BIG apologies for being one day late with my post!
I am not ashamed to admit that I cried when I watched the short video telling the story of a wounded man and the dog who saved him from his nightmares. This organisation, “Pets For Vets”, was set up by Clarissa Black who is an animal behaviorist and trainer. PTSD is a real problem not just for war veterans but for victims of crime as well. Women tend to develop the condition more easily than men and are more likely to be exposed to the kind of high impact traumatic event that can lead to PTSD.
The impact in the life of a conscious being of feeling disconnected from everyone can be devastating. The need to belong is a fundamental part of being human, I suspect that when we move beyond being human the concept of belonging will simply be self-evident. And even while still in a body it is possible to move into that kind of inner space in a spiritual way, to be able to do it when in the grips of an illness such as PTSD would be pretty challenging. How much simpler to bring unconditional love and lots of touch and communication into the lives of those touched by intense traumas.
How magic would it be to see this concept used in the treatment of other kinds of illness, there isn’t much that love and connection can’t do when it comes to healing the human body, mind and soul!
As human beings on the planet we all have masculine and feminine energy within us, in the last post I talked about shakti and how tuning in can open us to our natural orgasmic nature. This is available for everyone, men and women, my Beloved has been exploring his shakti and it is a fascinating journey for both of us. My issues have been very much with the masculine and I am learning to let go of the memories and to sometimes step into that energy which is beautiful when it is in right relation to everything else.
So much of what has been seen as a part of the devil is simply a culture gone completely out of whack, where sexuality is frowned upon and even forbidden sometimes. Osho speaks about how the science of tantra has developed in the east and that your:
“sexual energy can become your spirituality……….. It is proved beyond doubt-thousands of people have gone through the transformation. Tantra seems to be the science that is, sooner or later, going to be accepted in the whole world, because people are suffering from all kinds of perversions…………repressed sexuality is the problem. My whole effort has been how to make your sex a natural, accepted phenomenon so there is no repression-and then you don’t need any pornography, so that there is no repression-and then you don’t dream of sex. Then the energy can be transformed.”
Osho, Sex Matters: From Sex To Superconsciousness, in Diana Richardson, Tantric Orgasm For Women.
Shiva and Shakti.
I have been letting go of some energies that didn’t feel very nice as they moved through me, some is from this life and some from past lives, who knows maybe I am tuning in to the experience of women over the centuries. Perhaps as I transform this darkness I am doing not only myself a great service, but maybe the whole of existence. It certainly feels lighter for me on every level of my being as I learn that it doesn’t always have to be painful to be alive, the parts of me that were traumatised are beginning to smile. They feel safe now to be themselves and it will be interesting to see what grows out of this place.
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So you want to create or manifest something in your life, there are lots of techniques out there but pretty much all of them talk about setting a strong intention in some way, shape or form. You do the meditation and in time you get what you asked for, sounds so simple doesn’t it, all you need is patience and persistence. See the outcome and let spirit take care of the details. Actually I do believe that this is how the universe works, I just think that there is a bit more complexity in the whole process and sometimes very good reasons why things don’t happen exactly as you may have seen it.
Firstly we are human and often limited when it comes to seeing the bigger picture of life, the universe and everything. So what it is you think that you want may not be so important in the larger scheme of things, spirit often has other ideas on what is important and is seeing with a cosmic, timeless perspective that can be challenging to access when occupying a physical body. Secondly there may be inner obstacles that will actively try to stop you achieving certain goals, early conditioning and traumas that are held in the energetic imprint of our beings.
If you’ve been reading my posts you will know that I have been doing meditations where I’ve been using tools of visualisation to create and manifest my future. Ok, so I’ve been a bit distracted by being madly in love, but I have been doing them at least once a week which is supposed to be sufficient. None the less I have let go of part of that vision as I realised that there are more important things to be focusing on. You could say that I failed in my efforts but I don’t think so, there’s been radical change in my life since I began doing this particular work and my priorities have changed dramatically.
Not through these meditations so much although they certainly have their place in a process that has been going on for the last two years and I think they are good value. I never do just one thing when it comes to spiritual development and all the different methods I have used in that time have played their part in bringing me to a place where I was able to finally receive love in the kind of relationship I always dreamed about.
I will continue to do a variety of practices no doubt and the alpha meditations will probably still feature in my spiritual landscape. But my main practice for now is relationship as a spiritual practice and it is the most powerful healing force that I have ever experienced. It’s also a practice that is easy to do often and with great gusto, this is one example where it is absolutely ok and in fact quite necessary to fall in love with your therapist!
Ain’t love grand!
The shaman begins to drum and dance calling the power of the universe to her as she puts her egoic self aside and becomes an empty vessel that fills with the help of the spirits.
The client lies quietly in the center breathing deeply to be in a receptive state to receive back his lost soul; his lost vitality.
The shaman sings her journey out loud as she tracks down where the soul has fled. And on finding it returns and blows it deeply into the heart of the client filling the entire body with the light of life.
There is a great joy for all as one heals all are healed. The community is now whole again and can be in peace and harmony.
Sandra Ingerman: Soul Retrieval: http://www.sandraingerman.com/soulretrieval.html
One of the ways that we deal with trauma in our lives is to leave our bodies, so as not to feel the full impact of the crisis, it’s a survival mechanism that actually works quite well if there’s an understanding of what’s going on. Parts of our soul may leave altogether in that moment, but this is a concept that is not understood or accepted in our current western culture. So instead of doing the healing straight away we end up losing more and more of who we are, the world gradually becomes a duller place and most of the time we don’t even realise that it’s happening.
After years of healing trauma after trauma I began to experience a much sharper appreciation of the world around me, colours, sights, sounds and smells are more vivid than they used to be. It’s like I am returning to the perception of being a child, but bringing to that the knowledge and understanding that I have developed as I’ve moved along my healing path. Whenever one individual becomes more whole, the entire community benefits and this is something that is well understood in indigenous cultures that view the world from a shamanic perspective.
We are all interconnected on so many levels, without a recognition of this basic fact of existence, the current civilisation is likely to become a part of this latest process of extinction that is occurring on the planet at this time. We do need to change and I tend to be the eternal optimist on this subject, if I can create huge fundamental change in myself and my life, then so can everyone else!
Bring it on!
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The butterflys are fluttering in my belly again, and yet I am pretty content in this moment, sitting here with my laptop, with a view of trees out the window and the cat snuggled up against my foot having a wash. I wonder sometimes if there will ever be a time when I don’t get stuff coming up, it’s hard to imagine what that would be like, probably not what being here on earth is all about anyway. I ran into a friend in the street yesterday and we agreed that while it was uncomfortable at times, that we are here to be in school, and this is one of the most common lesson formats.
I met someone who was very clear about ten years ago, Grant Mcfetridge of the Peak States Institute, and he said that he still got triggered sometimes, but he would then clear it in a few minutes. Grant’s work is very interesting, he theorises that specific traumas in our developmental process block particular peak states of consciousness. He says that these states are our birthright and I tend to agree with him. He also recommends other therapies such as EFT, or emotional freedom technique, where you are focusing on what you want to shift as you tap certain points along the meridians. Grant’s web site is: http://www.peakstates.com/
I just paused to do some tapping on the feelings in my belly and while they are not completely gone, they are greatly diminished. If I keep tapping it will probably go completely but I’m not sure if I have time, oh what the hell, I will pause again and keep going! ……………. So I did and now it feels like a little ball of ecstasy, this is such a simple technique and so effective! To check out more about tapping here is Gary Craig’s web site, the founder of this therapy: http://www.emofree.com/ Lots of other people offer tapping as well, I would recommend going towards whoever your intuition guides you to.
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‘Aint life grand! Feeling like being in love with the whole of existence, my vibration is moving up and up, only incredibly beneficial things are attracted to this juicy vibe. And it’s not attached to somebody’s face, their being, their history, their mood swings, overly precious, their personality problems from the
Goddess knows how many lifetimes. I have quite enough of my own thank you very much! Actually that is becoming less and less true, so much of my trauma has been transformed, there is so much more room there now for fresh creativity and joy and partnership!
I open to the offering that is life, I embrace all living creatures on all levels of existence, I offer myself to life itself, dancing in the glow and flowing through a magical landscape created by me. This is where manifestation can get really powerful, I am seeing my special scene more and more keenly, it is a life where I am doing what I love and getting well paid for it, working mostly but not always from home. Home being somewhere 15 minutes in range of town but where you can hear the bell birds calling all day long. I live there with my Beloved and we spend time together and we spend time apart, life is good, both are doing our paths of spirit.
My relationship, my work, these are the paths of my spirit, the practice in life that helps me to become the practice, to know my methods so well that I become free of method, moving fully into a flowing life of spirit. I am many things, but I am a bridge, between the worlds, the different dimensions, between the inner spaces of the organs and the mind, between the humble and the great. I am that I am, that I am……………….. I hold the highest vibration, in my heart.
Love and blissings…………
This work, Conscious Sensuality, is beatiful and transformative, I did a day workshop and we went further in just one day than I could have possibly imagined.
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Just for a change of pace, I’d like to share with you an inspirational video that gives me great hope for humanity, these young people look to me like future humans, I wish I had my act together the way they do! And apparently more than 50% of the world’s population is under 25, so they also carry the weight of numbers. There seem to be a few different names for this generation, but I’ve known them as Generation Y, one of the speakers in this film speculates that it may represent the fact that it is the generation that is facing a real fork in the road for the future.
And that’s the most important story on the planet is it not? Whatever else we may do with ourselves as a people, we require an environment to do it in that will support us, the number of people who are waking up to this is so exciting. I got really excited about the Occupy Wall Street movement when it started, since then there has been Occupy Earth and a movie has come out called Occupy Love, haven’t seen it yet but planning on buying the dvd and showing it in my community.
I shared a house with a couple of young men who were Generation Y and was impressed with their ability to decide what they wanted, and to then plan on how to get there, none of the dithering and self-sabotage I seem to have specialised in! Of course there are those in every age group who are still asleep, but we don’t need everyone to be awake for this to work, and in the new world we will create, it will be a lot easier for those of us with more trauma to focus on our healing.
These kids are the internet generation too, and with the ability to connect instantly, the possiblity of change happening really quickly becomes much more likely. The Golden Age can’t come soon enough for me, bring it on my young friends, you are the people we’ve been waiting for!
It’s perhaps the best of times and
the worst of times, but there is
no time for distractions anymore.
Here’s a video with dozens of young
voices expressing how they feel about
their influence and potential impact
at this turning point in history.
“We are writing a different story than
the one we have been led to believe is
inevitable.” says one young woman proudly.