Tonight is my Beloved’s first meditation class which I am very excited about and looking forward to immensely. Mindfulness is the main theme and a very useful concept for just about anything you could possibly think of. Particularly handy when doing things such as driving a car or operating heavy machinery but the applications don’t stop there! Washing dishes, talking to your boss, explaining to your kids where babies come from, all helped enormously when you are truly present to what is occurring. Being mindful in communicating with your lover may be what creates a long-lasting and satisfying relationship, and help you to avoid unneccessary conflict.
Simply noticing what you are habitually thinking and telling yourself about you and the world around you can be a life changing affair. Of course you will probably find that a lot of your self-talk is fairly negative and that can be a bit discouraging. Sometimes becoming more mindful can seem like not such a good thing when it takes you into such a negative space. But hang in there anyway if you possibly can because there is a light at the end of the tunnel. This negativity is inside you all the time so it is affecting you even when you aren’t aware of it. By bringing it into the light of awareness you are creating the potential for healing.
And sitting with uncomfortable feelings is something that I talk about quite a bit on this blog because it is one of my main methods of shifting old patterns. Become mindful of what is going on inside of you and then sit with whatever comes up until it clears. And of course employ whatever methods or techniques that you may have discovered along the path as you transform old energies and beliefs into a wondrous new way of being in the world.
Here is a link to my Beloved’s website and an article on meditating with soft hands and a warm heart: http://www.deepbreath.net.au/meditation/soft-hands-warm-heart/ And if you are lucky enough to live somewhere near the magical kingdom of Maleny here are the details of the class: http://www.deepbreath.net.au/meditation/
Something I’ve been thinking about lately is the power of language, and how our use of particular words or phrases can say a lot about the way in which we view our world, indeed many would say that our words create our reality. So if you are constantly saying, “I can’t afford it”, then you are telling yourself that there is never enough and that you can’t have all the things that you want or need in your life, whether we are talking about luxuries or necessities the message is the same.
That is a relatively straight forward idea, but where I have always had difficulty is in finding alternative ways of describing my situation, before you can change yourself there has to be acceptance of what is, and so talking about the Rolls Royce you are going to buy when your budget doesn’t extend to even a second-hand bomb seems a bit airy fairy. So you could say, as an alternative, “That isn’t currently in my budget”, which implies that when the time is right that it will be, it still doesn’t feel quite honest to me which probably says a lot about the strength of my beliefs around not being supported!
So I’m going to give this a committed focus and see what happens, I’m meditating every day and going into my temple to heal myself and to create the amazing new life that is trembling upon the brink of my old reality. As a prelude to the meditation I’m using EFT to clear the resistance and in that process I am very much accepting and loving myself exactly as I am, so I think I’m doing ok with the accept things the way that they are bit. The next step is to bring extreme mindfulness into my daily interactions as well as watching my self-talk for signs of the old belief patterns that are on the way out.
The new reality that is emerging is getting stronger and stronger inside of me, by behaving according to that picture I will strengthen the images I am giving to my brain about the way things are in my world. And it’s very important not to give too much focus to anything that doesn’t support this vision, even as I deal sensibly with my current reality in each and every moment. It’s a balancing act that will be a most interesting challenge, and I look forward to telling you all about the stunning results that will come flooding in as I change my world forever!
So be it, so be it, so be it………………………….
Champagne in the middle of the day, even just a little bit, makes a girl wilt like a flower that’s been left without water for too long. It makes finding the inspiration for a post that much harder to find, so I’m doing what I always do in this situation, writing about what I’m feeling in this very moment and see where it takes me. There’s a weariness and a vulnerability in me, and I’m not quite sure what it’s about, after my recent experiences of my feelings being amplified by a malicious outside source, one can’t help wondering if something like that is going on yet again.
How can I tell if this is mine, mmmmmm…….guess I need to pause for a moment and tune in, and also use my imagination to put a mirror all around me, so that if anything is coming from outside of me it will be reflected back to sender. Ok so I did all that and this is definitely mine, there was no shift when I made the mirror and when I focused on the feeling in my belly it moved up to my heart. It’s sadness with no particular story attached to it which is another clue, an invasive energy is going to stir up your negative self-talk and stories. I acknowledged the feeling and it began to shift into warmth and tingling, signs of the energy moving, there is a tiny bit left but I actually feel a bit less tired.
It takes practice to tune into your body but it’s a skill that is well worth developing, if you can connect with its authentic voice the body has much wisdom to offer us. There are many doorways that lead to that knowing, dance, yoga, and meditation are my personal favourites but take your pick, there is a wonderful world out there just bursting with ideas on how to connect more deeply with the self.
Enjoy the journey!
Eugene Gendlin talks about focusing, this explores our deeper ‘felt’ sense and can help you to understand your body’s point of view:
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Letting go and being still, letting go and being still, letting the flow of spirit take care of things, giving my deepest desires over to God, Goddess, All That Is……… If there’s nothing you can do in a situation, then do nothing, simple really isn’t it, and it applies to a few things that are going on for me at the moment. Some is financial stuff, special kind of headache that one for me, and some definitely has to be taken care of very consciously, but some of it can be given over to a higher power and what a relief that is!
With the desire to be in a relationship the letting go is harder to do, but I am managing to get there, not abandoning the notion of moving into a conscious relationship, but moving myself away from the eggs all being in one basket approach. That’s been my emotional underlay in all my relationships, THIS IS IT AND SO I’D BETTER HANG ON NO MATTER WHAT! It really isn’t a good dynamic for healthy partnerships, which I see as two equals coming together to nourish and support each other so that each can be in their fullness. A dance of lightness and joy, of laughter and gay abandon!
If you don’t know what your dynamics are then I strongly suggest you start listening to your self-talk, what are you telling yourself over and over again, about yourself and the people you are connected to. You may need to find a form of therapy that helps you to tune into that voice, I think it was a combined bodywork and breathwork session that brought to my awareness the thought about having to hang on. That would have been in 2002 and here I am eleven years later still releasing layers of that particular illusion, don’t worry I’m probably a slow learner, with any luck you will move along much faster than I did.
She Let Go
She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go. She let go of fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons. Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go. She didn’t ask anyone for advice. She didn’t read a book on how to let go… She didn’t search the scriptures. She just let go. She let go of all of the memories that held her back. She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward. She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right. She didn’t promise to let go. She didn’t journal about it. She didn’t write the projected date in her day-timer. She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper. She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope. She just let go. She didn’t analyse whether she should let go. She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter. She didn’t do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment. She didn’t call the prayer line. She didn’t utter one word. She just let go. No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or congratulations. No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go. There was no effort. There was no struggle. It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad. It was what it was, and it is just that. In the space of letting go, she let it all be. A small smile came over her face. A light breeze blew through her. And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.
The author of this poem is unclear. A few sites list Ernest Holmes as the author, another Jennifer Eckert Bernau and still another Rev. Safire Rose.
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I have my beautiful smile back! Not that I really lost it this time, the couple of times before that I have had problems with the bridge and crown the whole thing fell out and I had to go around with three teeth missing in the front of my mouth. Just to prove that I am prepared to bare myself on this blog, here is a picture of me with those missing teeth the first time it fell out in 2009, not a good picture of me either, but it probably reflects how I was feeling at the time.
On this occasion it actually went pretty smoothly, the bridge was twisted but it was still in place while I went to yoga and shopped and worked a shift on the crisis phone lines. I didn’t look forward to my two hours in the dentist chair, but I felt optimistic about the outcome, especially when the bridge came out as my lovely young dentist poked around upon my arrival in his domain. He and his assistant were light-hearted and fun while conveying competence, I received a pillow for my neck and was as comfortable and relaxed as one could be in the circumstances.
As I lay there I was hearing voices, if that bothers your scientific sensibility then by all means think of it as self-talk, a communication from the higher self, for me I don’t actually care where it comes from or who it might be. What matters is the feeling of confidence and trust that was conveyed to me, the voices said they were guiding my dentist to make sure he did the best possible job, and that he was very open to that kind of guidance. I could see energy around his head in the shape of a hat, a bit like the sort that the Mad Hatter wears in Alice in Wonderland.
So in the end the outcome is very close to the vision that I created, the price tag is a tad higher than I had hoped for, but in that respect I was probably doing a bit of the old wishful thinking magic, dentists are not quite as bad as lawyers but they still charge like wounded bulls!
So success in my process of manifestation, on, on to the next phase of heartful, loving, passionate life!