Tag Archives: spiritual practice

Staying Grounded In A Sea Of Change.

Heart PopIf you keep saying yes to things that sound exciting you will further your cause even if not a one comes to pass in the everyday tangible world. Of course some of them will but there can be times when simply considering an idea is enough to get energy moving, even if it ends up going in a different direction to where you started. My Beloved and I were considering the possibility of sharing a market stall at a festival and we had a meeting to talk about it that was fun and inspiring. In the end we aren’t going to do it but I have some positive energy moving from that experience that can now flow into other projects.

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Just as well there are lots of positive bits popping up in the constant sea of change that still appears to be the energetic conditions of this particular time. The home environment that my Beloved and I are currently living in is not conducive to our being grounded and centred. Through nobody’s fault we are temporarily sharing space and for us it makes it much noisier than we are accustomed to. Even though I love music I often just have silence, especially when in a quiet place. And I haven’t watched television for 15 years!

But it is giving me good reminders about mindfulness and how spiritual practices can really support us when we are going through tough times. I spent some time this afternoon cleaning and I chose to think of it as a devotional practice. I saw myself radiating out love and harmony and peace as I worked, I could feel it flowing out of my hands. I thought of the gurus who say: Feed people. Serve people. Help people. Come back to basics and the things that are required to be happy and comfortable in our bodies, having a sense of purpose is just as important as getting food and rest.

Big Rainbow

It all matters and I am determined to keep riding the wave of change and adventure to the next exciting destination! Aho!

Inner Balance: A Meditation On Joining.

moontime sacred womanWhat does inner balance mean to you? This is a question that was posed by The Joining Gathering, (http://www.thejoining.com.au/), on Facebook yesterday, and it got me thinking about how I find balance in myself. My Beloved has gone off to the big smoke for four days of intense study and so I found myself looking inside for what it is that keeps me centred, particularly when I am on my own. Time alone is quite rare these days and I wouldn’t have it any other way, but in the past it has often been my preference to be on my own rather than hanging out with other people.

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Now I just want to be with my Beloved ALL the time and that’s wonderful but life being what it is there will be times that we have to be apart and I need to be ok with that. And I am, the question is what is going on inside me to create that sense of being grounded in who I am. When I tune into that I get a sense of a column going up the middle of my body, in particular my torso and the place where I feel it the most is in my heart. There is a sense of fullness in the heart space and the feeling is gratitude.

ocean of love

I learned to be happy about who I am and truly love myself before I was able to be with my Beloved in deep love and connection. I decided to settle for nothing less than a relationship based on spiritual practices and I waited 10 years until the moment of our joining unfolded. Just as it was always meant to be, and in the time of my preparation I’ve done a lot of inner discovery that stands me in good stead for the path that my Beloved and I will walk together, side by side.

Anima Animus by Toni Carmine Salerno

Anima Animus by Toni Carmine Salerno

Liking me means that while I miss my darling terribly on those rare occasions he has to be away, I really genuinely am ok. Having said that I must confess to a saucy exchange of texts with my Love as I try to finish writing this post! Hard not to be happy when someone regularly takes your breath away and squeezes your heart in that soft goofy way, even when he isn’t physically here.

Love and smiles, be happy and well!

The Joining 2014

Letting Go Of Who You Think You Are.

spiritual loveDiving into the space of eternity I fall into the softest state of being, letting go of the things that are supposed to be who I am in the world. Following the path of the heart, letting go of who I think I am, this has been a major part of my journey into relationship as a spiritual practice.

Not that you have to be in a romantic relationship in order to let go of the ego’s assumptions, I’ve been following this particular path for what feels like a very long time. Just reflect for a moment, how much of your sense of identity comes from what other people have told you over the years? Parents, teachers and institutions, images in a culture that screams out youth, money and status! Even those who appear to embody all of these desirable traits, will often secretly feel unworthy. I can think of at least one drop dead gorgeous young woman I know who constantly surprises me when she seems unable to see her own beauty.

It’s such a relief to let go of all of that weight of expectation, to drop into the stillness of expectancy, quivering on the edge of the unknown. But to get to that place you need to be prepared for being uncomfortable at times, breaking old patterns requires focus, determination, and a certain amount of bloody mindedness.

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It can also be fun and I am very excited to be bringing my awareness to ways in which I can support people in doing this for themselves. My Beloved and I have been accepted to run a workshop at the next “Joining Gathering” in September, it’s called “The Path of the Heart: Letting go of who you think you are”. (http://www.thejoining.com.au/) So far we make a good team, in the bedroom, the kitchen, in tasks around the house and on the dance floor, this is our opportunity to take that energy out into the wider community.

The adventure continues and my own path of the heart shines out like the glorious sun on a crisp autumn morning.

“Until further notice celebrate everything!” (St Germain through Azena Ramanda)

This Crazy Delicious Place Of Delight!

Dressing up as an elf can also be great therapy! Yes that's me, photo by Steve Swayne.

Dressing up as an elf can also be great therapy! Yes that’s me, photo by Steve Swayne.

Hello dear Readers, what is life holding for you in this very moment? Is there a thought or a dream that’s been wandering around in your inner being that wants to be expressed in some way? That’s a bit like the writing process for me, this blog is as much about my own therapy as it is about you gorgeous people out there.

There is a lot going on in my life at the moment, not the least of which is my going from being on my own to being with my soul mate. That journey brings its own challenges, it also brings incredible joy and the deepest connection, it isn’t the only way to get there but it certainly is fun! I have been noticing in myself an urge to immerse myself completely in my relationship, the desire to be in that ecstatic loving space all the time. There is a potential danger in this oh so natural process, at least it has been for me, it is so easy to lose myself in the ocean of love.

ocean of love

And this is relationship which is a spiritual practice that I am engaging in now so how much more the temptation to drown in that crazy, delicious place of delight. The funny thing is that the same thing ultimately saves me from tipping over the edge, it’s much harder to lose me these days, I keep finding deeper and deeper layers of who I really am. When you reach a certain point there is no going back, and why would you want to?

And I do let go of who I think I am  as I shift into that state of oneness and surrender, but I’m not really losing myself these days, its more like letting go of control. Or maybe you could compare it to the ability of a shaman to move in and out of altered states of consciousness, after all I used to be a shamanic apprentice! Whatever you call it, its nice to have the opportunity to navigate the paths to ecstasy, even when it is shadow, as I release layers of old stuff I become more available to the ecstatic.

Faeries Dancing

Until further notice, celebrate everything! Saint Germain through Azena Ramanda.

It’s All About Love.

“It’s all about love. We fall in love with ourselves the minute we see our true Being. There’s no other option. It’s so beautiful. If we really believed that we were worthy of love – and that, in fact, we are the love that’s waiting for us within our own hearts – every second of our day would be different. Every single second. Immediately.”

~ Krishna Das 

This quote really struck through to the core of me, I have been falling in love with myself for a while now and I have shed a lot of layers, but is there still a layer or two in the spiraling levels that my heart holds that may not have completely let go? I am the closest I have ever been to that place, have experienced it while journeying in deep spaces, know that in some ways everything else that is going on is a distraction, and yet it all does serve a purpose.

The seconds of the day are very different for me than they were even 6 months ago, much less a year or more, but it can shift some more, there is always room for expansion. When I reflect on the shift I can see that self-love really is at the core of what has changed within me, the critic speaks less and less, more and more I allow myself to deserve abundance in all areas of my life. And I am harvesting, not always in the way I thought I would but when you give things to God/Goddess you have to surrender to the way in which your intentions come to you.

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In a talk by Ram Dass he tells a story of how his guru told him to love everybody and to speak the truth, if you haven’t listened to Ram Dass I highly recommend him. I decided to take on loving everyone as a spiritual practice some years ago when I was still in the big city and it was a most enlightening experience. I realised that I was judging people all the time without even realising it, every time I noticed this habit I changed it to loving the person instead. This brought me into a beautiful loving state every time, do this often and you are beginning to approach being in that place of loving kindness more often than you are in consensual reality, which tends to be a bit more dour.

A good reminder which I am going to take on for myself, although I tend to love everybody where I live because I live surrounded by beautiful people, it will be interesting to see if it seems much different.

Love is all you need.

Fierce Grace is a beautiful documentary of an extraordinary soul who describes his stroke as “being stroked”, if you don’t have time to watch it now save it for later, it really is a deeply moving story.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FYXOfc-u5dk

And here is Krishna Das chanting “Ma Durga”, one of my favourites, chant along with the music and feel the vibration of the Sanskrit language, it has a lot of power.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_6jiNy9m9E