Just three weeks ago I was wondering how to improve some of my creeping bad habits, sugar being the absolute worst of the lot! Now I am on Day 13 of no sugar whatsoever in any form and spending what seems like hours preparing lots of green veggies and cooking organic meat. Well my Beloved and I are doing it together but we both agree that it takes an inordinate amount of time and in our small kitchen the dishes have to be washed at least twice a day. Do we sound hard core? Yes we are and for a very good reason, three weeks ago I received a diagnosis from the doctor that informed me that I have pre-cancerous cells on my left labia. I had the same thing on the right side about 9 years ago and at that time I decided to have surgery which was the only option the doctors talked about.
Well the doctors are still talking about surgical type options but I am a very different person now to who I was then. The logical conclusion to draw from the return of the pre-cancer is that there are underlying causes that were not addressed with surgery. So my response to the doctor was probably a bit different from what he expected. I have a lovely doctor but even so I could feel the panic in the air around the fact that I might not choose to go along with the bio-medical model. I told him I would consider taking up my referral to the hospital but that I would also be focusing on alternative methods and guess what? Three weeks later and I still haven’t heard from the hospital about an appointment, if I was relying on their help I would be sitting, waiting and feeling helpless. None of which is helpful for the immune system and lets face it, if you have cancer or pre-cancer in your body you are going to really need a strong immune system.
So instead I am eating cleaner and healthier than I have ever done in my entire life up to this point! Sure there are some supplements for the immune system and other various treatments but the main aim for my wonderful naturopath is to treat my condition with food as medicine. Which is what food is after all, when it doesn’t come processed and packaged and with all kinds of nasty chemicals and sugar in it. But I am finding out why people are resistant to this kind of information, eating like this is hard work even though the actual meals we’ve been eating are delicious. It takes time and energy and focus and probably seems a lot more challenging than following doctor’s orders and going meekly to surgery. I may even share a story with you next week about my more recent experiences in hospitals but there isn’t time today.
But for now I am on the second day of my liver flush and looking forward to the lunch I brought to work, organic chicken and salad. Like I said it’s hard work but I have total trust in the process and a sense of personal power as I take responsibility for my own health and well-being. Life is good and challenging and I am rising to meet it!
So it’s a new year and its summer and I really have been eating like crazy and the sugar monster is like totally out of the box! Not that previous phases of being naturally good have gone to waste either, I have good habits like starting every day with water and herbal teas. In fact this is an opportunity to let go of more layers of old beliefs and the coping mechanisms that used to support them. All in the grand cause of developing optimum health that doesn’t require me to feel like I’m missing out on something. I used to think herbal tea was boring, now I just adore my cup of dieters tea which contains dandelion leaf, celery leaf and fennel.
So the day starts well but all too often it begins to include stuff like chocolate bars or even chips or twisties! Cakes to go with my coffee and even when it’s raw you can still have too much of a good thing, even when it is made with something other than refined sugar. I find it easy to avoid processed foods when it comes to savoury but when the sugar addict is hungering for her hit it’s the crappy food that comes to mind. It is kind of crunch time too for my Beloved and I so fears are coming up around stepping into the larger picture. These fears have big time associations with junk food as it was a very large part of the way that I coped in earlier times.
So as I begin to feel my way into this year I promise to always be kind to myself even when I seem to be going backwards. There is no such thing as a mistake, only divine re-direction! And out of all this change and newness will come a healthier and more prosperous life for my Beloved and I here in the magic kingdom.
Apologies for being late with this post, the journey with antibiotics continues as I discover that I happen to have a bacteria that is resistant to the ones that I took at the end of last week. I did get some relief but then it all started hotting up again and yesterday I lay on the bed feeling the infection rising as the new antibiotic went to war along with my white blood cells. I recently watched the second Lord of the Rings movie again and as I felt this conflict going on within me I thought that it was not unlike the battles in that story. Not the way that I usually like to view health matters but sometimes you just want something to come and save you, yes it’s true, I really am very human!
Once the baddie is dealt with then I will have to try to get my act together on the health front. Beginning with restoring all the good bacteria that have been decimated along with the bad, the probiotic should arrive any day now! I use a certified organic product from Miessence that is very good, it isn’t the cheapest way to do it but it will do the job. And finally I may actually get around to doing the garlic cure that my Beloved and I have been talking about for at least a year. Being in love can lead to extreme happiness but it can also lead to extreme indulgence and this has led to my sugar and carb addictions being well and truly woken up.
But each time I go through falling off the path I am not falling in the way that I used to and my centred place to be is much healthier in so many ways. Drinking lots of water is a habit for me these days and I have never tippled on as much herbal tea as I do now! So here we go again and perhaps this time I will find the perfect way to obtain optimum health so that I never ever fall off the path again. “Pigs might fly” I hear you say as you roll your eyes at me………… well you can’t blame a girl for trying now can you.
Loving Earth Raw Chocolate: Luvju.
Good health to us all!
Reading over this meandering tale I am struck by the repeated patterns that can be discerned in our lives. Like the repetition in a fractal we radiate out energy into the world and create a space that can be anything that we want it to be. So I choose pleasure and health and doing things that are fun and meaningful. Being with my Beloved a lot and dancing! And India too, also with my Beloved, oh what fun that will be!!