The nights with this cold I’ve had were rather interesting, if not what I would describe as particularly pleasant. That’s when the cough would come and make it hard to sleep, I noticed though that after a really deep racking cough there was a sense of expansion and lightness in my chest that actually felt good. I was also aware of a strong vibration going on at a cellular level that indicated a lot of energetic movement, a big shift of some kind. I keep seeing the Tower from the tarot and the Death card, both of these archetypes indicate fundamental change occurring.
I guess my trip to Sydney to sort out my stuff was even bigger than I realised, it closes a chapter in my life so there is a kind of death that is happening. In many ways I have been in transition for the last two and a half years even though my focus has been very much on where I have been living. Let’s face it, how often does an old chapter end neatly with the new one following on, there is almost always a bit of back and forthing that goes on.
Now I need to address any completions that need to be done with regards to the old path that is finishing, and probably the hardest part is letting go of the old outmoded ways of being that no longer serve me. The one that is coming up big time for me is abundance and being supported, with a better return on the energy I put out I will be able to do a better job of looking after myself. There are things I could do less of and be happy, but economic necessity is a factor that cannot be ignored and so I do what I have to. But I’m not prepared to compromise on things I know are important for me to do, even though they may not bring in income, and so we arrive at a schedule that becomes overwhelming at times.
It’s a biggie but I do finally think that the time has come to properly address this issue, and my intuition has been telling me for the longest time that my writing is the key to this. We shall see what unfolds, I will be calling on all the resources I can find inner and outer to meet this particular challenge, wish me luck as I go!
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Okay, so in the end I’ve had to surrender to being sick, managed to get through work and play on the weekend, and then monday morning was spent in bed instead of yoga. That night I started losing my voice which means missing a shift on the crisis phones, guess it’s time to rest and just allow my body to release whatever it needs to. There is a kind of relief in that feeling, trust is often a bit tricky, but one thing I do absolutely trust in is my body’s wisdom.
I did go out last night for what’s known in my local club as a bunya meal, if you are in the community exchange system you can do that, but only on a monday night which is when they have the blackboard with 15 minute spots for musos. Nice not to have to cook and very nurturing to connect with my community, old friends and some newer ones, I even managed a bit of a dance. But before the music was over my voice was failing and that more than anything signalled that it was time to wend my weary way home, luckily only a 2 minute drive.
The message from my body is clear, rest, rest and more rest! I have also not been so good at following my own advice and intentions, so this evening I will do some meditation and bring my focus to raising my vibration. Probably the Telos Daily Activation of Light Meditation followed by some sitting meditation, with no voice I won’t be doing any toning that’s for sure! In that quiet space I will ask if there is anything I need to know at the moment. I have a sense of something opening up for me but I’m not sure exactly what it may be, I feel that my settling in one place may be soon but not sure about that either.
Not sure about much am I, that’s why I will ask for guidance, and if I don’t need to know then I will do my best to surrender to the uncertainty. Being ok with not knowing is often the hardest thing of all, and yet if you can do it, it’s also a blessed relief.
Found a lovely guided meditation to share with you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hrgGouSUUPc
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I’m getting stronger and stronger as I continue to integrate the intense learnings that have dominated my year so far, with each shift more of me is available to life, the universe, and everything! And this is just as well because I’m sure that things will be moving more and more quickly as the vibration of the earth itself is moving into new frequencies. I am going to clear clutter so I can move cleanly into this new life that is unfolding in each moment on my wonder filled journey into a Golden New Age, the journey into the fullness of us all!
I find myself issuing challenges to life and aspects of me that fill me with excitement rather than fear, always a lesson to be learned and always a light at the end of the tunnel. The challenge of organising posts for while I am away south, is showing me how I can see the pieces as part of a tapestry and be a bit ahead of myself as a matter of course. So I am seeing the larger pattern that is my account in through the vortex, fun to get the posts in just the right order for maximum impact!
Writing these short pieces certainly is a format that one refines as one goes, each one is carefully crafted till it is just right, or good enough in some cases, yet there is always someone who loves it. When you are creating something new, there is this kind of zing you get when it’s exactly right, the rhythms of poetic flow, visuals and video, quotes………….the whole picture.
This is a really nice description of holistic healing and the human energy field, getting a flow with all of these, so that they are in alignment with each other, is my intention, so be it, so be it, so be it…………ohm shanti, blissings and love…….
And a clip that shows us the implications in the energy based universe that we currently inhabit, what is around us can sometimes only be discerned by the finer senses, the intuitive or right brain side of us.
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A sense of lassitude, bed is a good idea but oh how much nicer to flow with the energy and enjoy the feeling of being nurtured and of self-worth that is moving through the cells of my body. The intelligence and heart of Leonard Cohen singing incisive and profound words, so very like real life told with such sensitivity and warmth. I am somewhat disenchanted with ego at the moment, it can be charming and fun but do you really want that kind of energy around too often, aren’t we supposed to surround ourselves with the kinds of people who reflect back to us our unlimited self. A control freak who cannot let go, struggles with spontaneity, is only amusing up to a point, however “conscious” the language or terminology you are always going to be swimming in shallow waters.
I want to sink to the depths with all the wonders there to behold, to dance in and out of unity awareness, tantric sensibility, sensitivity to the whole picture, falling into old patterns to activate and to release……….letting go in love. Dreaming up the vision of connection to a beloved as a part of spiritual practice, where your relationship brings you closer to the Divine, why be there otherwise. Having that energy upon land that resonates with my being, that speaks to me in a tongue that nourishes and supports me as only the Mother can do, oh Durga, may I receive that which will bring me closer to you.
Continuing to keep a shimmering barrier around me at all times, it allows in only that which is of a high vibration and which will serve the highest good of me and of all life everywhere, that which is of a low vibration and which will not serve me may not enter. At night I add a mirrored surface to the outside of the bubble, anything that will not serve me is reflected back to whence it came. I’ve never had to be this disciplined before but it feels necessary to do so at this time, I am hearing a lot about people feeling the need for protection from various types of unseen forces, or of those who are overshadowed by entities or dark energies. I think things are hotting up, if you are a sensitive it could get particularly interesting, and if you think of it as an adventure it has the potential to be a lot of fun!
Here is a beautiful video clip of one of my favourite Leonard Cohen songs, Dance me to the end of love:
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‘Aint life grand! Feeling like being in love with the whole of existence, my vibration is moving up and up, only incredibly beneficial things are attracted to this juicy vibe. And it’s not attached to somebody’s face, their being, their history, their mood swings, overly precious, their personality problems from the
Goddess knows how many lifetimes. I have quite enough of my own thank you very much! Actually that is becoming less and less true, so much of my trauma has been transformed, there is so much more room there now for fresh creativity and joy and partnership!
I open to the offering that is life, I embrace all living creatures on all levels of existence, I offer myself to life itself, dancing in the glow and flowing through a magical landscape created by me. This is where manifestation can get really powerful, I am seeing my special scene more and more keenly, it is a life where I am doing what I love and getting well paid for it, working mostly but not always from home. Home being somewhere 15 minutes in range of town but where you can hear the bell birds calling all day long. I live there with my Beloved and we spend time together and we spend time apart, life is good, both are doing our paths of spirit.
My relationship, my work, these are the paths of my spirit, the practice in life that helps me to become the practice, to know my methods so well that I become free of method, moving fully into a flowing life of spirit. I am many things, but I am a bridge, between the worlds, the different dimensions, between the inner spaces of the organs and the mind, between the humble and the great. I am that I am, that I am……………….. I hold the highest vibration, in my heart.
Love and blissings…………
This work, Conscious Sensuality, is beatiful and transformative, I did a day workshop and we went further in just one day than I could have possibly imagined.
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What an interesting journey it is to re-enter a life in a higher powered vehicle, feeling the effects of raising my vibration, through shedding as well as conscious intention to manifest my highest good. I have entered an intuitive flow that can sometimes change quite suddenly, I surrender to it and it takes me on a slightly different tack, I call it fine tuning. Life seems to be handing me gifts from all sides, messages come through just when I need to hear them and they are getting pretty clear!
I shifted from having a night at home with a few friends, food and movie, to connecting with a groovy new household and on to my community and tribe who often tend to meet up on this particular evening. The music was stellar quality, one of those lovely nights where you get to have some great conversation but just have to stop often in order to listen to the wonderful sonic offerings. And I just had to dance to some of those fabulous rhythms, can’t understand how people can hear that music and not move their bodies!
There were people there who are very dear to my heart, and there are some challenges amongst us, we are coming together to support as a community. The hearts are there and I seem to connect with openness, everybody seems to like me and there is a feeling that I can be who I am, without judgement. Oh the dancing was good tonight, I am feeling the most delicious expansion in my ribs when I move and flow, its energy that tickles me in a very sensual way, almost like making love to myself.
Dancing on the dark verandah to Alicia Keys, coming in for one song so I could use the floor, beautiful wooden floors, eating left over desert from that May 10 Taurian New Moon eclipse as I integrate the cellular shift brought in by the Sagittarius Full Moon and eclipse. That’s quite a mouthful wouldn’t you agree? Not as hard as it might seem, if you can find your flow and trust it is amazing how much synchronicity seems to guide your path forwards.
Here’s Alicia singing, ‘Never felt this way’, nice version.
Lead on my third eye, and St Germaine, and the Archangel Micheal…………..on, on, on to the Golden Age!
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In my toning circle a couple of days ago we once again created a beautiful energy field that was totally unique, a gathering that is never the same twice, bringing together the frequencies that each person is holding in that moment. We toned to clean the waters of the earth, for the politicians who have strayed so far from their hearts, we toned for ourselves to express the feelings moving in our own bodies. We offered healing to each other through our sounds, and in the giving and receiving of that gift we became lighter, possibly a step closer to en-lightenment!
At the end of the day the most important thing for me is that I am fulfilling a part of my purpose on the planet when I bring a group of souls together to tone. Frequency may not seem as solid as a table or a chair but it has the power to create and to heal, if you are feeling down just doing some toning can really lift your spirits. In Darwin many years ago, there was a woman I knew with a very badly ulcerated injury who received toning for it, next time she saw the doctor he was totally amazed at the rapid healing that had occurred. In my circle I have witnessed participants gaining important insights about themselves as they step out of their comfort zones and into the unknown.
I’m honoured and humbled that such things can occur in the sacred space that I’ve created, that people feel safe enough to allow themselves to be vulnerable in that way. Every time someone releases something they have been holding on to, the entire field that we all exist within feels the benefit of that letting go. So know that when you are doing your own healing, you are making as much of a contribution as the social activist who lobbies for change. It’s all necessary if we are to truly move into this new age that is upon us, whatever your practice, keep it up!
My deepest gratitude to my darling bestest buddy Ulli, who introduced me to toning 25 years ago, may she always be filled with sonic delight, in my heart she will live, surrounded by light!
Here is an example of a group toning, try to listen to it as pure freqency and receive the vibration, you can feel it even when you are listening to it but if you are making the sounds yourself it is that much more powerful!