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Do I Have To?: Even When It Feels Good.

ortho-bionomyThe process of self-care goes on as I do my best to respond to the painful messages my body has been sending me lately as I enter into this new phase of stepping into my power. I’ve managed to do a bit of yoga although no real routine as yet, note to self: tomorrow morning I will do a bit of a stretch even if it’s only for 5 or 10 minutes. That’s how it can work sometimes when you are trying to get back into good habits, do what you can and there is a cumulative effect regardless of how much time you’ve spent. And know when it’s time to ask for help, I had an awesome bodywork session a few weeks ago and last week I had a session of Ortho Bionomy. This is a technique that uses gentle movement of the body and compression of the joints to encourage the body to correct itself. My body is feeling better but the neck pain is slow to move and I decided a follow up session would be wise. If you’d like to know more about this modality check out this website: http://www.ortho-bionomy.org.au/what-is-ortho-bionomy/

As I sit here tuning into my body I am getting the feeling that it would like me to dance more often, something that hasn’t been happening in my life so often lately. I’m pretty sure that there was a post not so long ago where I made an intention to dance on a regular basis. Then there was moving house and planning a wedding and somehow good intentions got lost on the way. At the same time that I feel the desire of my body to move creatively I can also sense a part of me that is the opposite and really can’t be bothered with dancing and such things! It is interesting to watch these interactions, we all have so many different aspects within it’s a wonder anyone bothers with television. I know from my own experience that trying to motivate the reluctant aspect of self can be like trying to swim against the river’s current.

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So the way that I navigate these sometimes confusing currents is to do whatever I can that is fairly easy, kind of like picking the low hanging fruit on the tree. At the moment that means doing some yoga in the mornings and holding the intention to dance. It might be a 5 minute boogie to music at home, or a quick jig to music playing in a café or bar, I’m fortunate in that I have no shame when it comes to dancing in public. So really I have no excuse and in fact I am going to make a statement here, in the next week I will get up and dance at least twice for at least 5 minutes. And do some yoga on at least 4 days, won’t be so hard  this week as I’m planning to go to class this Friday and I have a whole day of silent retreat on Sunday with yoga and mindfulness mediation.

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And hopefully somewhere in all of this the various aspects of my inner world will become more aligned with a harmonious and happy life. The healing goes on and I become more and more able to step into my own power and complete my spiritual task here on Planet Earth. Aho!

Dancing The Earth, Dancing Myself!

transparent-bodies-moving1I had the best dance last Sunday! With the theme being ‘Songs for the Earth’ the music was very earthy and tribal and feminine, I felt a huge sense of release and an unfolding of trust. The sprung wooden floor is wonderful to move upon, I spent time on the floor as I explored the various levels possible and I could feel Mother Earth’s support. A wonderful place to dance but at night the bright lights are a bit too much and unfortunately can;t be dimmed. So next time in about a week and a half we will take lamps and fairy lights to create a better atmosphere. A magical space where people can let go into their own personal flow and connect in with the energies of the others present, the earth, the galaxy, the whole of creation!

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And most of all to have a really good dance, to move and stretch the body with joyful abandon so that I feel a bit sore the next day the way one does after a good yoga class. My Beloved and I are hatching a plan so that I can do his chill out yoga class each week, a gentle supported practice that invites deep opening in a place where one can truly let go. Just that simple fact of letting go is a powerful shift of energy that helps me to feel trusting and much clearer in myself. This combined with regular dancing may be my new physical practice, after all dance has always been my medicine.

My Beloved and I all dressed up and dancing! Photo by Antara May.

My Beloved and I all dressed up and dancing! Photo by Antara May.

I am so looking forward to the next Ecstatic Dance and all the future events we will facilitate through the year. I love creating sacred space and that is the strong focus we will bring to these occasions. This first one in the new space ended up being a little unprepared owing to the chaotic life events that my Beloved and I have been swimming in. But we got excellent feedback from those who joined us in the dance and with each experience we will grow and expand.

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Is life not a wondrous dance!

The Dance Is The Balancing Act Of Life!

Mother Nature's Balancing Act!

Mother Nature’s Balancing Act!

Things move afoot and the dance is to surrender to the wave of life force energy even when there is pain. There are lessons to be learned in surrendering to what is, even as you may be aware of positive changes that may help you navigate your journey.  It’s a balancing act but if you remain open to the wonder and joy of life then you find you are much more open to miraculous possibility. Here am I feeling somewhat sorry for myself as my shoulder flares up yet again, possibly even worse this time! Not fun but I do try to surrender and lo and behold my landlady gives me a lesson in binding myself with yoga straps and helping my shoulder no end.

Mine is across the top of the chest but you get the idea!

Mine is across the top of the chest but you get the idea!

The dance has been much upon my mind and even as I may retreat a little as I take good care of my sore bits, it is still swirling around. Not sure of a venue at this very moment so feeling the urge to share and a bit frustrated that it may be a while before we manage to do another dance. More than anything I feel that I need to be gentle and kind with me and let myself have a day off, at least until it’s time to go to work tonight!

So I will keep this short and finish by sharing with you my latest favourite bit of music, from a band called Lamb who have an awesome song called ‘Gorecki’ that we have used in more than one playlist. ‘All In Your Hands’ will definitely be making it on to a playlist once we get rolling again in the wave of ecstasy that is created by gathering people and giving them the space to express themselves  in movement to music.

Enjoy the song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9dWzbG2ie4M

Apocalypse Now.

Post_apocalypseReeling through the haze of a post-apocalyptic state, I realise that the revolution has been huge in the inner realms, end times always get bad press. Hasn’t anyone heard about the ones who banded together and co-operated their way into a golden new future, based on the principles of respect for all forms of life, all of it. And remember that this has to happen on a smaller scale, one bit of consciousness at a time, so don’t go banging on about how you don’t matter. There isn’t a single piece of anything in the known universe that isn’t worthy of the greatest respect, life is truly a miracle and I feel really plugged into that at the moment.

Some great lyrics here from World Party with their song “Private Revolution”:

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So I need to try to take responsibility for myself in the fullest way that I can, that means flexibility and the ability to respond so shedding is often on the schedule. As we move into the energy of the Winter Solstice, coming from an adventurous Full Moon in Sagittarius to the darkest point of the year, I can feel the old energies that I am letting go of. Through ceremony, yoga, herbs and food and the spiritual practices of relationship I can feel this energy that is being spewed out almost it feels. Certainly purging and I am pretty sure this is a case of better out than in, I don’t always need to know what I am releasing but it is clear that this is uncomfortable material.

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Thanks to all of you who follow my ramblings, writing this to you is helping me to integrate and process the energies moving through, never underestimate the power of some kind of journaling. But I think I need to let go of the overview and just be in each moment for a bit now so I will bid you farewell and see you on friday!

Love and blissings!

Altered States Of Experience.

formula oneNavigating different realities, my Beloved is studying transpersonal counselling and he has been talking about mapping the various states of consciousness that we move through in the course of a day. I’ve always been fascinated by altered states, it was that aspect of Formula One that appealed to me when I followed the sport rather intensely for about seven years. Seem strange? Not really when you think about it, there is no way someone could take a corner at the impossibly high speeds that they do in an everyday state of consciousness.

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There are as many ways of attaining various states as there are people, some of the best known would be meditation, yoga, vision quest, dance and drumming……the list goes on and on. And there have been people using the medicine of the plant kingdom to facilitate journeys for as long as we are aware of, a blink in the cosmic eye but for human perception long enough! Ayahuasca is a better known plant medicine that has been part of the traditions of people in the Amazon, it is a spiritual practice that they shared with the world and it is reported to help immensely with spiritual development.

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http://www.robinskey.com/ayahuasca-and-don-pablo-amaringos-paintings/

transparent-bodies-moving1Moving my body in the dance has been an important way of shifting realities for me, you allow your whole body to become the music so that it is playing through you. This takes you into the perspective of your larger self, the one who is conscious of the interconnectedness of all things, that can see the interplay of energies as life goes on. Toning also has been a wonderful way of going into the space of unified consciousness, sound is incredibly powerful and has often been a part of various therapies I have experienced.

So find a method that appeals to you, with so much choice you are sure to find something that helps you to open to the divine within your self, and therefore everything that you are connected to, which is everything! If that statement is  a bit of a mystery to you then it’s probably time to dive on in, your larger self may have drawn you to read these words for a reason.

Do you know why? Would it be intriguing to find out? Time for an adventure in the inner realms!

There can be no better start to such a journey as the experience of listening to Terence McKenna, plus some amazing images, enjoy! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rufFWxvZ0U

Flying Into The Mystery, As I Fall Apart!

falling apartI was getting ready to go and visit a friend in hospital yesterday and as I put my bag on my shoulder I felt a sudden and sharp pain in my right neck and shoulder. A few gentle stretches and I was on my way but I could feel the soreness in my body and this gradually got worse as the day went on, felt like I was falling apart! I began to notice other aches in my body and realised that my second yoga class for the year (yes I did finally make it!) had really had quite an impact.

There is the obvious fact that if you are not stretching so often the muscles are going to end up a bit sore when you actually do get to it, but as always I tend to contemplate a bigger picture when I consider physical manifestations such as aches and pains. Love making is a place where a lot of my therapy happens these days, it can be enormously helpful in moving energies that are active in the body and so assist in clearing out old patterns. So there was quite a lot coming up for me and at one point I could ‘see’ this black shape in my neck, it was a rough black shape a bit like an infinity symbol.

Masculine Feminine SpiritForce

It seemed to dissolve with the movement of energy so I think it was released but it will probably be something I will check on when I am on my medicine journey tonight. My intention will revolve around physical healing as that is what is coming up strongly for me at the moment, the bladder is still behaving itself at present but I when I tune in I can feel that it is still not in an optimum state of health. My experience on journeys is that my intention is always addressed but often I get a much bigger and broader picture so it will be interesting to see what comes up.

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I feel very ‘open’ which is a great space to be in when going into the mystery, the trick is to state your intention and then to let it go and surrender to the process. What a fortunate life I do lead where I have the opportunity to go on grand adventures into my inner realms, with beautiful facilitators who hold a deep and respectful space that I can dive into, carried on the wings of trust.

Fly, fly high, let the earth touch the sky………………an inspirational song from the fabulous Deva Premal and Miten, enjoy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UKYgA2JaufY

 

 

 

Practice Loving And Find Peace.

This image comes from what looks like a wonderful business that brings yoga into the workplace: yogaworkflow.com

This image comes from what looks like a wonderful business that brings yoga into the workplace: yogaworkflow.com

I am thinking a lot about the fact that I’m not doing much yoga at the moment, I know it will come back into my routine but I can feel the difference in my body. Although my physical self is mostly feeling pretty good owing to my loving workouts in the sensual world of tantra and body awareness, thank you to the Beloved, all of it. But I will be glad when I shift back into more regular practice because for me it is something that is grounding and irons out any kinks that I may have put in over a day.

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It is so important to move your body, in fact your lymph system depends on it, that plays a vital role in the flow of blood in the circulatory system so being physically active is really important. The lymphatic system is also a key factor in maintaining our health, it is integral to the body’s ability to detox and to maintain a strong immune system. We do tend to do a lot of things sitting for sometimes long periods, I will tend to stretch my neck if I am working for long enough but I am sure I could introduce more self-awareness into my sedentary times.  Here is a link to an article about the lymphatic system: http://www.naturaltherapypages.com.au/article/lymphatic_system

It always comes back to awareness really, from that place flows all potential and possibility, see what is there and create whatever you want out in the quantum soup. So much of my journey is about letting go of the limitations that I have accepted and put upon myself, as we all have each in our own unique way. So I don’t give myself a hard time for not doing a lot of yoga, it’s not like I’m miserable or having a hard time at the moment. Life is good and I will do my best to bring my awareness to any health issues with curiosity and positivity, mostly I am concerned with prevention rather than a cure.

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There are almost certainly other methods that can create that difference in the body, it is about feeling toned and strong, I keep threatening to go to a dance class called Nia, don’t know yet if I will like it but dancing for my cardio workout sounds like an awesome idea! But I know I will come back to my yoga too, my body just adores being in that space, it has always felt like something I was being reminded of rather than taught. I suspect a number of lives back there in the deeps of time and space where spirituality and yoga were my life, at the very least it is an energy that I resonate with.

Pranayama.

Pranayama.

So if you go through times when you are not doing things that you love and are good for you, first step is to be kind to yourself. There is always a reason and change is important in life, when you come back to your practice you may find it has changed in a positive fashion. The same way that separation in  relationship can sometimes be a way of integrating change and ultimately making the relationship stronger.

I invite you to try out a loving practice with yourself, just for one day really notice when your mind makes a judgement about someone, it may be a stranger on the street. The practice is to send that person love instead, no reason why you can’t do it with bigger more impersonal issues too, sending your enemies love is actually a great strategy. But more on that in another post, time to let you go until the next time we meet!

Ohm shanti, shanti, shanti…………..peace, peace, peace.

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Farewell Dark Energies: Be Transformed!

flames burnAs I sit here I would love to say that my burning issue has passed as I move beyond the big party and public acknowledgement of becoming 50 years old. There is some relief involved but the deep letting go that has been going on for the last three months continues so I am keeping on with the colloidal silver. But I am sure that being present with my feelings is the best way to heal all of this, on my own and with my Beloved. I do try not to ignore the physical but surely any condition present in the body has an energetic source, which if treated, will dissolve the physical symptoms.

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Very soon I will be in a new house sit and there will be time and space for my Beloved and I to bring a strong intention to our loving, for the healing to flow and energy be made available to heal the disharmonious frequency. And perhaps some reiki and massage or toning perhaps, a dance or a breath session even and a bit of random yoga, the possibilities contained within the quantum soup are bottomless. I am determined to heal myself, my intuition says stay away from doctors so if I do feel that professional help would be useful I will be going to see a friend who is alternative and who I trust.

In the meantime I am sitting with this and doing my best to allow the energies to keep moving through me, I’m doing a lot of farting and it isn’t because of lentils this time! Feels like it is a part of what is moving through, very visceral, torture, blood, sweat and tears…………….not surprising that it doesn’t feel very comfortable as it is moving out after a long stay.

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Farewell dark energies, go back into the field and be transformed as I let go of my fear and step into the light of my own magnificence! Hooray!!!!!

I Laughed So Hard I Wet Myself!

bumpy roadI almost decided to take a holiday on this post but my over conscientious  and obsessive nature won’t let me let you down. So here I am trying to make sense as I am being driven along a sometimes bumpy road by my Beloved, as we embark on day three of some much-needed time off. Ahhhh………..at last the freeway is offering a smoother passage………so what do I have to share with you today?

Well the first thing that comes to mind s that laughter is the best medicine of all, helpless laughter over the silliest things and I feel like a child. A child in the best sense of the word, present and open to whatever life may bring to me and full of wonder and joy at the gifts that I already enjoy in such bountiful helpings. Laughing so hard I actually pee myself, embarrassing but true, you see how much trust I’ve developed in life! Well, would you admit to the world that you wet your pants!!

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My heart, mind and soul feel incredibly open as I continue to move into this amazing new chapter of my life, my spirit dances and my intuition sings. The mind does its best to keep up with the larger me but this morning its feeling a little overwhelmed and struggling to be coherent, much less entertaining or profound.

AN INTERMISSION WHILE WE WALK THE CITY STREETS SEEKING A GOWN TO ADORN GALADRIEL FOR MY FABULOUS 50TH BIRTHDAY PARTY, FOR THE UNINITIATED THAT’S A LORD OF THE RINGS THING. GALADRIEL IS RATHER SERIOUS IN THE FILM SO I’M GOING TO BE HER TEENAGE WILD CHILD SELF, THE PERIOD IN HER LIFE WHEN THE FIRE IN HER BELLY MATCHED THE HAIR ON HER HEAD!

Here's Galadriel being all serious!

Here’s Galadriel being all serious!

I’m back and writing as we drive along, this is the first time I’ve walked city streets for a whole year and it was a tad overwhelming. Since moving to the country I am much more sensitive, it’s less about all the buildings and cars and traffic lights and more to do with the thronging energies of people and devices milling about in a sea of chaos.

If you want to develop your sensitivity and still live in an urban environment then I suggest you consider carefully what kinds of practices might support you in remaining open without becoming overcome by the sheer  volume of energetic traffic. Meditation is always helpful and there are as many ways of doing it as there are people. Any activity where you are firmly ensconced in your heart will give you protection and help you to perceive the beauty of life in whatever environment you are in.

The analogy for that state of consciousness that the American Indians call “Beauty’s Way”, is being in love. It’s a pretty nice way of going there but luckily it isn’t the only doorway, I’m driving the Love Bug quite blissfully at the moment but it is by no means the first time that I’ve travelled that particular inner landscape. I’ve found it through friendships, dance, yoga and meditation, I always joke about toning being my favourite way of getting ‘bent’, I’m sure there are endorphins that get triggered when we are doing things that we love that bring us into openness and joy.

Can you imagine a world full of open-hearted, joyful folk, all expressing their uniqueness in the world and creating a global community of co-operation and mutual care? I can, and the more of us that hold this vision in our heart space, the more likely we are to get there!

Shanti, shanti, shanti………peace, peace, peace.

Reclaim Your Mind From The Cultural Engineers.

I stopped having much to do with the world of television, magazines and celebrity watching thirteen years ago, it wasn’t a conscious decision, I just became absorbed in doing other things. I was practicing yoga for an hour every day, going for long walks and sitting on the river bank and toning across the water. Around me there was a deepening shadow that was my lovely flat mate being sucked back into a drug fueled space that was changing her personality and causing me to retreat into the inner temple that I was creating inside of myself.

Sounds like a bad situation but when I look back upon it I remember how strong and alive I was feeling, when a particularly nasty character moved in I responded by becoming even more full of light. There was a poem that I used to keep the darkness at bay, my first experience of the power of intention, it kept me from taking on any of the dark energy that was all around me.

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In a world that seems totally insane at times, it is so important to create your own space of peace and harmony, somewhere you can go to re-charge and regenerate your spirit and soul. I found this so much easier to do when I opted out of popular culture, you have more time to find your stillness and to notice what is going on inside your own mind. Over time as I delved deeper and deeper into myself I found the inner movie show a lot more interesting than anything I had ever watched on television.

So I couldn’t agree more with these inspiring words from Terence McKenna:

“You want to reclaim your mind and get it out of the hands of the cultural engineers who want to turn you into a half-baked moron consuming all this trash that’s being manufactured out of the bones of a dying world.”

Time to wake up!

http://www.educateinspirechange.org/2013/06/reclaim-your-mind-terence-mckenna.html