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The Body Talks And Talks: Are You Listening?

rash and rainbow tarotI have a lot of energy moving through me and some of it is expressing itself through an itchy rash on my arms and hands. Not sure how clearly you can see it in this photo but believe me when it goes into ultra itchiness it can seem almost unbearable. I will see how this unfolds and let you know if I can pass on anything useful. In the meantime here is a story I’m re-blogging as a great example of how the body can give us very clear messages in the most amazing fashion. On this particular occasion understanding the message provided almost instant healing! Read on:

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It would have been towards the end of 2003 when I was involved in intense shamanic training in bodywork and breathwork, that I experienced this rash in  a very intense form. I went to a talk by Nityama, a tantric master, just hugging him is enough to trigger an orgasmic state, I got a lot out of his talk on conscious relationships and it got me thinking about the relationship that I had supposedly ended just recently.It was someone I had a deep bond with and love for, but it was definitely not a conscious relationship, I had ended it because I knew it was doomed but he was still coming to my bed, it can be hard to let go as I’m sure you all know! At the end of that talk I knew I had to finish it completely but a week later I still hadn’t done anything about it.

Shantam Nityama

Shantam Nityama

Then a day or two after a bodywork session this rash started to develop on my face, it was intensely itchy and I had little pustules that wept at night so I had to have a towel on my pillow. I still went to work, life modelling and working in a bookshop, I was determined to work out what the rash was telling me so I refused to suppress it with medication. This went on for four days and then I was talking with my dear buddy Ulli on the phone about it, and we were discussing the significance of where it was occurring on my body, she said, “What is you’re not facing?”

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The penny dropped and as soon as I hung up on her I rang my ex and asked him to come visit, he wasn’t surprised when I said we had to finish completely, there was a sense of relief on both our parts. I went to bed that night and when I woke up the rash was well on the way to healing, I had got the message and taken appropriate action.The message isn’t always as clear as on that occasion, but the body is always talking to us, and it has a deep wisdom we would be wise to tap into. In order to access this space it is necessary to do clearing on the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual levels of our being. I’ve been engaged in this process since the beginning of 2000 but the good news is that for some of you it will be much quicker, I have had a lot of damage to clear which is often the case for those of us engaged in the healing arts.

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Either way it is so worth doing, life just gets better and better, there is more joy, pleasure and fun to be had, in fact it’s infinite!! So go ahead and follow your bliss, that’s my plan!

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Transform The Darkness: From Sex To Superconsciousness.

LoveAs human beings on the planet we all have masculine and feminine energy within us, in the last post I talked about shakti  and how tuning in can open us to our natural orgasmic nature. This is available for everyone, men and women, my Beloved has been exploring his shakti and it is a fascinating journey for both of us. My issues have been very much with the masculine and I am learning to let go of the memories and to sometimes step into that energy which is beautiful when it is in right relation to everything else.

So much of what has been seen as a part of the devil is simply a culture gone completely out of whack, where sexuality is frowned upon  and even forbidden sometimes. Osho speaks about how the science of tantra has developed in the east and that your:

“sexual energy can become your spirituality……….. It is proved beyond doubt-thousands of people have gone through the transformation. Tantra seems to be the science that is, sooner or later, going to be accepted in the whole world, because people are suffering from all kinds of perversions…………repressed sexuality is the problem. My whole effort has been how to make your sex a natural, accepted phenomenon so there is no repression-and then you don’t need any pornography, so that there is no repression-and then you don’t dream of sex. Then the energy can be transformed.”

Osho, Sex Matters: From Sex To Superconsciousness, in Diana Richardson, Tantric Orgasm For Women.

Shiva and Shakti.

Shiva and Shakti.

I have been letting go of some energies that didn’t feel very nice as they moved through me, some is from this life and some from past lives, who knows maybe I am tuning in to the experience of women over the centuries. Perhaps as I transform this darkness I am doing not only myself a great service, but maybe the whole of existence. It certainly feels lighter for me on every level of my being as I learn that it doesn’t always have to be painful to be alive, the parts of me that were traumatised are beginning to smile. They feel safe now to be themselves and it will be interesting to see what grows out of this place.

The Valley Of Love.

Relaxation is one of those states of being that tends to be undervalued in this culture, where action and achievement are held up as the pinnacles we are meant to be aiming at. Personally I just don’t have the motivation to climb that particular Everest, how about we go gliding through the canals of Venice, or if you really like winter sports then try sledding down the hill and simply letting go. When I can make the space for it I am pretty good at letting go, and when I allow it, I have become adept at actually relaxing into my fullness.

Mount Everest.

Mount Everest.

If you have a look at tantra you will find a lot of talk about relaxation, instead of going faster and faster and heading towards a ‘peak’ orgasm, you relax and allow the subtle energies to be perceived and felt, and sink into what is known as a ‘valley’ orgasm. I’m not speaking from personal experience, ten years ago when I was in my last relationship I knew nothing about any of this stuff although some of it happened spontaneously. I was already beginning to clear my stuff and move energies and as a woman it is much easier for me to be in that tantric space, it’s all about ‘being’ rather than ‘doing’.

When the opportunity to move into relationship as a spiritual practice arrives I will embrace it wholeheartedly, but in the meantime I will practice relaxation in all areas of my life as best I can. Things work better, we operate more harmoniously when we are coming from a relaxed space, but that’s a discussion for another post.

Good news for anyone who suffers from performance anxiety in the bedroom, which would be just about everyone at some point in a relationship. And for those of you who aren’t worried, are you on automatic pilot doing the same thing every time because you know it works, and if you try something new you might get rejected and isn’t that simply the worst possible thing that could happen! I’m not hearing relaxation in any of that description, and while I may be exaggerating a little and focusing on the negative, there are some truths in what I say.

More on this subject another time, in the meantime have a listen to Frankie Goes To Hollywood singing “Relax (Don’t do it)”, I don’t think I ever really listened to the words before, it’s about valley orgasms!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lyl5DlrsU90

Awareness Is Everything.

It’s time to return to the subject of sexual energy and tantra, and also to the fact that I don’t always keep my promises to myself, or at least not exactly as I intended to. I’m thinking of a post that I wrote on March 22 2013, called “Ride The Orgasmic Wave”, in that I said that I was going to make the time and space to experiment with energy orgasms, and that I would read “Tantric Orgasm for Women” by Diana Richardson and do all the exercises in it.

Well guess what, I haven’t done either of those things, life has been like a wild storm with the occasional lull, and it’s only now in this relatively calm space that I am coming back to this subject matter. I could get into a bit of self-flagellation, or I could recognise that the huge shifts and releases that have happened since I wrote that post have actually followed the intention that I set, just in a different form. Tantra is all about the flow and release of energy and I have been doing that big time!

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I remember having a conversation about sexual energy a while ago and talking about how I was freeing up my sexual energy and how you don’t need a partner to do that. It was immediately apparent that the automatic assumption of my friend was that I was talking about masturbation, now that can certainly be a part of the process, but I was thinking more about my release of old patterns, thereby making room for more of my life force energy to flow through my being.

I’ve had another bug in my system the last few days which was making me feel low in energy, a big boost to my immune system yesterday and a great yoga class this morning has me feeling like a million dollars. I can feel the life force energy surging through me and my enthusiasm is bubbling over, that brings an aliveness to my entire body and especially to my breasts, which is the positive pole in women. If you are having sex without awareness of the more subtle interplay of masculine and feminine energies, then you may actually find that you are less energised afterwards.

At the end of the day it is the awareness that you bring to everything that you do that makes the difference to your enjoyment of life. Don’t be a sleep-walker, pay attention and be awed by the beautiful and precious nature of life on this planet!

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With great reverence and love and a healthy dash of playfulness!

If you are looking for more information on sacred sexuality I can highly recomend Mukee Okan, here’s her web site:

http://www.spiritfireproductions.com/bio.htm

To The Depths!

A sense of lassitude, bed is a good idea but oh how much nicer to flow with the energy and enjoy the feeling of being nurtured and  of self-worth that is moving through the cells of my body. The intelligence and heart of Leonard Cohen singing incisive and profound words, so very like real life told with such sensitivity and warmth. I am somewhat disenchanted with ego at the moment, it can be charming and fun but do you really want that kind of energy around too often, aren’t we supposed to surround ourselves with the kinds of people who reflect back to us our unlimited self. A control freak who cannot let go, struggles with spontaneity, is only amusing up to a point, however “conscious” the language or terminology you are always going to be swimming in shallow waters.

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I want to sink to the depths with all the wonders there to behold, to dance in and out of unity awareness, tantric sensibility, sensitivity to the whole picture, falling into old patterns to activate and to release……….letting go in love. Dreaming up the vision of connection to a beloved as a part of spiritual practice, where your relationship brings you closer to the Divine, why be there otherwise. Having that energy upon land that resonates with my being, that speaks to me in a tongue that nourishes and supports me as only the Mother can do, oh Durga, may I receive that which will bring me closer to you.

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Continuing to keep a shimmering barrier around me at all times, it allows in only that which is of a high vibration and which will serve the highest good of me and of all life everywhere, that which is of a low vibration and which will not serve me may not enter. At night I add a mirrored surface to the outside of the bubble, anything that will not serve me is reflected back to whence it came. I’ve never had to be this disciplined before but it feels necessary to do so at this time, I am hearing a lot about people feeling the need for protection from various types of unseen forces, or of those who are overshadowed by entities or dark energies. I think things are hotting up, if you are a sensitive it could get particularly interesting, and if you think of it as an adventure it has the potential to be a lot of fun!

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Here is a beautiful video clip of one of my favourite Leonard Cohen songs, Dance me to the end of love:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGorjBVag0I&list=PL3145B4789B3C8243&index=5

Sex Matters.

From joy and bursting life to an emptiness that is full of pain, as old beliefs fall away the light will always show us what we no longer need, and the letting go can feel like a loss too great to be borne. That void is the place of destruction and of creation, it can drive us to the manifestation of our brightest dreams, or our worst nightmares. It’s important not to try to fill it with anything at all, sit with it and feel the feelings, notice the thoughts and bodily sensations.

What I really would like to do is try out the energy masturbation that Nathan Martin demonstrated and perhaps I will before bed time. Feels like I will need a good bit of time available to do the full energy orgasm including setting the scene by creating a beautiful sacred space. The other practice seems like something I can do here and there as I have bits of time, and is a good way to prepare for the full body orgasm.

Orgasms, sex, anyone would think I was trying to sell something! But isn’t it a subject that most people are thinking about most of the time? Especially because we aren’t allowed to flow and be our natural sexual selves, people who are sexually liberated can think for themselves and we can’t have that can we! So if I’m going to truly come into my power (no pun intended!), then I have to keep focusing on sexual energy, keep shedding the armour that has kept me separate from that vital force.

“Osho Speaks on Sex:

There are methods that can start the energy moving upwards, and in the East, for at least ten thousand years, there has developed a special science, Tantra. There is no parallel in the West of such a science. For ten thousand years people have experimented with how sexual energy can become your spirituality, how your sexuality can become your spirituality. It is proved beyond doubt-thousands of people have gone through the transformation. Tantra seems to be the science that is, sooner or later, going to be accepted in the whole world, because people are suffering from all kinds of perversions. That’s why they go on talking about sex as if that is my work, as if twenty-four hours a day I am talking about sex. Their repressed sexuality is the problem. My whole effort has been how to make your sex a natural, accepted phenomenon, so there is no repression-and then you don’t need any pornography, so that there is no repression-and then you don’t dream of sex. Then the energy can be transformed.”

Sex Matters: From Sex to Superconsciousness, (Osho), in Tantric Orgasm for Women, ( Diana Richardson), Destiny Books, 2004, p 5 & 6.

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Ride The Orgasmic Wave!

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I’m trying to let go of it, but I’m just the slightest bit embarrassed by one of my recent posts, when I expressed frustration about having all this life force energy flowing like a torrent, and where is my Beloved! That was what you might term an authentic moment in my emotional landscape, it’s a country that is always shifting and changing, and I know perfectly well that there are many ways to channel that powerful energy. I’m beginning to do just that as I read “Tantric Orgasm for Women” by Diana Richardson for the third time, and this time I am actually going to do the exercises in the book!

Focusing on externals never really works, whether it’s people or places or possessions, at the end of the day it’s how you respond to all of that which determines everything. So I need to really feel what is going on in my body, and work constructively with the strong energies that are moving through. I’ve only ever done it in workshops, but there’s a very satisfying way to channel those energies through the chakras and produce an energetic orgasm. Believe me it’s not some pale substitute, it’s truly orgasmic and takes you into that space of unity and love, where all the world is beautiful and every breath a song.

When my crazy week is over I intend to make the time to create this experience for myself, it’s always harder to do these things on your own but my motivation is pretty strong at the moment so I think I can do it! Time to love myself in the deepest way possible and ride the wave of love into my glorious NOW!

Check out this clip from Nathan Martin talking about energy masturbation, there is an opportunity to go on to another clip that shows Nathan working with a woman’s energy so that she experiences an energetic orgasm. I encourage you to watch it even if you feel a bit uncomfortable, I could feel my resistance as I watched but I stayed with it and surrendered to the feelings of pleasure in my body just from seeing someone else go there.

ENJOY sensual blissings!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_IMCN6Sq-uA