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Abundant Me.

The nights with this cold I’ve had were rather interesting, if not what I would describe as particularly pleasant. That’s when the cough would come and make it hard to sleep, I noticed though that after a really deep racking cough there was a sense of expansion and lightness in my chest that actually felt good. I was also aware of a strong vibration going on at a cellular level that indicated a lot of energetic movement, a big shift of some kind. I keep seeing the Tower from the tarot and the Death card, both of these archetypes indicate fundamental change occurring.

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I guess my trip to Sydney to sort out my stuff was even bigger than I realised, it closes a chapter in my life so there is a kind of death that is happening. In many ways I have been in transition for the last two and a half years even though my focus has been very much on where I have been living. Let’s face it, how often does an old chapter end neatly with the new one following on, there is almost always a bit of back and forthing that goes on.

Now I need to address any completions that need to be done with regards to the old path that is finishing, and probably the hardest part is letting go of the old outmoded ways of being that no longer serve me. The one that is coming up big time for me is abundance and being supported, with a better return on the energy I put out I will be able to do a better job of looking after myself. There are things I could do less of and be happy, but economic necessity is a factor that cannot be ignored and so I do what I have to. But I’m not prepared to compromise on things I know are important for me to do, even though they may not bring in income, and so we arrive at a schedule that becomes overwhelming at times.

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It’s a biggie but I do finally think that the time has come to properly address this issue, and my intuition has been telling me for the longest time that my writing is the key to this. We shall see what unfolds, I will be calling on all the resources I can find inner and outer to meet this particular challenge, wish me luck as I go!

I Am Whole, Ohm Shanti…..

I’m getting stronger and stronger as I continue to integrate the intense learnings that have dominated my year so far, with each shift more of me is available to life, the universe, and everything! And this is just as well because I’m sure that things will be moving more and more quickly as the vibration of the earth itself is moving into new frequencies. I am going to clear clutter so I can move cleanly into this new life that is unfolding in each moment on my wonder filled journey into a Golden New Age, the journey into the fullness of us all!

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I find myself issuing challenges to life and aspects of me that fill me with excitement rather than fear, always a lesson to be learned and always a light at the end of the tunnel. The challenge of organising posts for while I am away south, is showing me how I can see the pieces as part of a tapestry and be a bit ahead of myself as a matter of course. So I am seeing the larger pattern that is my account in through the vortex, fun to get the posts in just the right order for maximum impact!

Writing these short pieces certainly is a format that one refines as one goes, each one is carefully crafted till it is just right, or good enough in some cases, yet there is always someone who loves it. When you are creating something new, there is this kind of zing you get when it’s exactly right, the rhythms of poetic flow, visuals and video, quotes………….the whole picture.

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This is a really nice description of holistic healing and the human energy field, getting a flow with all of these, so that they are in alignment with each other, is my intention, so be it, so be it, so be it…………ohm shanti, blissings and love…….

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t4FrmkWsKQU

And a clip that shows us the implications in the energy based universe that we currently inhabit, what is around us can sometimes only be discerned by the finer senses, the intuitive or right brain side of us.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RDmivrnktkQ

The Red Shoes.

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There is a sense of completion all around me, the ripples of my actions creating endings, and new beginnings. When I follow those ripples out into the ocean of love I am filled with the excitement of my own potential. But I also need to be careful not to get too far ahead of myself, it comes back always to balance and being present in the moment that I am in.

At times I am so impatient, like Juliet as she waits for the day to end so that she may be with her Romeo:

Spread thy close curtain, love-performing night,

That runaway’s eyes may wink, and Romeo

Leap to these arms untalked of and unseen.

Lovers can see to do their amorous rites

By their own beauties; or, if love be blind,

It best agrees with night.Come, civil night,

Thou sober-suited matron, all in black,

And learn me how to lose a winning match,

Played for a pair of stainless maidenhoods.

William Shakespeare.

But it is not simply a partner that I am singing up here, it’s an entire new life in a world that has gone through such enormous changes since the Summer Solstice 2012. And divine timing is always such an important aspect of the process, flowing with the current, where the energies naturally want to go.

But I’m human and so I come in and out of that easy current and of course there are sometimes storms that blow in as well . At the end of the day it’s my response that determines how I travel, it creates my reality based on the impetus of what is actually happening around me. What is particularly nice at the moment is that not a lot of stuff is coming up and I am shifting it fairly quickly when it does. Praise the Goddess, and a special thanks to the feminine flow for guiding me towards the amazing bargain of getting the last pair of red boots on crazy sexy special, perfect fit!

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Couldn’t find the french version of Prokofiev’s Romeo and Juliet that I remember as being particularly good, but this one shows Margot Fonteyn and Rudolf Nureyev dancing together, the energy between them is electric!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HtBRN5BXt6o

The Felt Sense.

Champagne in the middle of the day, even just a little bit, makes a girl wilt like a flower that’s been left without water for too long. It makes finding the inspiration for a post that much harder to find, so I’m doing what I always do in this situation, writing about what I’m feeling in this very moment and see where it takes me. There’s a weariness and a vulnerability in me, and I’m not quite sure what it’s about, after my recent experiences of my feelings being amplified by a malicious outside source, one can’t help wondering if something like that is going on yet again.

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How can I tell if this is mine, mmmmmm…….guess I need to pause for a moment and tune in, and also use my imagination to put a mirror all around me, so that if anything is coming from outside of me it will be reflected back to sender. Ok so I did all that and this is definitely mine, there was no shift when I made the mirror and when I focused on the feeling in my belly it moved up to my heart. It’s sadness with no particular story attached to it which is another clue, an invasive energy is going to stir up your negative self-talk and stories. I acknowledged the feeling and it began to shift into warmth and tingling, signs of the energy moving, there is a tiny bit left but I actually feel a bit less tired.

It takes practice to tune into your body but it’s a skill that is well worth developing, if you can connect with its authentic voice the body has much wisdom to offer us. There are many doorways that lead to that knowing, dance, yoga, and meditation are my personal favourites but take your pick, there is a wonderful world out there just bursting with ideas on how to connect more deeply with the self.

Enjoy the journey!

Eugene Gendlin talks about focusing, this explores our deeper ‘felt’ sense and can help you to understand your body’s point of view:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j7PEC5Mh5FY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmL4zjVi8Dk

Out Of The Cocoon.

I was reflecting the other day upon the butterfly theme that keeps cropping up in my posts on a fairly regular basis, for a time I considered it to be one of my totems. It probably isn’t so much these days, the snake has well and truly taken over that role, and it represents the really deep shedding from my core that’s been happening for the last two years, particularly since the summer solstice of 2012. The world may not have ended, but it certainly went through a huge shift, and for myself, I feel so different it’s as if the world did finish at that point in time.

But for a time in the early naughties the butterfly was my symbol, it represented transformation and freedom, I always loved the idea that the butterflies were tasting the petals with their feet as they danced from flower to flower. A butterfly came to visit me at the end of 2001 when my mother and I were setting up the stall for our last Woodford Folk Festival on Christmas Day. I kept shooing it out, the tent was baking hot and not a good place for such a delicate creature. I thought it had gone but towards the end of the day I found it, it had been determined to stay with us, and I was touched that it had chosen to spend its last day with me and mum.

Butterfly in flight.

Butterfly in flight.

I felt that the butterfly had come to tell me that it was my time to come out of the cocoon and to begin my transformation, I was about to do my first deep shamanic training starting on January 2nd, and so the timing was very significant. It was the beginning for me of fundamental change that came from a deep exploration of my being, and the release of cellular memory, the beginning of the long path home.

Happy Noise.

I speak a lot about the way in which our thoughts about what is going on, are what really cause our suffering much of the time, change the thought and you shift the feelings. I had a great example of this the other night that I would like to share with you, even though it’s relatively simple I actually feel quite proud of myself, here I am using my knowledge and understandings to navigate my everyday life. I mean how often have you done things pretty much the opposite to the way you know would be easier and probably more graceful, most of us have a lifetime of self-sabotaging habits that kick in at the slightest trigger!

So let me set the scene here, I’ve spent the afternoon moving into my new house sit and getting settled in, organising my stuff and making friends with the cat. I could have the whole night to do this but I really, really want to go to dinner and the movie at the community centre with my dear friend, so I’m having to move quickly and feeling a tad anxious about getting everything done. There’s also the pressure to get posts written and not have too late a night as it is a market day tomorrow.

I get home having had a lovely night at the movies, great food, company and I loved the movie, “Hyde Park on Hudson”. I wrote a post and then got ready for bed and it was at this point I finally focused on something I had been doing my best not to notice, a house nearby was having a big party, flashing lights and dance music pumping out. “Just what I need on my first night here” I thought to myself, it’s a particularly quiet area where I am staying so it seemed rather ironic. Then I realised that my thoughts were not going to be helpful in the situation, and so I decided to focus on the fact that these people were obviously having a wonderful time, I would perceive the party as a happy energy radiating that quality out into the night.

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The tiniest tweak of consciousness but it did the trick, as I lay relaxing towards sleep I didn’t even hear the noise most of the time, when I did it didn’t bother me at all. You see what I mean about it being simple, but if you put enough simple things like that together you start to build a wonderful life where everything flows with ease and grace.

So be it, so be it, so be it…………………………..

Here is the trailer for “Hyde Park on Hudson” if you would like to check it out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQaScjiWDyY

Circles Of Love.

You’ve heard the expression, you can tell a lot about a person by meeting their friends, well the circles we move in certainly do reflect wherever we happen to be at, so making conscious choices about this aspect of living is an important part of creating change. Of course it goes hand in hand with inner change, as you shift your internal landscape the outer world will begin to reflect that back to you. If you are trying to bring about a positive shift in your life, then having people around you who will support you in that endeavour is immensely helpful, after all, we tend to have enough of our own resistance without anyone else adding to it!

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I’ve reached an alchemical moment in my transformational journey, when the outer and inner worlds are beginning to match up and align, and everywhere I go there seems to be positive feedback  coming my way. If ever I am tempted to slip back into negative thought patterns about myself, this constant stream of appreciation helps to keep me on path. It’s like a golden light that fills me with love and gratitude, if all these amazing people feel like that about me, I must be alright! Not that one should ever be dependant on the approval of others but when the messages are coming from such a heartfelt place, it contributes to the creation of a loving kindness energy field, and that benefits everybody.

Painting by Alison Dinardi  "Circles of Love"  inspired by the vision of The Sterling Study Group http://whatanicewebsite.com/SterlingStudyGroup/

Painting by Alison Dinardi “Circles of Love” inspired by the vision of The Sterling Study Group
http://whatanicewebsite.com/SterlingStudyGroup/

That loving field is what my toning circles are all about, we tone from our hearts, and the resulting frequencies create an energy that is so very yummy, it can help to bring us into the ecstatic state that is our birthright. So if you want to have positive shifts in your life, see if you can surround yourself with those who will understand and support the desire to move into a higher state of evolution. Time to become the future human, the seed that lies as potential in each and every one of us.

God And Guiness!

Mmmmmmm……. what to write next? Sex and tantra, emotional release, or perhaps yet another rhapsody on my wonderful country town! Actually speaking of my home, it seems we may be facing an invasion from some possibly very fundamental God Botherers. They started with an office, and it has now become a church, and it’s right next door to the local Irish Bar where you can go and listen to the jam session on sunday afternoons. Strange kind of juxtaposition if you ask me, and that’s the response of most people I know, and yet it has been given the go ahead by council.

I’ve heard stories of how fundamentalists have infiltrated other country towns by buying up the real estate, they often have influence on the councils and it seems fairly certain that they do have an agenda. I have no problem with people having different beliefs to me, but I do object to those who keep trying to push those ideas on to everybody else. They say they want to save souls, but the idea that I need to be saved is simply a ‘belief’, one which I don’t happen to agree with. If there is any saving to be done I will do it myself thank you very much!

So is there anything to be done about this situation? The problem is that anything that might be done is time-consuming, and there are so many other issues that require urgent attention. Coal seam gas springs to mind immediately, the poisoning of our water basin is fundamental to our survival on the planet, without water the God Botherers won’t be around to do any converting.

I am left with the response which is what I always do come back to, it’s how I am doing my spiritual task on the planet and it has the power to affect absolutely everything it is directed at. By holding my sound circles and supporting others with readings, bodywork and sound healing, I’m contributing to the shift in consciousness that is inevitable on this planet. If that doesn’t occur then all the direct action in the world will not make a tad of difference, not that it isn’t important. It just isn’t part of the brief I agreed to when I was setting up my contract before I incarnated this time.

And of course there is the contribution I make each time I make my own shifts, we really are so much more important each and every one of us, all of our thoughts and actions matter so very much! As Marianne Williamson wrote and Nelson Mandela made famous:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

This inspiring quote by Marianne Williamson is from her book, A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles, Harper Collins, 1992. From Chapter 7, Section 3 (Pg. 190-191).

Only Women Bleed.

I talked a post or two ago about different cycles of life, the moon cycle being a particularly important one for women. There was a time when I thought my period was a bit of a pain, as a feminist I refused to apologise for the fact that I bled, no hiding my tampon on my way to the loo in a restaurant! But I had no idea of the true power I could be connecting with at that time.

It was somewhere around the middle of the naughties that I began to understand that I was missing something really important, that my moon time could be much more than an inconvenience. As I began to shift my thinking I noticed a change in my bleeding, what had become a lighter flow became richer and a bit heavier. I honoured that time of the month as best I could, it isn’t always easy to follow the natural inclination to go within in this busy world, but you do what you can.

The more that I tune into my body and its processes the more I am able to allow energies to flow through me, and as a woman I feel deep gratitude for the opportunity each month to let go with the flow of my menstrual blood. I have been fortunate that it has rarely been a painful experience, I remember a time in 2007 when I had a couple of very painful periods, and when I tuned into my body I understood that I was releasing some particularly difficult stuff. I was studying counselling at the time and had a lot of challenging material coming up in relation to grief and loss and my father’s suicide.

As I become more sensitive to my beingness, I tend to notice an increase in sensitivity leading up to my moon flow. I’m not talking about over sensitivity, it is more like a heightening of the senses, I get very horny and I most definitely don’t have a problem with that aspect! As I write this, I am feeling that heightening of the senses combined with the fullness that has come with my shift into a healthy sense of self, and it is wondrous to behold, wondrous to be!

Thank you moon, thank you mother, looking forward to connecting with the earth tomorrow after a couple of hours spent gazing inwards in my fabulous yoga class. I love life and life loves me, blissings, blissings and love to all………………

This YouTube clip from Alice Cooper back in the seventies really epitomises the old paradigms for men and women, and yet I have always loved this song, there is a real tenderness and empathy for women, and the way that the feminine has been suppressed in this man’s world. It does no favours for any of us, no matter our sex, have a listen to “Only Women Bleed”.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DleEdiiI1jw

The End is Nigh!

The flow of love, it is a river that can cross all barriers, seep into and melt the toughest armour, it is the energy that holds together all things for all time. I feel that water course running through my life just as my blood moves through my veins, always coming back to the heart, the source of our true power.

There are many ways of connecting in to that vital force, movement, stillness, music, poetry, for some it may be merging with the earth as they walk in the bush or tend their gardens. However you find that space inside of yourself, it is something that I believe is so necessary to the human spirit, that many of us are slowly but surely dying inside for lack of it.

The sacred is everywhere, it is not so much about where you look, it is more to do with the way you are seeing and perceiving.

If the doors of perception were cleansed every thing would appear to man as it is, Infinite. For man has closed himself up, till he sees all things thro’ narrow chinks of his cavern.”  ―    William Blake,    The Marriage of Heaven and Hell

We are living in what Jean Houston describes as end times, it is the end of an age and the beginning of something new. It can be incredibly harrowing, but it is also very exciting, we have the opportunity to create a new mythology, a new story for humanity and our role on this planet.

There does need to be change on a massive scale, but don’t be daunted by the scope of the challenge, changing your own consciousness feeds into the field that we are all a part of, the smallest shift can resonate through the world and bring on the outcomes we desire. Every journey starts with a single step………….

“To see a World in a Grain of Sand
And a Heaven in a Wild Flower,
Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand
And Eternity in an hour.”
―    William Blake,    Auguries of Innocence

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