Just give me another week she said and I will have all kinds of strange delights to captivate and entrance you, I know I said I would be ready by now but time works strangely in the vortex.
Enter at your own risk, when I finally do return I will be posting once a week on a Wednesday………… as Douglas Adams said, “Time is an illusion, lunchtime doubly so.” And in the vortex time never even got a look in, it’s like one long lunch with all kinds of strange foods at the feast.
See you down the rabbit hole very soon………
Official Announcement, somewhat belated………. I am having four weeks off and I don’t have back up posts, I received that piece of advice when I had already well and truly begun this journey down the rabbit hole!
So I am in the vortex right now and when I get out the other side I will let you know what has unfolded, the plan is for this to happen by Sunday 30th November.
More than that I can’t say………mostly I’m hopelessly in love and the more time I can hang out with my Beloved the happier I am!
Love you all very much and see you soon!
Fluttering, delicate wings churning my belly into a tightness that coils into itself, as excitement and anticipation coupled with fear, turn into an anxious dread. Knowing that its opposite is simply a thought away, I breathe into that turbulent swirl that turns and turns, creating a vortex of energy that can take me into even greater fear………..or ecstasy. Air, the stuff of life, pours into my waiting lungs, and directed into the pit of doom it carries me deeper and deeper, as I surrender to the downward spiral, making friends with the darkness, letting go into night.
The relief as I fall into the space of the underworld, that hell on earth that we make for ourselves when the monsters of the depths go unrecognised and unacknowledged, luminescent light becomes possible, as we find eyes that will gaze upon the face, that will take us into a fuller knowledge of the soul beneath the mask. I take my courage in both hands, and I descend like all the mythic characters that have gone before me, to meet the ruler of the shadow, the opposite of light.
Meeting each challenge with an open heart, my mind a sword that cleaves through old patterns, my feelings showing the way into balance, I battle the three-headed dog and gain entrance to the center of all that hides from sight. A figure stands before me but I cannot see its face, my shaking hands tear the veil and my eyes are open wide with fright, terror coursing through my veins I look upon the greatest monster of all, ’tis myself.
In that moment consciousness opens into laughter and the absurd nature of life becomes a juice to sweeten the sadness and the grief, the struggle and the pain. If I made all of this then I can unmake it if I choose, no longer a pawn in the world I can wake up if I want to………..or not. The old nightmare is over and I face my demons with a song on my lips and feet that move in a spiral dance that feeds the flow of energy, connected to all things.
I AM the light, I AM the dark, I AM everything and I AM nothing……..I AM THAT I AM and that is all.
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Embarking upon a journey into the swirling, twirling vortex that is the middle of every second week, slipping in a little footwork practice and a sleep before going off to find my attitude in strong poses and energy complete. Riding the wave of passionate expression I follow the winding path down the mountain and breathe a little sea air before hunkering down in the bunker, a welcoming warm shelter. It’s a matter of balance, of kindness, of care, do just enough to be alive fully but never push yourself beyond your capacity, whatever it may be.
I love riding the edge of what might be possible, testing the limits of how balanced I can be no matter what life may be throwing at me, brain working out as I follow the notes on a musical page and count the beat, rise to the note. Higher functions are operating and all is well as long as I can balance on that narrow edge, teeter a tad by all means but lets stay on the path and keep fanning the fires of creativity, the torrents of energy flowing over the cliffs, emotions letting go of their attachments.
My sea feels calm even when I can see stormy weather up ahead, the waves may be a bit big sometimes but if I can keep that calm centre within me holding it all together, I can ride out any storm. Just as well because I continue to add-on to the pile of what needs to be done by the end of the year, performance, costumes, the mastering of steps that seem to be forever in coming. The seeing, listening and enjoying of much good music, as well as the necessity of keeping the faith for all the Goddesses of the Dance by moving my body to good grooves on a regular basis.
That’s right, it’s supposed to be fun!
Someone should have reminded Judy Garland, here she is doing such a superb job of “Stormy Weather”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZfv1e2e7ug
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After a day spent in another space-time reality, timeless and deeply connected to the energies moving within Durga, the mother, I come home to a HeartFire Gateway message that moves me to write a poem. The message was:
So what then is it?
What shall it be?
What truth is the HeartFire illuminating for thee?
The HeartFire held at the centre of me
spirals into the vortex
that spins at the core
a many petaled lotus flower
opening to receive
moving more deeply
into the fullness
that I be
when I spend time
Its time to follow the guidance that first told me I had to go to the country so that they could communicate more clearly with me, and to do ceremony on the land, some ceremony I am already participating in and it is taking me deeper and deeper……………as I listen to the voice of the land, so shall the land speak through me. I feel so blessed to be where I am, perfectly poised on the edge of the unknown, serene as The Fool who has such faith and trust in life, knowing that as I surrender to divine timing, my divinity shines forth, radiating love. Love really is all you need………………………..
The Beatles knew……… http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xmk14_the-beatles-all-you-need-is-love_music
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Check this out, just as I am really focusing on the vortex somone sends out this clip from youtube which shows how our entire solar system and the way it moves through space is actually a vortex! There is something truly beautiful about the spiraling movement of the vortex, it reminds me of the shape of DNA, the double helix, simple and elegant, so well designed.
The body knows all of this as it moves through space, responding to music and to nature, and to the inner song that is also playing, the sweet symetry of movement that satisfies on so many different levels. And then if one is witnessed it becomes even more powerful, when truths present themselves to us we can ‘feel’ the authenticity.
I have always been a fan of Alice in Wonderland, popping down the rabbit hole has been a habit of mine for years now and it’s an exciting and sometimes confronting journey. Like Alice I try to believe six impossible things before breakfast, and in what we now know to be a quantum universe this is starting to look like a practical description of reality.
Not that I pretend to fully understand the science behind it, but even I can see that science and the mystic wisdom of the ages are finally meeting. We have entered the vortex and are passing through into a new earth, a new humanity. What it will be like beyond the vortex I do not know but that it will be marvellous I feel quite sure. Optimism seems the best way forward, optimism powered by the energy of love which, as it turns out, really does make the world go round. The Beatles were right and Wall Street has definitely got it very wrong.
Love is all you need, but I don’t mean the kind of love you’ll find in romantic novels, where the corseted women swoon and the charming, dastardly rogue turns out to have a heart of gold and be good husband material. Oh no, we’re living in a culture that has done it’s best to create order with rigid rules about who’s supposed to love who and look at the mess we’ve created!
It’s time to clean up our mess and having the freedom to be who we are in our fullness must be a part of that. Learning how to be in my fullness is what my healing journey is all about and I hope this may provide reflections, like sunlight upon a many faceted crystal. Reflections that may find answering echoes in the souls of my fellow explorers as we embark on the most exciting journey of all, discovery of self!
Tim Burton’s Alice in Wonderland
Down the rabbit hole!