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Everyone Is A Poem.

Connections, communication………community, all most important aspects of humanity’s evolution into the next stage, the future human. I am seeing that in myself here as I move more strongly into community, the hermit will always be an important part of me,  but there’s no reason why one can not have both in the right balance. I have a powerful need to spend time in my own space, but I also share the need that all people have to connect with others, especially those who are like-minded.

Avatar.

Avatar.

When I work on the crisis phones I talk to so many lonely people, so many of us never really have the opportunity to be heard, to have someone listen, and to see us as we truly are. I particularly loved the greeting of the alien race in Avatar, “I see you”, in that context the meaning is to see into the soul of the other being. How often do you actually meet the eyes of the person you are talking to, would it make you uncomfortable to gaze into those windows of the soul, not just with a lover, but to see the God or Goddess in every person you meet? Michael Frante says that “Every single soul is a poem, written on the back of God’s hand”, I feel such joy when I put that song on and dance to it, he is one of those poets and musicians who can take you into that ecstatic space very easily. Check the song out in this live performance in Sydney in 2010.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mtbbuJ6Axgg

Of course I don’t always remember to bring that perspective to every encounter, if I’ve been triggered I may even have gone unconscious and be having trouble looking at the other person. That’s a rare event thank the Goddess, and the more that I can bring a sense of wonder and openness to every step of my path, the less likely I am to cause suffering to myself or anyone else. There’s been enough suffering on this planet, time for the  world to party and to share not only the joy, but the resources too!

As Saint Germaine always said, “Until further notice, celebrate everything!”

The Illusion Of Suffering.

Dear Goddess, will there always be contractions rolling through my being after riding the giddy heights of ecstasy????? After a week of handling my dental woes with depth and authenticity, of walking my talk and putting my money where my mouth is, here I am in the grips of the current which is pulling me down relentlessly into the depths of sadness and loss. Another toning circle today and it seems to have stirred up the dark depths lurking in my core, not misery or despair but such sadness, I feel empty and am doing my best to resist thoughts of how to fill that space.

Feeling so alone in this moment and yet I am aware that it is an illusion, if I so choose I never have far to reach to find a loving heart that will enfold me and hold me. The truth is that my need here is to hold and enfold myself, I’ve only just rebuilt my self-esteem after all, so one has to expect some teething problems in the new model (no pun intended!). Writing about it always helps, somehow it gives me perspective on what I am thinking and feeling, helps me to step back into the role of the observer and truly see what I am doing to myself.

There is nothing in my life that is making me suffer, it is only my perception that makes it so. But I can understand why people get carried away, it seems so real when you are in that feeling state whatever it is, it really is like one of those currents in the sea that can carry you away to drown before you even know what is happening.

So find the thing that helps you to step back from the current and get that larger perspective, see it from the point of view of the sea where that current is only a tiny part of the whole. If you are searching for ways to change your thinking I can recommend Byron Katie, her website is: http://www.thework.com/

“As long as you think that the cause of your problem is “out there”—as long as you think that anyone or anything is responsible for your suffering—the situation is hopeless. It means that you are forever in the role of victim, that you’re suffering in paradise.”
―    Byron Katie,    Loving What Is: Four Questions That Can Change Your Life

Surrender to What Is.

I didn’t want to bore you with more stuff about my car but the story does continue I’m afraid, the engine sounded great for about 15 minutes after it was fixed and then promptly began to make a sound like a helicopter, chop, chop. It’s still running but struggles up the steep hills even more than usual. I found myself slipping back into anxiety, only mild but uncomfortable even so.

Then I remembered what Byron Katie says, that it is your thoughts about what is going on that creates suffering, not the events themselves, and so I began to let go of those thoughts. It was like magic, as I surrendered to things the way they were I could feel the anxiety draining out of me. So I won’t do any long unneccessary trips and take the car to my mechanic on monday, and we will see then what the story is. Why borrow trouble from an uncertain future when the outcome could just as well be perfect, in fact why not just imagine the perfect resolution and flow with those good feelings.

So I got a lift to drinks at the club and walked home through the town I have grown to love so dearly. When you walk, the perspective is so different from being in the car, you’re going so much slower, you can take in much more of the scenery. I’m feeling such enormous gratitude for my wonderful life and things can only get better!

Maleny.

Maleny.