I said to my Beloved that I felt we would experience a big shift after our commitment ceremony and that things would begin to flow more easily. Since that special weekend the energy has certainly been flowing, as I write this now it feels a bit like a dam bursting and I can feel a part of me that wants to go into stress mode. The money flow has picked up and I am busy, busy, but it is all in the moment so the climate of shifting sands that many of us seem to be swimming in is still operating as far as I can tell. So in order to be peaceful and not get all stressy I need to keep surrendering to the flow and trust that prosperity will continue to flow wherever it comes from.
Put yourself out there and follow the wisdom of your heart and spirit will give you whatever you need to make those dreams a reality. I don’t know if it ever becomes easier but I do know that the more that I trust and get good results the more I believe that I am taken care of by something much larger than my small ego self. As Terence McKenna says:
Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering it’s a feather bed.”
Emptiness can be very full, a blank canvas stretching out within the core of the soul’s journey that can seem terribly bleak if your view of the world tells you that you must always ‘know’ and understand every little thing. But if you are prepared to be a child again and get excited about the unknown then that clear space of nothing is full of raw potential that is simply waiting for your focus to become something wonderful!
I have been feeling a bit anxious about various aspects of my life even as I revel in my deeply satisfying relationship, old habits die hard they say and the mind tends to go looking for justification for its sometimes rather strange notions. I sat in a medicine circle not so long ago and one of the messages coming through loud and clear was that I am living an amazing and ecstatic life right here and now.
And it isn’t hard to see life that way if I am prepared to truly go out on a limb and ignore all the messages from the everyday world that say you have to be in a regular job and fit in to society’s way of thinking. I don’t work nine to five and instead of renting or living in my own home I do house sitting, it means I can live in places that my current income would never be able to support. In the modern world status is gathered by the material things we accumulate, if you were to judge me by those standards then you’d have to say that I am an utter, utter failure.
Luckily I don’t see it that way, and when my mind encounters early programming that tells me I’m not good enough it doesn’t take too long to realise what’s going on. So much of what we’ve been told about the world is based on narrow views of reality that leave out all the best bits, like spirituality and love, community and compassion. Time to do what Terence McKenna recommends and to “tell society to fuck off!”
Navigating different realities, my Beloved is studying transpersonal counselling and he has been talking about mapping the various states of consciousness that we move through in the course of a day. I’ve always been fascinated by altered states, it was that aspect of Formula One that appealed to me when I followed the sport rather intensely for about seven years. Seem strange? Not really when you think about it, there is no way someone could take a corner at the impossibly high speeds that they do in an everyday state of consciousness.
There are as many ways of attaining various states as there are people, some of the best known would be meditation, yoga, vision quest, dance and drumming……the list goes on and on. And there have been people using the medicine of the plant kingdom to facilitate journeys for as long as we are aware of, a blink in the cosmic eye but for human perception long enough! Ayahuasca is a better known plant medicine that has been part of the traditions of people in the Amazon, it is a spiritual practice that they shared with the world and it is reported to help immensely with spiritual development.
Moving my body in the dance has been an important way of shifting realities for me, you allow your whole body to become the music so that it is playing through you. This takes you into the perspective of your larger self, the one who is conscious of the interconnectedness of all things, that can see the interplay of energies as life goes on. Toning also has been a wonderful way of going into the space of unified consciousness, sound is incredibly powerful and has often been a part of various therapies I have experienced.
So find a method that appeals to you, with so much choice you are sure to find something that helps you to open to the divine within your self, and therefore everything that you are connected to, which is everything! If that statement is a bit of a mystery to you then it’s probably time to dive on in, your larger self may have drawn you to read these words for a reason.
Do you know why? Would it be intriguing to find out? Time for an adventure in the inner realms!