Well I did everything that was on the schedule and reached a point where I could no longer stay with the pain and the discomfort that has been slowly growing worse. So I went to see my friend who gave me a herbal tonic and marshmallow powder, also a medicinal tea and the guidance to avoid alcohol and sugar. Been having a bit more sugar than is good for me although still nothing approaching my old habits, time to swing back to a place of not requiring so much sweetness. At least not in my food anyway.
Forgive my barely supported visual segue into the realm of the faeries, after my Lord of the Rings themed party and the pleasure of having pointy ears for a night, I may be a little obsessed……….but now back to the story.
My friend confirmed that I had a fairly severe bladder infection and that we needed to hit it hard with the herbs, three times a day. I tried to do my overnight shift but severe pain in my back and probably kidneys sent me home a couple of hours early. Now I have had a day doing nothing much with everything I meant to do cancelled, just eating from the fridge, can’t face shopping. The things a body has to do to get a girl to slow down!
Of course that isn’t the whole story, dark forces have been on the move and there is a bit of carnage left, like on the Death card, representing endings. It’s a mopping up operation now and the more efficient I am in this process the lighter I will be, able to manoeuver in a new life that remains complicated while incredibly simple. Yes I know that’s a contradiction but both are true, essentially I am very happy but right in this very moment I have absolutely no energy, at least not in my body.
My mind and spirit are moving and bringing these words to you, I hope they are of some use as I really do get a lot out of putting my thoughts out into the world. Being witnessed is a very powerful exchange, thank you to those who follow my posts, your likes and comments are much appreciated.
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I’ve had a period of relative calm for once in my life, not much ‘stuff’ coming up at all, being a bit indulgent with myself and that feels good too. When I come back into my practices that will also feel very good, I think it’s important not to ever be rigid with anything that we do, even the good habits can afford a holiday sometimes. All this making food for people is leading me back into sugar and grain at times, special occasions that have been happening all too often lately, having broken my lifelong sugar addiction I’m most reluctant to go back into that space.
caramel apple pie
So I need to think about how to manage the craving for sweets that is making a return appearance this week, pretty simple really, be strict with my diet whenever I’m not in entertaining mode. And in the long-term I want to come up with more sweet foods that I can easily make that are actually good for me, seems like palm sugar might be a good thing to find out more about. Raw cake and raw chocolate can be utterly delicious and super good for you, one of my dinner guests brought raw chocolate that she made herself, it was divine and sounded very easy to make.
Another couple of weeks of entertaining to get through without becoming the size of a house, like when Alice drank the bottle marked ‘drink me’ and grew and grew and grew! Maybe I should try to stir up some more stuff, that uneasy belly makes for an excellent appetite suppressant! Only kidding, only kidding……..I’m sure there is shedding in my future without my having to go trying to dig anything up, that’s life after all, receiving and letting go, receiving and letting go…………….breathing in and breathing out…………bless………..
Sometimes you just have to have that bit of naughtiness, winter seems to bring that on for me, the season where I have to watch my weight. It can creep up on you, so better to keep track and get off the sugar or grain wagon and go back to being pure. What is it about the cold that makes me want to eat and eat! Putting on a layer of fat to get through the winter months I suppose but that’s hardly necessary, I am getting a bit trimmer these days but there is still plenty of padding to get me through the cold.
Time of Entertaining rolling into the second half of the journey, what will have happened to our cast list, many new and masculine energies coming in, going out, trusting the process……….. I am so much in my power and to be in partnership it needs be with one who can hold space for that in a life, not just in the classroom. Time to forget about the practice and to just do it, take what you think you know and go off and test it in the experiential realm.
He is straight forward and our communication is honest and transparent, we like each other and don’t play games unless for fun and agreed upon! I am met in my fullness and inspired by his expanded and awakened masculine, even more of the woman I be is drawn out as the energies move between us in the eternal dance of Shiva and Shakti. We dance, we play, we sing, we tone, we have as much fun as we know how to with, as often as possible, healthy ingredients.
This is my time here at the last, the end times………..transformational, inspiring…….loving even those who cannot love themselves, staying in my heart even as I set firm boundaries. Greetings my Beloved, your coming is divinely inspired and I am so grateful for your presence and your love.
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an ancient Sanskrit greeting still in everyday use in India and especially on the trail in the Nepal Himalaya. Translated roughly, it means “I bow to the God within you”, or “The Spirit within me salutes the Spirit in you” – a knowing that we are all made from the same One Divine Consciousness.
The more formal greeting Sanskrit Namascar pronounced NAH-mah-scar
is also used in India, though less frequently in Nepal. The Hindi “Jai Bhagwan” is also in common use, and carries the same meaning
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