Hello and yes I will continue the story of the commoner princess by and by, but for today’s sharing I want to talk about different states of consciousness, a topic that has fascinated me for years. For women it is probably easier in some ways to comprehend the ways in which we shift from one state to another, at least in theory. We have a monthly shift which is our moon time, and even though women in western culture are not taught to value this phenomenon, it is an opportunity to become more sensitive and able to perceive inner transformation.
It’s not often I have anything that could be described as PMT but I’ve felt my menstrual flow on the way for the last few days and found myself over sensitive to physical touch and very emotional. My Beloved and I ended up going from passion to me being held as I felt almost like crying, distressed but for no perceivable reason. He was rather excited but could feel where I was and accepted with great grace that I had things moving and he needed to hold space for me rather than make love.
The next day I watched lots of “Charmed” episodes and didn’t do too much and my Beloved was there when I needed him to be and I was left to myself as needed, quite perfect! A perfectly normal situation for many couples, can you see how ignoring the feminine shift into pre-moon time could create arguments and separation, imagine how often that has actually happened to people. Recognising cycles and accepting what they bring to us, responding to what is in the present instead of what we think should be there, here is an approach that can bring two people closer together. There is nothing more attractive than someone who really gets you!
Shape-shifter, shaman, prophetic visionary, healer.
Oh, hello everything that I desire to embody, and do so, even as I am a little bit freaked out/scared/wonder why I couldn’t’ve just been some ‘more normal’ instead.
Of course tuning into cycles is going to be an asset whether you are in a relationship or not, it can help you to be in the energetic flow of your life, wherever that journey may be heading for you.
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Shifting from fear to wonder and riding the storm, short, sharp and intense, but no longer ushering in a dark sky that is wont to bring the clouds that prevent me from seeing my own bright light. The sense of doom sitting in the pit of my belly a relic of the past that I leave further behind with every breath, trusting that every step that I take is an integral part of the picture that I am painting in inner realms.
Trust, trust…………surrender to what is and move with my own precious flow, plucking the jewels that lie along the way, glittering like stars and offering me such a rich array of bounty. Within the deepest parts of self the sands are shifting, uncertain footing giving the illusion of shaky ground, a sense of falling……………turns to freedom and wings taking flight.
Letting go into the unknown as the heart’s wisdom opens door after door, fractal beauty speaks to my DNA and I AM so excited as creativity unfolds with each release of the force of life. Less and less do I resist, the creeping mist, burns off with morning’s rays, shining like the gleaming gold of treasure buried, of dragon’s hoard.
I am the treasure and I am found, I am here, homeward bound, I am here, sacred pure sound, I am the one receiving the sun, flower is open, time to have fun!
Speaking of dragons, we are about to meet Smaug, for fans of The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings, check out this trailer if you haven’t already!
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I can feel myself coming more strongly into my power, the current shift is not always comfortable but already beginning to yield positive results. When you are juggling a lot of balls simultaneously even seemingly small things can have an incredibly profound effect, and I’ve just reduced my stressors in the most delightful fashion! There was a stall at my regular sunday market with lots of belly dance gear, brightly coloured rich fabrics and sequins gleaming in the sunshine, and lo and behold, there was a black skirt with a HUGE amount of fabric in it. Enough to be perfect for my flamenco costume, add in a couple of scarves and some head pieces and I pretty much have the outfit covered.
See what tresure I found!
May not sound like much to some of you but it’s a weight off my mind, when you are in or on the edge of overwhelm, little things can really make a big difference. So if you do have a lot going on, look for anywhere you can reduce the causes small or large, there are times when shifting your perception cannot change the fact that you are simply doing too much, and so shedding becomes a necessity.
After the last week and a half of being sick with a cold and then the gastro bug, I feel thoroughly cleaned out, and the cold is still hanging around so obviously I still have a bit to go with that particular process. The best response I can come up with is to keep going with what I am doing and see what guidance comes my way, whether it be through my own channeling or someone else offering inspiration. There is much more to tell about my growing empowerment and seeming hiccoughs on the way but that will have to wait for another post, as I once famously wrote in a performance piece some years ago in Sydney, THERE’S ALWAYS MORE!
More LOVE, more AUTHENTICITY, more PLEASURE……………. More Life to be lived…………….Bring it on I say!
I said this is crunch time and I meant it, I’m an essentially healthy and happy person who keeps getting sick, I spent a week in bed in August and currently have a cold that started over a week ago and just won’t go away in spite of the foul-tasting herbs I’m taking for it. In between the bugs have been having a good go at me (“Bug Wars”, Sept 30 2013), and usually they would be losing the battle, I’ve gone for years at a time without even getting a cold. The last time this happened was in the months leading up to my big shift from the city to the country, my sense is that there is another shift looming for me so I take it as a positive if annoying sign of things to come.
You can click on this image to be able to read the writing, the website has more information on brain states and cd’s for sale that take you into alpha, theta or delta, I haven’t tried them so can’t recommend but may consider trying them out some time.
So I mentioned that I’m doing a course that involves the Alpha brain state and visualisation techniques, I’ve looked at this sort of thing before and even done some of it, but I always struggled with being able to stay focused. When I do the visualisation I find it really challenging to bring in all the senses and even my visuals are not terribly clear, yet when I do a guided meditation the images always come pouring in vividly. As I write this I’m thinking that it might be useful to tap on this (that’s EFT: Emotional Freedom Technique) before I do the exercises, our facilitator says the images don’t have to be clear, but it is important to be bringing in the other senses so it wouldn’t hurt to make it all a lot more vivid.
I also need to work on my ability to be persistent and not give up, like a lot of people I will do something for a while, but at some point I get distracted and let it go. This has happened with other amazing work that I have connected with in the past, a good example would be Jean Houston’s Awaken To Your Life’s Purpose, an online seminar I did at the end of 2011. http://evolvingwisdom.com/programs/life-purpose.php
Not that I didn’t get a lot out of the course, I connected with other amazing people around the globe that I stay in touch with and who are now very much in my heart space. But I was busy as always and just did the exercises in each session once, all the information is on my computer but I’ve never got back to doing it. So now I have once again been drawn to a course that is motivating me to change that old pattern, wish me luck as I head off once again into the great unknown! Here is an old song from Gracie Fields, “Wish me Luck (As You Wave Me Goodbye): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7EUytEX_XkE
Once again I find myself dancing with the bug that keeps coming back to haunt me, if things really do come in threes lets hope that this is the last time! I’m feeling much better since my counselling session last week and doing my best to take care of myself while still doing the things that need to be done. I’ve been working on my writing project as well as reading “The Art of Non-Conformity” and inspiration is flowing, although as I sit here writing this post there are butterflies dancing wildly in my belly.
I didn’t wake up with this feeling and am not sure what triggered it, but at the end of the day it doesn’t really matter what it was. I could say it was a thought that obviously didn’t serve me but that wouldn’t actually be accurate, whatever is moving in me needs to move on, and the trigger is a necessary part of the clearing process, so I bless and honour it. But I don’t enjoy the feeling at all, in my days of unconsciousness this is what would drive me to try to blot everything out by getting stoned or drunk.
Now I sit with the feelings and breathe, bringing the notion of devotion into the equation, devotion to my healing process, to the sharing in this blog, devotion to all the special people in my community, and one in particular who is having a birthday today. As I do this the energy in my belly moves out into my arms and legs, and then starts radiating out into the aether as if I have become a small sun. I begin to breathe in and out of my heart and what was a kind of anxiety has transformed into excitement and anticipation. Now I’m feeling a bit light-headed and there is a sense in my body almost as if I could start to levitate!
Wow, what an interesting and quite spontaneous shift! The imagination is a marvelous gift and if you allow it free rein it can take you anywhere you need to go, a good reminder for me as I continue with my writing project and the development of this blog. And my sense is that if I can balance self-care with doing the things I am passionate about I will win the battle of the bug, so be warned denizens of the micro world, this gal is no push over, her immunity is strong!
Balance is the theme here as we are heading towards a New Moon in Libra next saturday, but more on that subject later, for now farewell dear friends, good health to you all!
PS: When I finish this post I am going to go for a brisk walk, excited energy is needing to be channelled, transformation of anxious energy motivating even more self-care!
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One of my themes or lessons at the moment is to do with making choices about whether to stress when I feel like I am under pressure. My observer, who I talked about in my last post, steps back and sees that getting anxious about what needs to be done is only one option amongst many. When I feel into my body for the location of the stress, I find it in my belly, a feeling of insecurity. Then I think about what it is that has to be achieved and consciously make the choice to trust that it will all happen beautifully. When I do this there is a clear shift in my belly, a sense of letting go and release, leaving behind joy and peace.
Of course there are times when you truly do need to be doing less, find your balance and answer the call of spirit from a hearted place, so that you may flourish even as you do serve. My recent week in bed tells me that I probably do need to do a bit less, tricky when I love pretty much everything that I do. But I do know what I have to do, find a market for the kind of writing I like to do, the Carrie Bradshaw of the Spiritual Realms, instead of “Sex and the City”, “Spirit in the Country”.
But it won’t be just about relationships, boy and girl stuff, this is the realm of the Spirit and all subjects are up for grabs, there isn’t anything that isn’t grist for the mill. The deeper levels of consciousness are certainly what invite me to explore within, but if you look at images from space and think about the distances out there it is clear that we have barely scraped the surface as far as space exploration goes. And just having astronauts going to the moon and sending back pictures of the earth, changed the consciousness of humanity, what will a journey to the Milky Way do to our perceptions of self and the world. What will contact with other intelligent life out there do to our sense of who we are, the future is an exciting place to be heading towards.
So I choose to be excited and confident that everything is going to work out perfectly in divine timing, that means action too of course, it also means lateral thinking to fit everything in. And there is also a need to be very quiet, still longing for that real stillness that you have out in the bush, remembering to breathe in love and to exhale gratitude.
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My next toning circle is going to be on 31 August, so we will be marking the transition from winter into summer, feels like we are jumping into the heat early this year. There will no doubt be some spring like weather too, but for me it’s the summer time that is almost upon us, and time to reap the harvest for whatever we may have sown, over months, years………… I think there might be a big transition occurring on a cosmic level at the moment and it’s being reflected in the lives of many as we respond to that energetic environment. A lot of readings that I am doing certainly reflect the huge shift that is happening in the world, for each of us the actual circumstances may vary but the essence is the same.
The Dumbbell Nebula, also known as Messier 27, pumps out infrared light in this image from NASA’s Spitzer Space Telescope.
So the question is how to travel through the shifts and changes with ease and grace, and I guess the first part of that is the act of bringing awareness to whatever is happening in your life. This is where the observer comes in, stepping back and actually seeing what you are doing, the behaviours that are creating what’s going on. This can take practice but it does get easier over time, and once you can see with that kind of clarity there is a sense of liberation that comes with achieving a deeper knowledge and understanding of yourself.
So when the changes stir things up for you bring that clarity of mind to the situation, and ask yourself what might help with moving the energy along and out of your organic system. Keep the energy in your body flowing as much as possible and you will manage smoother travelling on the roads of change, staying grounded in everyday practicalities can also be a huge help in remaining positive about your experiences. And sometimes there are pot holes on the road of your journey and you simply have to surrender to a bumpy ride for a time, just keep your safety belt on and know that it won’t last for ever.
Don’t you just love it when you are sooooo in the flow that the right person comes along in the perfect moment and gives you the exact piece of information that you never knew you needed until that little shift occurred. It happened to me in a pause from the wild medicine dance that was powered by Balkan grooves in my local community hall. The jigsaw piece was something known as “The Art of Non-Conf0rmity”, and it is giving me heaps of inspiration just from looking at the web site and some blog posts. will buy the book next.
I need to re-invent myself and there actually is quite a bit to work with, just have to decide which bits I want to keep and if there is anything left that still has to go. You wouldn’t expect so with all the shedding I’ve been doing, but one thing this journey has taught me is that there always seems to be more! So what do I love doing that I would be doing anyway so why not get paid for it too, that’s writing of course, but don’t worry I’m not going to ever charge YOU for reading my blog. I’m immensely grateful for those who follow my meanderings, hope you can all stay on for the big part of the journey!
If you would like to check out “The Art of Non-Conformity” by Chris Guillebeau his web-site is http://chrisguillebeau.com/. I am looking forward to having a look at his book, he has a very inspiring way of presenting information and I need the encouragement to get my thinking out of the box. As Einstein said:
We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them.
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/authors/a/albert_einstein.html#O5CpQYPdcbUq7lVM.99
“And until further notice, celebrate everything!” St. Germain.
A few posts ago I told the story of how I shifted some deep feelings that had been triggered in my yoga class (Goodbye Sweetheart: 21 Aug 2013), it was on this occasion a fairly quick process. This has not always been the case for me and even now I come up against resistance to letting go of my stuff, it isn’t the brick wall that it used to be but it can still be a challenge to move through. With the sorrow that I described that was in my heart, I did notice that there was a part of me that wanted to hold on to that feeling.
When dealing with unexpressed emotions from the past it is sometimes necessary to wallow a bit in that sea of grief or whatever it is that is coming up for you. Give the feeling its full expression and then let it go, that’s the theory but in practice it isn’t always quite so easy. I’ve known people who work on themselves constantly who become addicted to the process of bringing the feelings up but can never seem to actually release them. It’s as if these feelings and the story that they are attached to is so much a part of who they are, on some level they fear that by letting go they will lose their identity.
So the actual letting go part, how do you do it? As a kinesthetic person I feel it in my body, bring my awareness to wherever it is in my body, usually in the belly or the heart. Then I might breathe or tone into that part of my body, or I might use a visualisation as I did with the sorrow, seeing it as a mist and putting it into a sparkling bottle. Your imagination is an important tool in any kind of inner work, a key ingredient for creating change, Einstein said:
“Your imagination is a preview of life’s coming attractions.”
You do need to be committed (not to an asylum!) and to be prepared to give yourself focused time to drop into the parts of you that lie beneath the surface. I found it easier to create the time for that kind of thing after giving up television which I pretty much stopped watching twelve years ago. Try shifting your perception of what it is to spend time dropping within, don’t see it as work, it can be lots of fun even as it challenges and confronts. And the clarity and energy and joy that emerges the more that you heal that which is incomplete, the ecstasy of feeling whole and connected to all things, it’s better than any tv show I ever saw.
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My yoga class today took me very, very deeply into myself, and by the time I reached savasana at the end I was experiencing a huge shift of energy that was focused on my heart. It felt like sorrow, such sadness and I am not quite sure where I went, I know it took me a long time to come back into myself. I went into town and did the things that I had to do, but only part of me was present, somehow I managed to choose a birthday card for a friend, actually in that space it probably made the choosing easier, I just let my intuition have complete control!
When I finally got the chance to sit with the feelings in my own space the grief in my heart was so intense it was as if my heart was wailing in its sorrow. I used the heartfire gateway meditation (My Fiery Heart: 15 Aug 2013) and I saw the sadness as a grey mist swirling around, there was a blue bottle and I began to encourage the mist to enter into the bottle which was sparkling on the outside. The mist seemed endless but eventually it was all in the bottle which I took into the centre of my being. The mist inside began to sparkle and give off a golden light and then it burst out of the bottle and my heart felt open and expanded and free!
I followed that up with the Daily Activation of Light and the energy has completely shifted, there is a bit of uncertainty in my heart but it is excitement with perhaps just a dash of doubt. That was a very quick process! Oh and I forgot to mention, I toned as the sparkling mist shot out of the bottle, the sound really helped in the transformation from sorrow to joy. In fact it was rather like a champagne bottle being opened which I always associate with celebration.
And now as I sit here the knowing of what the grief is about is coming to me, echoes of loss down the eons and through time and space, a soul mate lost, back then and then here again in this life. Some things are simply not meant to be, and it is time to let go of the sadness over this, for every time I make the space, a new joy comes rushing in.
So be it, so be it, so be it…………………….
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