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Trust In The Moment.

Trust would have to be one of the biggies, I keep coming back to it over and over again. Especially for me, trust around being supported, that all my needs will be met and that I deserve to receive abundance on every level of my being. A day at market where I have no customers really tests that sense of being prosperous. My market family gives me so very much in so very many ways, it does help me to trust, but the little niggle keeps niggling away somewhere deep in the core.

Perhaps its time to set up a rig and go drilling for that seed of doubt, of uncertainty and fear. Release that from this organic system and it will be like releasing water from a dam, abundance will come pouring out and that is the key to allowing myself to receive what has been heralded from all directions. The message keeps coming in loud and clear, if there is sabotage going on here it can only be self-inflicted.

Dam

St Germaine always used to say, there are no victims only volunteers! In that case I’m going to volunteer to be the architect of my own harvest time, to reap the ripe crop born of darkness transformed into light and love. I AM the person I’ve been waiting for, the heroine rescuing herself from all the drama, the melodrama of life lived beneath a Scorpio moon. Not that I’m complaining about that moon of mine, it may give me grief at times, but it also intensifies the joy and gives me passion and discipline. Live life to the full, that’s my motto, time for the next phase………..

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Oh and by the way, I had a lovely day at the market, and the business all happened at the very end and so my trust and enjoyment of the moment paid off, thank the Goddess, I truly am looked after, gratitude, gratitude, gratitude………..love, love, love………….

Check out this short video showing the economic cost of low trust, the figures are mind boggling! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MFlIgNesNM0

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Happy Noise.

I speak a lot about the way in which our thoughts about what is going on, are what really cause our suffering much of the time, change the thought and you shift the feelings. I had a great example of this the other night that I would like to share with you, even though it’s relatively simple I actually feel quite proud of myself, here I am using my knowledge and understandings to navigate my everyday life. I mean how often have you done things pretty much the opposite to the way you know would be easier and probably more graceful, most of us have a lifetime of self-sabotaging habits that kick in at the slightest trigger!

So let me set the scene here, I’ve spent the afternoon moving into my new house sit and getting settled in, organising my stuff and making friends with the cat. I could have the whole night to do this but I really, really want to go to dinner and the movie at the community centre with my dear friend, so I’m having to move quickly and feeling a tad anxious about getting everything done. There’s also the pressure to get posts written and not have too late a night as it is a market day tomorrow.

I get home having had a lovely night at the movies, great food, company and I loved the movie, “Hyde Park on Hudson”. I wrote a post and then got ready for bed and it was at this point I finally focused on something I had been doing my best not to notice, a house nearby was having a big party, flashing lights and dance music pumping out. “Just what I need on my first night here” I thought to myself, it’s a particularly quiet area where I am staying so it seemed rather ironic. Then I realised that my thoughts were not going to be helpful in the situation, and so I decided to focus on the fact that these people were obviously having a wonderful time, I would perceive the party as a happy energy radiating that quality out into the night.

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The tiniest tweak of consciousness but it did the trick, as I lay relaxing towards sleep I didn’t even hear the noise most of the time, when I did it didn’t bother me at all. You see what I mean about it being simple, but if you put enough simple things like that together you start to build a wonderful life where everything flows with ease and grace.

So be it, so be it, so be it…………………………..

Here is the trailer for “Hyde Park on Hudson” if you would like to check it out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQaScjiWDyY