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Bug Wars.

Once again I find myself dancing with the bug that keeps coming back to haunt me, if things really do come in threes lets hope that this is the last time! I’m feeling much better since my counselling session last week and doing my best to take care of myself while still doing the things that need to be done. I’ve been working on my writing project as well as reading “The Art of Non-Conformity” and inspiration is flowing, although as I sit here writing this post there are butterflies dancing wildly in my belly.

dancing with butterflies

I didn’t wake up with this feeling and am not sure what triggered it, but at the end of the day it doesn’t really matter what it was. I could say it was a thought that obviously didn’t serve me but that wouldn’t actually be accurate, whatever is moving in me needs to move on, and the trigger is a necessary part of the clearing process, so I bless and honour it. But I don’t enjoy the feeling at all, in my days of unconsciousness this is what would drive me to try to blot everything out by getting stoned or drunk.

Now I sit with the feelings and breathe, bringing the notion of devotion into the equation, devotion to my healing process, to the sharing in this blog, devotion to all the special people in my community, and one in particular who is having a birthday today. As I do this the energy in my belly moves out into my arms and legs, and then starts radiating out into the aether as if I have become a small sun. I begin to breathe in and out of my heart and what was a kind of anxiety has transformed into excitement and anticipation. Now I’m feeling a bit light-headed and there is a sense in my body almost as if I could start to levitate!

Wow, what an interesting and quite spontaneous shift! The imagination is a marvelous gift and if you allow it free rein it can take you anywhere you need to go, a good reminder for me as I continue with my writing project and the development of this blog.  And my sense is that if I can balance self-care with doing the things I am passionate about I will win the battle of the bug, so be warned denizens of the micro world, this gal is no push over, her immunity is strong!

cartoon-bug

Balance is the theme here as we are heading towards a New Moon in Libra next saturday, but more on that subject later, for now farewell dear friends, good health to you all!

PS: When I finish this post I am going to go for a brisk walk, excited energy is needing to be channelled, transformation of anxious energy motivating even more self-care!

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Coming Back.

From expansion to contraction, waking to a day where I don’t have to do anything, and then feeling like I am not being very effective in anything that I’m doing. Uneasy belly wants me to go back to bed and stay there, but I force myself to get on the lap top and begin the process of looking for a subject for this post. The subject ends up being how I can’t seem to settle on anything today, not exactly something that is going to set the world on fire.

I have a look at “The Art of Non-Conformity” and even that is not rocking my boat, I guess I could try going back to “Tantric Orgasm for Women” but I suspect even that won’t lift me as it usually does. Then I hear Kookaburra calling and I am reminded that laughter is a wonderful medicine to lift the spirits, even listening to the sound and my belly quiets down a bit. I’ve been noticing the sound of the kookaburra quite a lot lately, could it be that I need to lighten up a bit?

kookaburra

It’s easy to fall into the trap of taking life too seriously, especially when you are coming out of expanded states back into consensual reality, just acknowledging the fact begins to reduce the stress. Then I take a few deep breaths and I begin to tune in to the stillness that is always waiting within, the cicadas outside begin to sound and my belly softens as I let go of tension. And in that still space I begin to realise that my fears and doubts have been stirred up in the sacred space over the weekend, this is the discomfort that I need to sit with and it’s ok to be feeling like that.

Thank the Goddess!

Here is an intepretation of the meaning of the Kookaburra: http://solacetemple.wordpress.com/2007/11/10/kookaburra-a-spirit-bird/

Spring Fever.

So we have passed through the Spring Equinox and birthed into the energy of new growth and blossoms, it is a strong current this year of 2013, we are poised upon the edge of change. Just not sure how many years that edge represents, but certainly in my life time, and I expect to be around for the next 70 years or so.

blossoms

So what to do with that burst of growth, I will keep listening to the land for what I need to do in the way of ceremony, on the earth. My new-found staff held the feminine energy in the fire circle for the Equinox, initiated into the land and creating a connection with the land from which it was birthed, strengthening the song line and holding space for healing and anchoring. I am beginning to get a sense of how to begin to decorate the staff, I think it may come one step at a time but I will begin to look out for the right crystals.

But the answer to my question? Why do absolutely whatever it is that you really, really want to do, live your dream as you step into your fullness. Don’t feel like you have to do things the way they’ve always been done, mmmm……reminds me of “The Art of Non-Conformity”, another book to read, what a lot of yummy resources there are out there for our delectation. As you can probably tell I am in a juicy space after a beautiful Equinox, I’ve dropped some of my niggling doubts about my knowing, as well as surrendered to the fact that maybe it’s ok to have doubts and to simply sit with the discomfort.

But more than anything, to be true to self, to love self as deeply and profoundly as you can, I have a friend who always says, “Love Self, Do Next Thing”. I think this sums up how I need to navigate through the next little while, being that present requires a huge faith, a faith that keeps getting fanned higher so I never fall out of it for long. The biggest part of that process is having the encouragement of a hearted and beautiful community for whatever it is that I might want to explore, in public or in private.

girlfriends

Because you know I don’t tell you absolutely everything, a girl has to have some privacy! Only my good girlfriends get that privilege, do you have someone you could tell anything to who really ‘gets you’? If the answer is no then please think about how you could create that in your life, it is such an amazing support even as life challenges us.

We couldn’t get by without a little help from our friends, that’s what Joe Cocker reckons: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gKnkOTTwitw

The Writer, That’s Me!

Stepping out of the box, that’s the invitation, I don’t seem to have the time to read “The Art of non-conformity” so maybe I just have to do what my intuition is telling me to. To put myself out there with self-confidence, authenticity, passion, and be ready to receive the potential that flows back to me even if it comes in forms that are unexpected. I made an important shift a couple of days ago, I noticed that when I thought about my writing there was passion and excitement there, but there was also the idea that it took a lot of time and didn’t support me financially. That’s hardly thinking of successful outcomes, there certainly isn’t faith in my vision when I am in the energetic field created by that thought.

radiating brain

So I’ve started describing the time I spend on my writing as work, “I have to go home and work tonight” I said to the girl at the cash register and she looked intensely curious as she asked me what I was working at. I told her I was a writer and it felt good to say it and be witnessed, and I did go home and work on how I was going to get myself out there, as well as write an inspired blog post. Just telling you about it here feels like yet another stage of being witnessed, I can feel my ego getting frightened as I strip away even more of what you are ‘supposed’ to do, and do my best to surrender to what I ‘know’.

watergoddess

Even when knowing, and lived experience don’t seem to be saying the same thing, breathe and surrender, let the larger self be the guide on a journey of opening hearts and letting go………. There are times when we need to allow ourselves to be led by intuition in its purest form, without question, to be in that place truly is why it’s so important to let go of everything that obscures that clear view.

And Animal totems along the way can be our allies on the journey, but that’s another post, until I speak to you again, love and blissings……………

The Art Of Non-Conformity.

Don’t you just love it when you are sooooo in the flow that the right person comes along in the perfect moment and gives you the exact piece of information that you never knew you needed until that little shift occurred. It happened to me in a pause from the wild medicine dance that was powered by Balkan grooves in my local community hall. The jigsaw piece was something known as “The Art of Non-Conf0rmity”, and it is giving me heaps of inspiration just from looking at the web site and some blog posts. will buy the book next.

artofnon-conformity

I need to re-invent myself and there actually is quite a bit to work with, just have to decide which bits I want to keep and if there is anything left that still has to go. You wouldn’t expect so with all the shedding I’ve been doing, but one thing this journey has taught me is that there always seems to be more! So what do I love doing that I would be doing anyway so why not get paid for it too, that’s writing of course, but don’t worry I’m not going to ever charge YOU for reading my blog. I’m immensely grateful for those who follow my meanderings, hope you can all stay on for the big part of the journey!

If you would like to check out “The Art of Non-Conformity” by Chris Guillebeau his web-site is http://chrisguillebeau.com/. I am looking forward to having a look at his book, he has a very inspiring way of presenting information and I need the encouragement to get my thinking out of the box. As Einstein said:

We  cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created  them.
Albert  Einstein
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/authors/a/albert_einstein.html#O5CpQYPdcbUq7lVM.99

“And until further notice, celebrate everything!” St. Germain.