Well I guess the aversion to technology is still very much with me, seeing as I didn’t manage a post last week at all! Plus there has been rather a lot going on in the inner realms, and yes for those who have been following me for any length of time you are rolling your eyes and saying, tell me something I don’t know. Well I do have something new to tell you and it is stirring things up although not quite as much as it might have before my Vipassana experience. Just as my Beloved and I have become settled and happy in our funky little flat we got the news a week ago now that we have to move out. Not because of any problems with our tenancy, our wonderful landlords need the space back and are very sorry to see us go.
The wonderful new kitchen I was so excited about!
So once again we need to create a miracle and find a place where we can have our privacy at an exceptionally cheap rate. Our little flat has also been serving as a space where we can see clients so that is also something that we need to organise and all of this at bargain basement prices. If I was feeling a little anxious I think that most people would consider me completely normal. Well there has of course been some anxiety kicking around but not as much as you might think, I am still in the space of not being reactive which was such an enormous gift from my silent retreat. We took a couple of days to process the news and then began to put the word out into the community for a new place to call home.
There are various practical things one can do out in the world when seeking to create a new beginning, but just as important is the work you can do inside yourself. Yesterday my Beloved and I did some toning together, this is where you intone the vowel sounds and create harmonics that you can feel go right through you. We were toning away when we began to go into a very deep pitch with the sounds, I became aware as we were doing this that our sounds were grounding our new home into place. This is how we can use more of our human potential, by exploring all the different ways to access the incredible treasures that every single person on the planet has inside of them. These kinds of creative processes are powerful in a very practical sense. Not only can they help to create the future you desire but in the short-term it can dissipate feelings of anxiety and fear.
So here’s to the new abode that will house the inspiring presence of “The Love Bubble Presents”! Letting go of fear and embracing trust I move into the flow of a meaningful and prosperous life, aho!
Navigating different realities, my Beloved is studying transpersonal counselling and he has been talking about mapping the various states of consciousness that we move through in the course of a day. I’ve always been fascinated by altered states, it was that aspect of Formula One that appealed to me when I followed the sport rather intensely for about seven years. Seem strange? Not really when you think about it, there is no way someone could take a corner at the impossibly high speeds that they do in an everyday state of consciousness.
There are as many ways of attaining various states as there are people, some of the best known would be meditation, yoga, vision quest, dance and drumming……the list goes on and on. And there have been people using the medicine of the plant kingdom to facilitate journeys for as long as we are aware of, a blink in the cosmic eye but for human perception long enough! Ayahuasca is a better known plant medicine that has been part of the traditions of people in the Amazon, it is a spiritual practice that they shared with the world and it is reported to help immensely with spiritual development.
Moving my body in the dance has been an important way of shifting realities for me, you allow your whole body to become the music so that it is playing through you. This takes you into the perspective of your larger self, the one who is conscious of the interconnectedness of all things, that can see the interplay of energies as life goes on. Toning also has been a wonderful way of going into the space of unified consciousness, sound is incredibly powerful and has often been a part of various therapies I have experienced.
So find a method that appeals to you, with so much choice you are sure to find something that helps you to open to the divine within your self, and therefore everything that you are connected to, which is everything! If that statement is a bit of a mystery to you then it’s probably time to dive on in, your larger self may have drawn you to read these words for a reason.
Do you know why? Would it be intriguing to find out? Time for an adventure in the inner realms!
There can be no better start to such a journey as the experience of listening to Terence McKenna, plus some amazing images, enjoy! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rufFWxvZ0U
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As I sit here I would love to say that my burning issue has passed as I move beyond the big party and public acknowledgement of becoming 50 years old. There is some relief involved but the deep letting go that has been going on for the last three months continues so I am keeping on with the colloidal silver. But I am sure that being present with my feelings is the best way to heal all of this, on my own and with my Beloved. I do try not to ignore the physical but surely any condition present in the body has an energetic source, which if treated, will dissolve the physical symptoms.
Very soon I will be in a new house sit and there will be time and space for my Beloved and I to bring a strong intention to our loving, for the healing to flow and energy be made available to heal the disharmonious frequency. And perhaps some reiki and massage or toning perhaps, a dance or a breath session even and a bit of random yoga, the possibilities contained within the quantum soup are bottomless. I am determined to heal myself, my intuition says stay away from doctors so if I do feel that professional help would be useful I will be going to see a friend who is alternative and who I trust.
In the meantime I am sitting with this and doing my best to allow the energies to keep moving through me, I’m doing a lot of farting and it isn’t because of lentils this time! Feels like it is a part of what is moving through, very visceral, torture, blood, sweat and tears…………….not surprising that it doesn’t feel very comfortable as it is moving out after a long stay.
Farewell dark energies, go back into the field and be transformed as I let go of my fear and step into the light of my own magnificence! Hooray!!!!!
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I stopped having much to do with the world of television, magazines and celebrity watching thirteen years ago, it wasn’t a conscious decision, I just became absorbed in doing other things. I was practicing yoga for an hour every day, going for long walks and sitting on the river bank and toning across the water. Around me there was a deepening shadow that was my lovely flat mate being sucked back into a drug fueled space that was changing her personality and causing me to retreat into the inner temple that I was creating inside of myself.
Sounds like a bad situation but when I look back upon it I remember how strong and alive I was feeling, when a particularly nasty character moved in I responded by becoming even more full of light. There was a poem that I used to keep the darkness at bay, my first experience of the power of intention, it kept me from taking on any of the dark energy that was all around me.
In a world that seems totally insane at times, it is so important to create your own space of peace and harmony, somewhere you can go to re-charge and regenerate your spirit and soul. I found this so much easier to do when I opted out of popular culture, you have more time to find your stillness and to notice what is going on inside your own mind. Over time as I delved deeper and deeper into myself I found the inner movie show a lot more interesting than anything I had ever watched on television.
So I couldn’t agree more with these inspiring words from Terence McKenna:
“You want to reclaim your mind and get it out of the hands of the cultural engineers who want to turn you into a half-baked moron consuming all this trash that’s being manufactured out of the bones of a dying world.”
Time to wake up!
As I write this for tomorrow night I am having to breathe into the deep nausea that lies in my belly, it does seem to help but the sickness comes and goes in waves. Yes, you guessed it, more illness rolling in as I continue to push the envelope, this time it’s a gastro attack and believe me you don’t want to know the details. I probably shouldn’t be even writing this post but I can be extremely stubborn about things I really want to do so here it goes.
I have started to use some of the techniques in the course I am doing and I thought I would start by asking the question, how can I make money as a writer and see what messages spirit sends me. If there has been an answer I haven’t seen it but I’ve been so busy my focus isn’t always as sharp as it could be, what I do think has occurred is that some deep part of me is very shaken up by what I am attempting and this sickness is trying to stop me.
The day that all this is happening is very interesting too, it’s the first day of November, All Hallows Day, also known as the Day of the Dead. I had planned on doing a ritual with my staff but all I could do in the end was lie in bed and try to sleep, hoping the nausea would go away. It is a day to honour the ancestors but some believe that there are also evil spirits around and that one should stay indoors, which is what I ended up doing. It’s a significant day for me because of an experience I had five years ago in the Blue Mountains, it is quite a story and I told it in four parts beginning with “The Birth Canal” on March 8 2013 if you missed it and would like to check it out.
A Gathering of Evil Spirits.
But the only obstruction around at the moment is me, it might be nice to project on to evil spirits as being responsible but it won’t help me get what I want. So I will finish this post and get myself to bed, programming myself to wake up in good health with lots of energy to prepare for my toning circle. This time we are working with the energies of the New Moon in Scorpio plus there is a solar eclipse, Scorpio is deeply transformative and the eclipse helps us to see where we are resistant to change. So that probably also makes sense in the light of what is happening in this moment, but more on all of this in another post, time for me to prepare for my rest.
Love and transformational blissings to you all!
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Blissful blessings have been well and truly showered upon me by Aphrodite today, I have spent the weekend embodying her energy and she has been most generous in her response. I had the best day at market that I’ve ever had, possibly something to do with the shoes that I wore, high heels that would have made the Goddess proud! If Aphrodite turned up in modern dress I am quite sure she would be wearing heels, that was my excuse anyway when I welcomed people to my toning circle yesterday.
These are the heels, an op shop bargain the Goddess would applaud!
It was the New Moon in Libra and so was all about harmony in relationship, balancing of the emotions, and appreciation of beauty, which is where Aphrodite comes into the picture. We explored her lush garden in a meditation and if you missed it and want a sense of it then have a look at my last post, possibly a bit over the top but we are talking about a Goddess so you can’t really go too far with superlatives.
The energy in our circle was very gentle and caring, the word that came up for me very strongly is tenderness with the emphasis very much on self-love. It somehow seems easier to be kind to others, when it comes to ourselves the inner critic often takes over and drowns out that other much gentler voice. And be kind to the critic too, they are trying to help even if they are misguided, acknowledge that sincerity even as you let them go.
Be as gentle with yourself as you would with this kitten.
It always does come back to love doesn’t it, it’s the stuff of which everything is made, it makes not only the world but the entire cosmos go round………and round and round and round. So if you are in the habit of self-flagellation then consider the possibility of creating a practice to change it, every time you notice yourself going into judgement with yourself or another, let go of the judgement and replace it with love. If you can’t actually feel the love then pretend, the old cliché “Fake it until you make it” is very true as most clichés are.
More about loving practices in future posts, until then farewell, with love and sonic blissings!