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Pets For Vets: Unconditional Love Heals Emotional Pain.

Posted on August 28, 2014 | Leave a comment

Oops-smiley-faceBIG apologies for being one day late with my post!

I am not ashamed to admit that I cried when I watched the short video telling the story of a wounded man and the dog who saved him from his nightmares. This organisation, “Pets For Vets”, was set up by Clarissa Black who is an animal behaviorist and trainer. PTSD is a real problem not just for war veterans but for victims of crime as well. Women tend to develop the condition more easily than men and are more likely to be exposed to the kind of high impact traumatic event that can lead to PTSD.

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christenergyThe impact in the life of a conscious being of feeling disconnected from everyone can be devastating.  The need to belong is a fundamental part of being human, I suspect that when we move beyond being human the concept of belonging will simply be self-evident. And even while still in a body it is possible to move into that kind of inner space in a spiritual way, to be able to do it when in the grips of an illness such as PTSD would be pretty challenging. How much simpler to bring unconditional love and lots of touch and communication into the lives of those touched by intense traumas.

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How magic would it be to see this concept used in the treatment of other kinds of illness, there isn’t much that love and connection can’t do when it comes to healing the human body, mind and soul!

http://www.nextworldhealthtv.com/page/27087.html

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Transform The Darkness: From Sex To Superconsciousness.

Posted on February 5, 2014 | Leave a comment

LoveAs human beings on the planet we all have masculine and feminine energy within us, in the last post I talked about shakti  and how tuning in can open us to our natural orgasmic nature. This is available for everyone, men and women, my Beloved has been exploring his shakti and it is a fascinating journey for both of us. My issues have been very much with the masculine and I am learning to let go of the memories and to sometimes step into that energy which is beautiful when it is in right relation to everything else.

So much of what has been seen as a part of the devil is simply a culture gone completely out of whack, where sexuality is frowned upon  and even forbidden sometimes. Osho speaks about how the science of tantra has developed in the east and that your:

“sexual energy can become your spirituality……….. It is proved beyond doubt-thousands of people have gone through the transformation. Tantra seems to be the science that is, sooner or later, going to be accepted in the whole world, because people are suffering from all kinds of perversions…………repressed sexuality is the problem. My whole effort has been how to make your sex a natural, accepted phenomenon so there is no repression-and then you don’t need any pornography, so that there is no repression-and then you don’t dream of sex. Then the energy can be transformed.”

Osho, Sex Matters: From Sex To Superconsciousness, in Diana Richardson, Tantric Orgasm For Women.

Shiva and Shakti.

Shiva and Shakti.

I have been letting go of some energies that didn’t feel very nice as they moved through me, some is from this life and some from past lives, who knows maybe I am tuning in to the experience of women over the centuries. Perhaps as I transform this darkness I am doing not only myself a great service, but maybe the whole of existence. It certainly feels lighter for me on every level of my being as I learn that it doesn’t always have to be painful to be alive, the parts of me that were traumatised are beginning to smile. They feel safe now to be themselves and it will be interesting to see what grows out of this place.

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Healing The Past: Relationship As A Spiritual Practice.

Posted on January 15, 2014 | Leave a comment

Manifesting_your_dreams_and_desiresSo you want to create or manifest something in your life, there are lots of techniques out there but pretty much all of them talk about setting a strong intention in some way, shape or form. You do the meditation and in time you get what you asked for, sounds so simple doesn’t it, all you need is patience and persistence. See the outcome and let spirit take care of the details. Actually I do believe that this is how the universe works, I just think that there is a bit more complexity in the whole process and sometimes very good reasons why things don’t happen exactly as you may have seen it.

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Firstly we are human and often limited when it comes to seeing the bigger picture of life, the universe and everything. So what it is you think that you want may not be so important in the larger scheme of things, spirit often has other ideas on what is important and is seeing with a cosmic, timeless perspective that can be challenging to access when occupying a physical body. Secondly there may be inner obstacles that will actively try to stop you achieving certain goals, early conditioning and traumas that are held in the energetic imprint of our beings.

If you’ve been reading my posts you will know that I have been doing meditations where I’ve been using tools of visualisation to create and manifest my future. Ok, so I’ve been a bit distracted by being madly in love, but I have been doing them at least once a week which is supposed to be sufficient. None the less I have let go of part of that vision as I realised that there are more important things to be focusing on. You could say that I failed in my efforts but I don’t think so, there’s been radical change in my life since I began doing this particular work and my priorities have changed dramatically.

Not through these meditations so much although they certainly have their place in a process that has been going on for the last two years and I think they are good value. I never do just one thing when it comes to spiritual development and all the different methods I have used in that time have played their part in bringing me to a place where I was able to finally receive love in the kind of relationship I always dreamed about.

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I will continue to do a variety of practices no doubt and the alpha meditations will probably still feature in my spiritual landscape. But my main practice for now is relationship as a spiritual practice and it is the most powerful healing force that I have ever experienced. It’s also a practice that is easy to do often and with great gusto, this is one example where it is absolutely ok and in fact quite necessary to fall in love with your therapist!

Ain’t love grand!

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Fragments Of Self.

Posted on July 14, 2013 | Leave a comment

                     The shaman begins to drum and dance calling the power of the universe to her as she puts her egoic self aside and becomes an empty vessel that fills with the help of the spirits.
            The client lies quietly in the center breathing deeply to be in a receptive state to receive back his lost soul; his lost vitality.
            The shaman sings her journey out loud as she tracks down where the soul has fled. And on finding it returns and blows it deeply into the heart of the client filling the entire body with the light of life.
            There is a great joy for all as one heals all are healed. The community is now whole again and can be in peace and harmony.

Sandra Ingerman: Soul Retrieval: http://www.sandraingerman.com/soulretrieval.html

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One of the ways that we deal with trauma in our lives is to leave our bodies, so as not to feel the full impact of the crisis, it’s a survival mechanism that actually works quite well if there’s an understanding of what’s going on. Parts of our soul may leave altogether in that moment, but this is a concept that is not understood or accepted in our current western culture. So instead of doing the healing straight away we end up losing more and more of who we are, the world gradually becomes a duller place and most of the time we don’t even realise that it’s happening.

After years of healing trauma after trauma I began to experience a much sharper appreciation of the world around me, colours, sights, sounds and smells are more vivid than they used to be. It’s like I am returning to the perception of being a child, but bringing to that the knowledge and understanding that I have developed as I’ve moved along my healing path. Whenever one individual becomes more whole, the entire community benefits and this is something that is well understood in indigenous cultures that view the world from a shamanic perspective.

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We are all interconnected on so many levels, without a recognition of this basic fact of existence, the current civilisation is likely to become a part of this latest process of extinction that is occurring on the planet at this time. We do need to change and I tend to be the eternal optimist on this subject, if I can create huge fundamental change in myself and my life, then so can everyone else!

Bring it on!

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Tapping Into Bliss.

Posted on June 25, 2013 | Leave a comment

The butterflys are fluttering in my belly again, and yet I am pretty content in this moment, sitting here with my laptop, with a view of trees out the window and the cat snuggled up against my foot having a wash. I wonder sometimes if there will ever be a time when I don’t get stuff coming up, it’s hard to imagine what that would be like, probably not what being here on earth is all about anyway. I ran into a friend in the street yesterday and we agreed that while it was uncomfortable at times, that we are here to be in school, and this is one of the most common lesson formats.

I met someone who was very clear about ten years ago, Grant Mcfetridge of the Peak States Institute, and he said that he still got triggered sometimes, but he would then clear it in a few minutes. Grant’s work is very interesting, he theorises that specific traumas in our developmental process block particular peak states of consciousness. He says that these states are our birthright and I tend to agree with him. He also recommends other therapies such as EFT, or emotional freedom technique, where you are focusing on what you want to shift as you tap certain points along the meridians. Grant’s web site is: http://www.peakstates.com/

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I just paused to do some tapping on the feelings in my belly and while they are not completely gone, they are greatly diminished. If I keep tapping it will probably go completely but I’m not sure if I have time, oh what the hell, I will pause again and keep going! ……………. So I did and now it feels like a little ball of ecstasy, this is such a simple technique and so effective! To check out more about tapping here is Gary Craig’s web site, the founder of this therapy: http://www.emofree.com/  Lots of other people offer tapping as well, I would recommend going towards whoever your intuition guides you to.

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Life Is The Practice.

Posted on June 1, 2013 | 2 comments

‘Aint life grand! Feeling like being in love with the whole of existence, my vibration is moving up and up, only incredibly beneficial things are attracted to this juicy vibe. And it’s not attached to somebody’s face, their being, their history, their mood swings, overly precious, their personality problems from the
Goddess knows how many lifetimes. I have quite enough of my own thank you very much! Actually that is becoming less and less true, so much of my trauma has been transformed, there is so much more room there now for fresh creativity and joy and partnership!

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I open to the offering that is life, I embrace all living creatures on all levels of existence, I offer myself to life itself, dancing in the glow and flowing through a magical landscape created by me. This is where manifestation can get really powerful, I am seeing my special scene more and more keenly, it is a life where I am doing what I love and getting well paid for it, working mostly but not always from home. Home being somewhere 15 minutes in range of town but where you can hear the bell birds calling all day long. I live there with my Beloved and we spend time together and we spend time apart, life is good, both are doing our paths of spirit.

My relationship, my work, these are the paths of my spirit, the practice in life that helps me to become the practice, to know my methods so well that I become free of method, moving fully into a flowing life of spirit. I am many things, but I am a bridge, between the worlds, the different dimensions, between the inner spaces of the organs and the mind, between the humble and the great. I am that I am, that I am………………..  I hold the highest vibration, in my heart.

Love and blissings…………

This work, Conscious Sensuality, is beatiful and transformative, I did a day workshop and we went further in just one day than I could have possibly imagined.

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Generation Of Hope.

Posted on May 26, 2013 | Leave a comment

Just for a change of pace, I’d like to share with you an inspirational video that gives me great hope for humanity, these young people look to me like future humans, I wish I had my act together the way they do! And apparently more than 50% of the world’s population is under 25, so they also carry the weight of numbers. There seem to be a few different names for this generation, but I’ve known them as Generation Y, one of the speakers in this film speculates that it may represent the fact that it is the generation that is facing a real fork in the road for the future.

And that’s the most important story on the planet is it not? Whatever else we may do with ourselves as a people, we require an environment to do it in that will support us, the number of people who are waking up to this is so exciting. I got really excited about the Occupy Wall Street movement when it started, since then there has been Occupy Earth and a movie has come out called Occupy Love, haven’t seen it yet but planning on buying the dvd and showing it in my community.

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I shared a house with a couple of young men who were Generation Y and was impressed with their ability to decide what they wanted, and to then plan on how to get there, none of the dithering and self-sabotage I seem to have specialised in! Of course there are those in every age group who are still asleep, but we don’t need everyone to be awake for this to work, and in the new world we will create, it will be a lot easier for those of us with more trauma to focus on our healing.

These kids are the internet generation too, and with the ability to connect instantly, the possiblity of change happening really quickly becomes much more likely. The Golden Age can’t come soon enough for me, bring it on my young friends, you are the people we’ve been waiting for!

It’s perhaps the best of times and
the worst of times, but there is
no time for distractions anymore.

Here’s a video with dozens of young
voices expressing how they feel about
their influence and potential impact
at this turning point in history.

“We are writing a different story than
the one we have been led to believe is
inevitable.”  says one young woman proudly.

Video: (9:28)

http://www.nextworldtv.com/page/9991.html

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I Cord, You Cord, We All Cord!

Posted on April 18, 2013 | Leave a comment

Can you think of times in your life when you’ve had trouble getting someone out of your mind? You really don’t want them continually inside your head, but you just can’t seem to evict them, they might be lover, friend or even enemy. Whatever their relationship to you, there’s a pretty good chance that you’ve formed emotional cords with them.

It’s generally a two-way street, there is something in each of you that feels very similar, a trauma or wounding of some kind. If the connection is strong enough and you’re very intuitive, you may even find you just ‘know’ when they’re around, bump into them in what seems to be the most random fashion. If it’s somebody you really like you might be tempted to think it’s a good thing, but make no mistake, emotional cords are not healthy. Wound calling out to wound is just asking to create dependency, which ultimately leads to unhealthy relationships.

So what can you do about it? I find that meditating and cutting the cords works very well, although you may have to keep doing it. Use whatever imagery has meaning for you, I ask the Archangel Michael to cut the cords with his sword of truth, but if you prefer Tinkerbell to dissolve them with fairy dust then by all means go for it. Or maybe Coyote from Roadrunner cartoons can blow up the cords with his faithful TNT, just don’t do what he usually does and blow yourself up too!

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In the end the best solution is to heal the wounds, as long as they are still present there’s always the possibility of creating more cords. Use whatever methods you’ve found that work for you, and stay focused on the journey of healing. Above all don’t give yourself a hard time when you become aware that you are forming cords, just deal with it as best you can and know that you are a work in progress.

Here is an example of how to cut emotional cords:

http://flowingfree.org/cutting-ties-a-simple-way-to-free-yourself-from-emotional-baggage/

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The Ocean Of Love.

Posted on April 5, 2013 | 1 comment

Confidence breeds confidence, a bright energy that feeds on itself and then blossoms outwards, showering radiance on everything around it. The world becomes a lighter place and people respond to that light, you can see it in their eyes, upon their countenance. This is not something that can be achieved without a direct connection to divine source, it comes not from depending upon another, it cometh from a place that is deep within the soul, the consciousness.

“The lover who leans upon the beloved’s response, his love is like the flame that needs oil to live; but the lover who stands on his own feet, is like the lantern of the sun that burns without oil.”

Hazrat Inayat Khan.

So how does one get there? There are as many ways as there are people, the first step is to acknowledge how things truly are in the moment that you are currently inhabiting, and there may be times when that alone is extremely challenging. I believe that most relationships have an element of co-dependancy, I know that mine have been in the past and I’m determined not to be in that place again, a very good reason to be single for almost a decade!

That’s the path that I chose, to be on my own and to focus (obsessively I freely admit), on healing every bit of trauma I could lay my metaphorical hands on. You need to find ways of clearing the cellular memory of the body, use your intellect to understand by all means, but if it is in the cells of your body it will still be running you, and fundamental change will be difficult if not impossible to achieve. Bodywork and breathwork have been the mainstays for me, but there are so many great therapies out there, find the one that works for you.

All the clearing I’ve been doing in the last few months has been very much focused on old patterns in relationship, and I now feel that I’m clear enough to be in a relationship that is not co-dependant. Which is not to say that old stuff won’t come up, I’m sure that it will, as long as I can observe it and then wish it a fond farewell, all will be good.

And so for now I continue to be in gratitude for the ocean of love in which I swim, touching noses with the other fish, as we glide through a community where I have the opportunity to swim with the school, or explore on my ownsome. Who knows when the touch of hello may become a caress or a kiss, bubbles of joy emanating from the deep connection of my beloved and me, bubbling up to the surface and spreading the love even further, into a world that needs all the joy it can find!

Love is all you need!

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Naughty Faeries.

Posted on March 17, 2013 | Leave a comment

On my enchanted adventure I ventured into forbidden territory, sugar, grain, Cadbury chocolate and coffee, I gave myself permission to be naughty and hoped that I would not be trapped in the world of faery forever, having supped of faery food. Actually the truth is that the faeries probably eat food that gives them plenty of life force, maybe it is the power of that energy that has given birth to the stories of the dangers of eating anything while in the realm of magic and enchantment. Having sat at the table with Titania and Oberon, our present reality cannot be anything but a pale imitation of life’s glorious potential. Like a beautiful photo that has faded with time, we become accustomed to a lesser reality, so much dimmer than the place we inhabit as children.

The Fairies' Banquet by John Anster

The Fairies’ Banquet by John Anster

A little bit of naughtiness will do you no harm, but for those whose daily fare is processed and full of sugar and nasty chemicals, the dulling down is happening quite literally in the cells of the body. I strayed off the path for just four days and even so I could feel my sugar and carb addict beginning to wake up, the more you have the more you want. I came off it slowly with the help of some chocolate halva (Oh my Goddess what a treat!) and my green smoothies are incredibly important for bringing me back into alignment.

For those of you who struggle with cravings the news is good, if the former Junk Food Queen of Parap can become pure, anyone can! From the very beginning as I moved on to solids I wanted everything that was unhealthy, I dealt with teenage trauma and loss by drowning my sorrows as only a true alcoholic can and smoking furiously whatever I could get my hands on.

The path to redemption has been a long road of shifts and changes on all levels of my being, physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual. You deal with one layer at a time, making the changes that are possible at that time, and slowly but surely you begin to build up better habits. For me the emotional aspect of food has been very important, I no longer have that ‘need’ to fill the empty space within me by stuffing my face.

Dear Gaia, thank you for providing me with such a dazzling array of sustenance in the form of the fruits and the vegetables that abound on this gorgeous planet. And thank you for helping me to connect with that leafy, aromatic realm of taste and texture, heightening my senses until I positively reel with ecstatic delight!

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