The lesson this week has been all about listening to my body, not necessarily in words but more often in feelings, the felt sense. It can have emotion attached to it but it is what is described as the kinesthetic sense and it is my primary way of receiving information about my world. Because we exist in a culture that tries to describe everything in a so-called rational way the interpretation can be challenging.
So I try to stay with how I am feeling in each moment rather than on creating stories. With an itchy rash and then an intensely painful left shoulder I’ve had to surrender to the feelings and sit with them. My body made it impossible for my week to unfold in the way I had planned and there were things I had to let go of. Somehow I have managed to balance it all and I find myself in a place where all is done and only a gentle ache in my shoulder. I’ve been kind to me even as I practice responsibility, the ability to respond to life’s shifting sands. And in my definition that means a response that is good for me and all life everywhere.
Can I tell you what it’s all been about? Not really, except that really huge energies have been moving through me to be cleared which is very exciting but can sometimes be a tad uncomfortable. It is so worth hanging on and staying with that discomfort, as you clear the old patterns more light can come in and you can see the larger you much more clearly than ever before. More light to share with the world but in particular my Beloved who is away from my side until tonight, three days and nights, oh how I do pine…….. But I also get things done, keeping the balance as best I can in each moment………..
Energy on the move!
Don’t forget to LOVE everyone, even the ones you don’t like very much!
My Beloved weighs fifteen kilos less than I do, a skinny little runt who must have hollow legs because he certainly doesn’t eat any less! To my fond eyes he is the perfect size but there is a part of me that can’t help feeling a bit envious at his ability to eat everything in sight without seeming consequence. Of course the trick is always to find the best diet for your particular body type and if there are two of you then a certain amount of compromise is probably required.
It’s the age-old question for those of us women who don’t quite fit the ideal laid out in the current cultural archetypes, is it about health or how you think you should look? Health has been the paramount question for me but lately indulgence has been a bit of a byword and that can definitely go too far at times. The thing is when you improve your diet you do become more sensitive, no matter how often I notice this in my response to food I still seem to need reminders.
At the end of the day I want to be happy more than anything else, pretty much the way I am right now except that I’ve noticed it keeps getting better. That’s all pleasure by the way, our capacity for opening to this kind of energy I do believe is infinite. Follow your bliss sounds shallow but it can actually be fairly deep, and if you truly relax and surrender you can go beyond whatever ‘stuff’ you may have picked up along the way. RELAX and enjoy the journey, the one thing you can be sure of is change so try and get comfortable in the flow of life. RESPONSIBILITY is being able to respond to the shifts and changes that inevitably are a part of following our flow, it can be FUN too!
So I think I will be fairly relaxed with my food, just watch the sugar thing and try to have a few green smoothies every week. Relaxation is a bit underrated as a quality but I think it is the key to so many of the ways in which to move into new ways of being in the world. So I will continue to spend lots of time with my Beloved, that’s always relaxing whatever we’re doing! And we are going to the joining gathering very soon to present our first workshop together, very exciting!
Remember to have fun!