This strange feeling in my uneasy belly as cravings rush to quench the fear of I know not what. So I follow the urge and I’m very precise in my choices. Then I consume slowly being as mindful as I can be, accepting that my thoughts will wander at times. Being grateful for the fact that I do come back to the fullest perception that I can manage of the moment I am in . Consuming a lot less and feeling a certain level of satisfaction as well as a recognition that as a strategy this isn’t really good for long-term alignment. But I’m not beating myself up, simply observing what is going on in my inner realm. As deeply and openly and honestly as I am able to be.
And then I danced and wrote, and wrote and danced, I moved………….and energies moved in me. Surrendering to what is true in this moment and being with that sense, whatever it may be. We are spirits having the material experience of being in a body on Mother Earth.
Dance yourself open, move into the softness of surrender and taste freedom from care. Let it all go……..whatever you may be carrying that feels too heav for you to hold. Feel into where your body is speaking to you through stiffness and pain, give it your full awareness and allow your body to respond. If you let it, it will find a way to move that brings your sore bits back into some flow. It may be quite subtle but if you bring to it the power of awareness it is unmistakable.
Might have to dance a bit more, Vas is playing and my body wants to move to those lush melodies and the voice hasn’t even come in yet! Talk to you next week my dancing friends, namaste.
Here is the Vas song I can’t resist:
I’m back but I have to warn you I did enjoy my little break, maybe I need to do an intense bit of writing then actually have a holiday. Maybe then I will find the time to look at the other aspects of writing that I’d like to follow-up, at the moment a lot of my focus is on my relationship and that’s ok. We are living in a bush paradise for a little bit longer and to be in that lovely environment together is a bit like being on holiday even though it’s home for a few months. A good time to be deepening into our relationship, teaching together will be different yet again but we seem to make a good team so I am confident about the outcome.
So the times they are a changing and in actual fact it is more extreme now than it was when Bob Dylan sang that song, we all need to be able to be flexible in our selves and in the way that we navigate life. Life has never been so complex and yet the intrinsic values of belonging, giving and receiving of love, sense of purpose, contributing to others well-being, is not so hard to follow, once you have shifted the old mindset. So don’t be afraid to do things that take you out of your comfort zone, there are lots of methods out there that will help you to experience deeper realities that lie beneath the so-called rational world.
So whatever your particular circumstances prepare to be challenged in some way if you have the courage to truly engage with life, it can be scary sometimes but I’ve found more light and laughter on the other side so that helps me to get through the uncomfortable bits. The more of us who operate in these kinds of ways, and there really are very many methods to access other states of consciousness, the more that information will go into the morphogenetic field that Rupert Sheldrake proved the existence of with mathematics. We really do have an impact on our environment so why not try to find more harmonious ways of operating in the world where everyone gets what they need to live.
Listen to this overview of morphogenetic fields from Rupert Sheldrake, with music and psychedelic images, if you like this then I also recommend that you look up Rupert’s conversation with Bruce Lipton:
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Feeling a little hemmed in where I am at my market today and wondering what this is symbolising for me at the moment. Perhaps it is time to move on from this wonderful warm space where I find part of my family or tribe, I have a sense of belonging and connection and it is this that keeps bringing me here. It’s a beautiful energy exchange but there is another path unfolding, as my Beloved and I settle into a life together we will have times apart to do stuff and mine may be to look at the earning online as a writer idea that’s been kicking around for a while now!
Harness your moon stallion!
Check out this website with some great reflections on the value of tuning into your moon time ladies, harness your moon stallion! http://www.elephantjournal.com/2011/09/harness-your-moon-time-stallion-nicole-maniez/
But just for today I am going to relax into the space of my moon time, as I sit here writing I can feel the deep earthing energy drawing me deep within myself. Anyone who does have a reading from me today will get a particularly good one, feeling very open as a channel for spirit today. Then back to my bush sanctuary where I feel the spirit of the land very keenly, it’s different to the fairy cottage I looked after almost a year ago, but there is still a deep, rather subtle connection going on.
Came home to my retreat to find the power off and so couldn’t do much, not even a cuppa, sat with my Beloved and watched the peaceful water of the pond. Letting go into the depths of the mother I did a reading for my love and that flowed as easily as the readings I did at market earlier on.
Spiraling down into the swirling depths and layers of the feminine, the unconscious, the unknown………….the mystery.
Isis, Astarte, Diana, Hecate, Demeter……….Kali, Inanna.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-K_g-5FEKLU This version of the song “The Burning Times” ends a bit abruptly but it is a good one particularly for really hearing the lyrics clearly.
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The story continues, I am getting very strong physical symptoms that have emerged out of the energies that have been moving through me. They are dark and painful and that is the feeling as my bladder feels like to burst, I am sitting with the feelings and letting them move, also doing spontaneous healing visualisations. Of course I am supposed to be going to see a doctor but I am hoping to avoid that strategy, knocking this out with antibiotics won’t do anything to address the energetic source of the complaint.
The stuff I am letting go of is all about sexual energy, aspects of that force that have been warped and morphed into something that interferes with connection to source, to the bottomless sea of bliss. Somehow I am keeping that silver cord attached even as I feel the intensity and pressure in my bladder, it is a bit like being in two realities at once. I have a friend who has often described me as living on the edge and she is rather accurate I think, this is not fun at all but I am stubborn so am hanging in there and giving my body a chance to heal itself.
Makes focusing on a post a bit difficult but it is also quite useful to put my thoughts into writing, once again the act of putting words to paper helps me to move things along. When I’m done with this post I will have to do some serious focusing on getting the healing done, time to truly let go of that which has held my life-force energy back from its full expression. And on the other side of that story is a new chapter in my life which almost feels like starting all over again, but with a lot more wisdom and knowledge than the first time.
Bringing conscious awareness to everything can make the passage through life easier to navigate, just as a sailor is attuned to the moods of the sea, we can tune into our own and the planet’s flow. Bring it all into harmony and true alignment, this is what I must do………..I will let you know how I get along!
Intense little period of activity, writing and writing in a much smaller pressure cooker which is sandwiched with languid delight and lots of satisfaction if not a lot of sleep. A recipe to be happy for me in this moment, open to the flow of energy as it charts new pathways long visioned and desired, blood running hot, a slow, sensual way of being that needs to be relaxed into. Yoga reflects this slow movement, spending long moments in stillness of pose, letting go into muscles slowly moving towards their edge, restorative pose with all the support I need, savasana……….still space edged with impatience!
Dancing from moment to moment with animal companions snuggling, kookaburra flies in to deliver his message of truth, passion and laughter, the end of the journey of healing, new growth has already begun. For a full description of this animal totem check this link out: http://solacetemple.wordpress.com/2007/11/10/kookaburra-a-spirit-bird/ Enjoying the space with just me in it even as I long to be entwined once again, one being re-united into the form of two polarities, going in and coming out, out into the cosmos and the stillness, bringing back all of that, into the merge.
Being intensely present to the scene around me, like a movie, and the one on the outside is getting more like the one I play regularly in my temple every day! You can assume by my positive tone that this is a good thing and you would be correct, my outer world has shifted massively in tune with movement in the inner realms, the flow of healthy, happy energy gives one rather a buoyant feeling in fact. I can feel that healing occurring on every level of my being, from the physical to all of the mental, spiritual, emotional realms that form the person that be me in this particular incarnation.
The more that your life force energy flows wherever it needs to, the happier you will be, even if the road is sometimes a little stony or steep, that effort and the surrender to the flow will bring light unto your sight, truth from your lips, warmth to the heart. And remember what St Germain always used to say:
“Until further notice, celebrate everything!”
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This post just has to be about gratitude, I’m feeling so full of appreciation for so many wonderful things that are in my life. Sunshine and hot weather, a supportive mum, heartful connections within an amazing community, the opportunity to connect on deep levels with the land, and an absolute abundance of good music just down the road at my local club which is a co-operative. I have found a place to be where my heart sings and inspiration comes from every direction!
But my gratitude for the people in my life goes way beyond the community that I live in, in the virtual world there are many I have never met who feel like the dearest of friends. And of course I am particularly grateful for those of you who have chosen to follow my sometimes whimsical and often quite strange meanderings through my own personal healing journey. Your commitment gives meaning to what I’m doing in this space, I love to write and explore in the realm of spirit but to truly be a writer you need people to read your work so THANK YOU EACH AND EVERYONE!!!
I feel as though I have learned a lot by setting out on this adventure, my original goal of improving my writing skills has definitely been achieved, although there is of course always more to be discovered and learned. But I’ve come a long way and it’s time to start thinking about what my bigger goals might be for this blog. The real challenge is going to be thinking about goals for the future while still being in the moment as much as possible, you may recall that part of my message from spirit over the Equinox weekend was not to be thinking too far ahead.
Sounds like a bit of a contradiction doesn’t it, well I will simply have to find a way to do both, in the extraordinary world we live in all things are possible. And after all I am becoming more and more witchy, just need to find the right spell!
For a little musical magic here is the Steve Miller Band with “Abracadabra”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vWPQQbldFjw
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Stepping out of the box, that’s the invitation, I don’t seem to have the time to read “The Art of non-conformity” so maybe I just have to do what my intuition is telling me to. To put myself out there with self-confidence, authenticity, passion, and be ready to receive the potential that flows back to me even if it comes in forms that are unexpected. I made an important shift a couple of days ago, I noticed that when I thought about my writing there was passion and excitement there, but there was also the idea that it took a lot of time and didn’t support me financially. That’s hardly thinking of successful outcomes, there certainly isn’t faith in my vision when I am in the energetic field created by that thought.
So I’ve started describing the time I spend on my writing as work, “I have to go home and work tonight” I said to the girl at the cash register and she looked intensely curious as she asked me what I was working at. I told her I was a writer and it felt good to say it and be witnessed, and I did go home and work on how I was going to get myself out there, as well as write an inspired blog post. Just telling you about it here feels like yet another stage of being witnessed, I can feel my ego getting frightened as I strip away even more of what you are ‘supposed’ to do, and do my best to surrender to what I ‘know’.
Even when knowing, and lived experience don’t seem to be saying the same thing, breathe and surrender, let the larger self be the guide on a journey of opening hearts and letting go………. There are times when we need to allow ourselves to be led by intuition in its purest form, without question, to be in that place truly is why it’s so important to let go of everything that obscures that clear view.
And Animal totems along the way can be our allies on the journey, but that’s another post, until I speak to you again, love and blissings……………
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