have a feeling that I’ve shared this quote with you before but it sums up the theme of this post so nicely I’m going to share it again:

“Life is sacred. Life is art. Life is sacred art. The art of sacred living means being a holy actor, acting from the soul rather than the ego. The soul is out of space and time and hence always available, an ever-present potential of our being. It is up to each of us to celebrate and to actualize our being and to turn each meal, conversation, outfit, letter, and so on, into art. Every mundane activity is an opportunity for full authentic self-expression. The soul is our artistic self, our capacity for transforming every dimension of our lives into art and theater.”

Maps to Ecstasy, Gabrielle Roth, Nataraj Publ, Novato, CA, 1989.

So lets hear it for the ordinary and the everyday, may we swoon over the dishes and make love to the earth as we pull up the weeds!

Here is a very famous death scene from Monty Pythons’s Meaning of Life, enjoy!

Prosperous Shifting Sands.

Shifting from fear to wonder and riding the storm, short, sharp and intense, but no longer ushering in a dark sky that is wont to bring the clouds that prevent me from seeing my own  bright light. The sense of doom sitting in the pit of my belly a relic of the past that I leave further behind with every breath, trusting that every step that I take is an integral part of the picture that I am painting in inner realms.

Trust, trust…………surrender to what is and move with my own precious flow, plucking the jewels that lie along the way, glittering like stars and offering me such a rich array of bounty. Within the deepest parts of self the sands are shifting, uncertain footing giving the illusion of shaky ground, a sense of falling……………turns to freedom and wings taking flight.

Letting go into the unknown as the heart’s wisdom opens door after door, fractal beauty speaks to my DNA and I AM so excited as creativity unfolds with each release of the force of life. Less and less do I resist, the creeping mist, burns off with morning’s rays, shining like the gleaming gold of treasure buried, of dragon’s hoard.

I am the treasure and I am found, I am here, homeward bound, I am here, sacred pure sound, I am the one receiving the sun, flower is open, time to have fun!

Speaking of dragons, we are about to meet Smaug, for fans of The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings, check out this trailer if you haven’t already!

Bilbo - The Hobbit 2 Movie

The Afternoon Light.

Shimmering greens in every shade tease my wandering eye, as the westering light brings a golden glow that somehow illuminates the soul and the spirit of everything it touches. The earth speaks to me about her song and I know that she is sharing her wisdom with me even though I cannot always understand what she is saying, at least not with my mind. The inner eye reaches beyond the rational brain to pluck out gems from the body’s storehouse of knowledge, bringing each piece of treasure forth in just the right moment! Oh look, it’s a diamond shining at the crown, and over there a sapphire as deep and blue as the autumn skies helping me to speak my truth, and red, red ruby carries the fire of survival and connection and passion!

But for now I lay back and allow the gentle flow of nature’s voice to soothe the knots that tighten the flow of spirit, feeling the sacred space that is always within, that holds me with such tenderness. Time out in paradise, and everything lets go as the faeries sprinkle their sparkling dust through the corridors of my being, inviting me to dance and to play, to love and to laugh. The whispering wind tickles my fancy with his warm breath and I hang suspended above the ground gently swaying with peace gently vibrating in every cell.

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Peace in every step.
The shining red sun is my heart.
Each flower smiles with me.
How green, how fresh all that grows.
How cool the wind blows.
Peace is every step.
It turns the endless path to joy.
Thich Nhat Hanh  Excerpt from Peace in Every Step
Ohm shanti, shanti, shanti………….peace, peace, peace.

The Time Is Now.

My roots reach deeply into the ground, the earth, the soil, the place where love comes from, even as my branches and leaves receive sunlight’s joy. Meeting in my heart, these gentle and striking energies join together in delicious merge, polarities becoming one, complementary forces making love. I stand tall, and receive this flow into every cell of this marvelous vehicle made of flesh and bone, an organic being of light.

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Conscious of the glow in each molecule, inspiration feeding the river that looks for spirit’s markers, and goes where it will. A choice in every moment, the chance to say yes, to embrace the unknown………..from microcosm to macrocosm, feeling the sweetness of trust, of sacred journey. With each step a growing awareness, ’tis time to release the weights that have dogged the path before thee, that have held thee from being at one with God, the all that is.

Letting go into softness and feeling clarity and purpose welling up in place of that which was no longer needed, knowing as much as I need to know, no more. I step into a new chapter that contains so much hope it fills my entire being with star light, my friends from faraway places reach out to each and every one of us, you only have to ask, you only have to ask.

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This is now, all points in time merge into a single pointed facet that reflects the end and the beginning of absolutely everything, we are awakening and the time is now, and now and now……….. Wake, oh wake dear sleepers, you have been sleeping for so long, and what dreams you have created, now turning to dust and blowing away upon the winds of change.

It is time, “We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.”

For the full Hopi prophecy check out this link: http://www.matrixmasters.com/takecharge/hopi-prophecy.html

Sweating The Big Stuff.

The heat scours me clean, breath filling all of me as it spirals from the milky way down to the core of the earth, keeping me grounded with my head in the stars. Greeting the stone people as they come bearing the gift of fire, of purification, thank you Grandmother, thank you Grandfather. Calling upon Father Sky, Grandfather, father, the Pendragon, the masculine essence, feeling my masculine energy and coming into Divine Union within, the perfect balance between the polarities. Strong masculine energy supporting, protecting, healing, loving, caring…………….

The Dance Of Attraction.

The man danced around his love

she swayed from side to side

then turned and fell quite trusting

as he caught her in his arms

Kerry Laizans:copyright Sept 2013

I burn and it is good, stripping away all illusion, whatever remains in that space has the ring of truth to it, perhaps my answers to the Gods have already been answered. Do be careful what you ask for, in the sacred inipi your strong intention can become your reality, in that space anything is possible. Clearing away whatever does not support a vision of fullness, of fulfillment of the tasks of spirit, clearing the body, mind and soul, all levels of beingness.

Gabrielle Roth talks about sweating your prayers when you dance ecstatically, sweating in the lodge has a lot in common with the dance medicine, there are so many good medicines out there these days. I hope that you have found the ones that work for you, always be prepared to open to new possibilities, life is ever-changing and fluid. Try to swim in the ocean of love more than you are “in love” with any one person, if you find someone who can swim with you in that ocean then well and good. And never forget that the most important thing of all is to have fun!

I mean with all of it, spiritual development and evolution, all kinds of relationships and connections, life is meant to be playful and light, enlightened. Let us dance lightly upon the earth as we connect with each other and ourselves, ohm shanti, shanti, shanti…………..

From The Sacred To The Profane.

So to continue the story of my interesting weekend, the first part of it was most beautiful and inspiring and I left the sacred space floating on a cloud of love. Alas, but this was that most evil of times when the people of my fair country were forced to choose between two of those evils, faced with such a decision many do take the path of the donkey and I can hardly blame them! I however, feel that it is most important to be thoughtful and to cast my vote with those who are Green and who would see a fairer and more just world for not only the people, but for the animals, plants and minerals.

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From the sublime to the ridiculous, that’s how it seemed to my soft sensibilities, a reality where spirit is not even acknowledged and many prefer not to think much less feel. For those of you who don’t live in the fabled land of Oz, we are required by law to vote, there are many who fill in their ballots incorrectly (the donkey vote), as a kind of protest. I want to protest the entire system but I saw a long time ago that too much focus on this simply made me angry to little effect. So I choose to play my role by helping to shift consciousness, with my healing work and hopefully with this blog.

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I handed out voting cards with a smile, and gathered with other supporters in the evening, and everyone was courteous and there were beautiful people who I felt a loving connection with. Yet I could not for the life of me manage to see the sacred in this mundane expression of the world in which I live, it took a musical concert with lots of heart in a gorgeous setting on the sunday afternoon, to truly bring me back to myself. Which just goes to prove that I’m human, and a work in progress, when I can see the beauty in our electoral process I might become so enlightened I will simply vanish in a puff of smoke into a higher dimension!

So remember, life is about doing your best not being perfect, no self-flagellation allowed, the most important thing is to notice when you are not in your heart, and to find your way back there when you can.

With love and tolerance………especially for me!