As the clear winter water
Nourishes the seed within the earth
I am nourished by new-found awareness
of who I truly am.
This awareness has not yet fully matured,
Which will reveal all wisdom
In its time,
the Power of the unmanifest
Even now works within my spiritual heart,
And I am at peace.
The Essene Book of Days by Danaan Parry: http://www.earthstewards.org/ESN-Danaan.asp
My last toning circle was all about planting seeds, then watering them and giving them a powerful loving focus, and of course juicy frequencies through our sounds. It may sound a little strange to be planting seeds in winter, but it is the inner garden that I am referring to. The stillness that may come with the cold winter months draws us into ourselves, so it’s a perfect time to be tending our garden within.
This strong focus on the seeds I have planted helps to keep me from straying back into old patterns, that still beckon me with their siren song. How addicted we can be to things that so obviously do not serve us, how hard to let go of dreams that never truly held the promise that we so desperately tried to see in them. I am so very tired and that makes me particularly vulnerable to regret, when weary one tends more towards negative self-talk, feeling rejected in this moment, even the cat has left the room!
Don’t worry, it’s nothing a good night’s sleep won’t fix, as my mother reminded me tonight, I have been subject to a kind of psychic attack for a number of months now and that is the sort of thing that tends to wear a girl out! Sounds dramatic doesn’t it, but having an energy vampire playing with your heart and your emotions is no fun for anyone, it’s pretty much over now and I am stronger and wiser because of it.
The cat is back and she is purring, this is a sign that all is well in my world, my inner garden is planted with the most amazing seeds and I have the strongest feeling that some of them may practically grow overnight! The world is a wonderful place and I belong in it, the morning will be bright even if it is still raining and after my morning yoga class I will be ready to take on anything.
Carpe diem! (Seize the day).