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Ask For What You Want And Be Free!

in the warsIt’s been an interesting journey since I last posted, and yes quite a bit of it felt like that old Chinese curse/blessing, “May you live in interesting times.” My Beloved and I are inhabiting the in-between realm of transition from the life we have been living to something new that isn’t always completely clear. That of course is where trust comes in, one of the more challenging life lessons that spirit keeps tossing our way. The one on impermanence seems to be settling down somewhat even to the point that we are beginning to move away from our house sitting lifestyle. Not completely but we have a home base that feels very independent now so we will be very picky about where we go from now on.

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One of the big lessons from our last house sit was about being clear about what our needs are and giving them a high value. We ended up sharing our space because we let the needs of others be more important than our own. Of course there are times when it is appropriate to put someone else first but you need to be conscious about what you are doing and why. My Beloved needs regular solitude in order to be a happy and healthy human being but he had to bring this basic need into his awareness and then learn how to ask for it. Sounds simple doesn’t it but it has been a very challenging process for him. How easy do you find it to actually ask for what you want in life?

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It’s the old story, we might know what we want but the idea of asking for it brings up all sorts of uncomfortable feelings. My early conditioning was so thorough I often had trouble even knowing what it was that I wanted, especially when it came to my sexuality. There is such freedom in expressing your truth no matter what! I’ve said it before and I will say it again, beyond the discomfort is a whole new realm of possibility and transformation. Don’t accept the limitations that Western culture uses to keep its populations under control. Be the magnificent being that is hiding in the depths beneath all those shallow materialistic concerns.

Be the best that you can be and love yourself exactly as you are!

We Live In Exciting Times!

christmas house lightsSome of you may wonder where I have been lately, two Wednesdays have passed with no word from the vortex…………perhaps the words were sucked into the bright tinselly realms of Christmas time and New Year! It can be a challenging time of year for many but Yuletide stress is not something I can really claim, both my family gatherings were full of food, laughter and generally good cheer all round.

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No the truth is that I am experiencing a strong reluctance to spend any time at all in front of my computer. It’s a feeling in my body that gives no reason for this, a visceral response that completely bypasses the so-called reasoning brain. At the same time I feel strongly called to continue writing posts, feels like I am being pulled in two directions. So with the madness of the festive season I  completely lost the plot and disappeared into the vortex of flashing lights and festive celebrations.

So am I back I hear you ask? The answer to that question is still under exploration as I attempt to navigate my way in what feels like a whole new chapter of my existence. I keep getting the sense of being on the brink of something huge and exciting, for myself but also for the larger community. These are end times that we are living in and there is a grand opportunity to create new stories for the new humanity that is being birthed at this time.

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The trick is to be in the flow of energy and to be able to respond to the sudden changes that are a feature of this huge transition that humanity is attempting to go through. My mobile life as a house sitter is a wonderful preparation for living moment to moment, trusting that there will always be somewhere for my Beloved and I to call home. Trusting that we can make our way in a world that often seems inimical to the deeper spiritual waters where we love to swim and play.

So I will do my best to meet the commitment of one post per week and we shall see where this new energy leads. As I sit here writing this I am looking out at green fields and a large brown cow that is scratching itself on a post. And yet I am in a suburban house about five minutes walk into the heart of town, another beautiful home that we are most privileged to be able to live in for a time. The phrase that comes to mind is that things can only get better, also the title of a dancy pop song by a band I’ve never heard of: D:Ream. You may want to put on your dancing shoes and take a spin as you listen to this one, enjoy!

 

The Howling Winds Of Winter.

Horses at the waterhole.It’s transition time for me again as my Beloved and I are coming to the end of our idyllic house sit in the bush, knowing that we will be gone soon sharpens my appreciation of the beauty we are surrounded by here. I will miss the wallabies and the birds and the horses, although I won’t miss having to feed them every morning at 8am! Once again I have another piece of the puzzle that is making up the picture of where I will eventually settle, being in the bush seems like an essential part of that.

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As I sit here writing the wind is howling outside and winter has finally closed her cold fist over the landscape, moving back into town into a brick house might not be such a bad idea after all! I spoke in my last post about the immediacy of nature that we experience here in Australia, the wind is practically yelling and it is a little bit unsettling to say the least. I have learned to like winter but at this moment I’m longing for that summer warmth to return, makes me a typical human being, always wanting what we don’t have.

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So it’s time to focus on what’s good about cold weather, sitting in front of a roaring fire and snuggling with my Beloved would probably head my list.Two hot water bottles in bed also used to be a winter essential but now I have a human hot water bottle, nothing like cuddling up with a fiery Leo to raise the temperature! Hearty soups with yummy gluten-free toast dripping with organic butter, woolen hats and gloves, and of course sexy long boots make the season much more fun. And finally simply surrendering to the fact that its bloody cold and there ain’t a damn thing I can do about it!

 

 

Opening To The Divine.

So what the hell is attraction anyway, a strong energy felt between two people that draws them together, unmet needs searching for a home where they can feel safe? Or could it be a sense of purpose, of having something important to do in the world with that other person. I would say all of the above and probably a whole lot more that I haven’t mentioned, possibly as many definitions as there are people, we are a complex lot! And of course without all that chemistry we wouldn’t keep having babies, so I guess it is something that is hard-wired into our DNA.

There have been a million songs written about attraction in all its various forms and love usually gets a mention, but do the two things automatically go together? Of course not! When they are both present there is a depth to the feelings that sheer physical magnetism can never really manage, however delicious it might seem in the moment. I am rediscovering the pleasures of attraction as I go through a big transition into my new life, but I have also felt the confusion that can come up. Since I began this particular journey there has been a lot of stuff coming up that harks from my teenage years when my sexuality was trying to flourish in the midst of confusion, despair, and eventually my father’s suicide.

Strong energies do tend to bring up stuff and if you aren’t conscious of the process it can be terribly easy to project what you’re feeling on to the other person. On the other hand, choose a conscious pathway as you relate to the world around you and you can become even clearer as you go along your merry way. That has been my experience over this last week, although the relationship that really stirred things up for me this week was not so much a person, it was Mother Earth.

Now that is a strong energy indeed, I lay on the earth and I merged into her until there was no longer any me, no longer any separation between me and anything else. The energy ripped through newly awakened energetic pathways and it was a wonderful opening, a kind of initiation. To be with the Mother is to experience love on an immense scale and that’s what I want in a relationship, to open to God, Goddess, All That Is…………….

My Relationship Altar.

My Relationship Altar.

So as I enjoy the dance of attraction I will remain mindful of my intention for any potential connection with a man, David Deida puts it very well indeed.

“Find a woman who you can open to God farther than she is opening herself. Find a woman who wants to join you in relationship in that commitment. Then practice together opening each other to God, to infinity. The relationship is a conscious choice, a commitment. It doesn’t just happen.”

From “The Love That Washes Through Patterns,” a talk by David Deida

Here’s a video from a talk by David Deida, love the bit where he talks about a woman wanting to be ravished open to God!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5IZrkMZyEWY

Balance Of Care.

A couple of posts ago I was raving on about how great I felt after evicting what seemed like another nasty bug, it seemed so unfair when I had only recently spent a week in bed, so unusual for me. At the same time that I was feeling that energy surge through my body I was also aware that I was riding a fine line, that kind of enthusiasm can spend your vigour and take you back to a place of ill-health. It’s something we’ve all done at one time or another, when you have been feeling low the return to full life can almost be a bit overwhelming.

So I was determined not to allow that to happen, with two overnight shifts in a row and a busy weekend to follow I needed to make sure that I took proper care of myself. So I made sure to lie down and at least have a doze before going to flamenco class, it was particularly vigorous but I enjoy it so much it ends up giving me as much energy as it takes. If you are going to fill your life with a lot of activities then it is essential for most if not all of it to fill you with joy, that kind of passion will take you a long way although it doesn’t change the message that spirit is sending me to slow down.

Alas the bug was not completely cleared, so I’ve been trying to do what needs to be done at the same time as taking care of myself . That means green smoothies and meditation, after a long session on the laptop I went and lay on the earth for a while feeling the loving support of Mother Earth. Connecting your bare skin with the earth on a regular basis is sooooo important, you can feel any stress draining out, it’s a bit like the earthing wire in electrical systems.

So here I sit still feeling the sickness in my body, looking forward to a medicine circle where I will hopefully be able to journey to a place of full health. Shedding whatever needs to go, embracing the wonderful new beginning that has opened up for me as I move through this transition, into my wondrous new life!

So be it, so be it, so be it…………

For more information on earthing have a look at this website, and if you are intrigued by the whole subject get researching, there is heaps of information out there: http://www.sarahwilson.com.au/2013/05/my-simple-home-earthing-mats/

A World In Transition.

My next toning circle is going to be on 31 August, so we will be marking the transition from winter into summer, feels like we are jumping into the heat early this year. There will no doubt be some spring like weather too, but for me it’s the summer time that is almost upon us, and time to reap the harvest for whatever we may have sown, over months, years………… I think there might be a big transition occurring on a cosmic level at the moment and it’s being reflected in the lives of many as we respond to that energetic environment. A lot of readings that I am doing certainly reflect the huge shift that is happening in the world, for each of us the actual circumstances may vary but the essence is the same.

The Dumbbell Nebula, also known as Messier 27, pumps out infrared light in this image from NASA's Spitzer Space Telescope.

The Dumbbell Nebula, also known as Messier 27, pumps out infrared light in this image from NASA’s Spitzer Space Telescope.

So the question is how to travel through the shifts and changes with ease and grace, and I guess the first part of that is the act of bringing awareness to whatever is happening in your life. This is where the observer comes in, stepping back and actually seeing what you are doing, the behaviours that are creating what’s going on. This can take practice but it does get easier over time, and once you can see with that kind of clarity there is a sense of liberation that comes with achieving a deeper knowledge and understanding of yourself.

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So when the changes stir things up for you bring that clarity of mind to the situation, and ask yourself what might help with moving the energy along and out of your organic system. Keep the energy in your body flowing as much as possible and you will manage smoother travelling on the roads of change, staying grounded in everyday practicalities can also be a huge help in remaining positive about your experiences. And sometimes there are pot holes on the road of your journey and you simply have to surrender to a bumpy ride for a time, just keep your safety belt on and know that it won’t last for ever.

Abundant Me.

The nights with this cold I’ve had were rather interesting, if not what I would describe as particularly pleasant. That’s when the cough would come and make it hard to sleep, I noticed though that after a really deep racking cough there was a sense of expansion and lightness in my chest that actually felt good. I was also aware of a strong vibration going on at a cellular level that indicated a lot of energetic movement, a big shift of some kind. I keep seeing the Tower from the tarot and the Death card, both of these archetypes indicate fundamental change occurring.

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I guess my trip to Sydney to sort out my stuff was even bigger than I realised, it closes a chapter in my life so there is a kind of death that is happening. In many ways I have been in transition for the last two and a half years even though my focus has been very much on where I have been living. Let’s face it, how often does an old chapter end neatly with the new one following on, there is almost always a bit of back and forthing that goes on.

Now I need to address any completions that need to be done with regards to the old path that is finishing, and probably the hardest part is letting go of the old outmoded ways of being that no longer serve me. The one that is coming up big time for me is abundance and being supported, with a better return on the energy I put out I will be able to do a better job of looking after myself. There are things I could do less of and be happy, but economic necessity is a factor that cannot be ignored and so I do what I have to. But I’m not prepared to compromise on things I know are important for me to do, even though they may not bring in income, and so we arrive at a schedule that becomes overwhelming at times.

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It’s a biggie but I do finally think that the time has come to properly address this issue, and my intuition has been telling me for the longest time that my writing is the key to this. We shall see what unfolds, I will be calling on all the resources I can find inner and outer to meet this particular challenge, wish me luck as I go!